Hangover
You can change her humor and her behavior but you cannot change her into a Steelers fan
As I watched her stalk off to explore the rest of the pent house, I felt my heart swell thinking about how she just said fiancé. I mean I get where she was coming from, it would get a bit annoying considering she was getting married but I miss my Sophie. The one that would be willing to run away with me, get drunk and lay in an open field staring up at the stars. I missed being close to her, knowing everything about her and being the only one who could know what she was thinking. But she had replaced me for Kyle, I mean it was bound to happen because I don't have the balls to tell her I'm in love with her.
I hadn't always liked Sophie I mean, there were days in high school that I definitely had those days that Sophie blew me away. But I would always be the one with girls talking about me and I guess I at the time I was proud of it but now I'm not because I know Sophie would never look at me the same. When we kissed in Rian's basement I thought of her as just one of those girls but not until a few years ago that I knew I was falling for my best friend.
It was our first Warped Tour so of course Soph was coming along, plus my mother didn't want me going alone with out some sort of ground and that's how Sophie was intitated into the crew. Everyone loved her, she cooked and cleaned but only for her own benefit. She not only straightened my hair, but also Jacks and half of Warped Tour's hair. And she didn't even accept a penny.
For the first half of the tour, I was still in a relationship with someone from back home but it wasn't that serious. It wasn't until late July that I told her that we couldn't be together but again it wasn't because of Sophie. It was because I was a teenager and I had urges, I didn't want to cheat so I didn't. I found myself with a different girl from a different state every night before band call, I knew it was risky but I was a teenage rock star. I knew I got the stares from Sophie every night when I escorted one of the young teen girls out every night but I didn't think I was actually hurting her until one night when everyone was at the BBQ.
I had just finished up with a girl, escorted her out and as I did, I met up with Sophie who gave me the cold shoulder when she entered the bus. After saying a goodbye to the chick I had just banged, I went back on the bus to see what was wrong with Soph because she was my best friend and I couldn't ignore it.
"What's wrong Soph?" I asked, she was sitting on the leather seats that the bus was equipped with and she was reading a book. She pushed her glassed up from the piece on the bridge of her nose and sighed, still ignoring me. "Soph? Did I do something wrong?"
"Nope"
"Well obviously I did" I stated, standing in front of her and she shook her head.
"It's really no big deal, it's stupid"
"If it's bothering you, it's not stupid and you can tell me anything" I explained, I kneeled down in front of her and that caused her to hug her knees at her chest.
"I guess, I- I don't know"
"Please tell me, so I can fix it"
"Ugh, Alex I guess I'm trying to say that when you take a girl every night and well do her, it kind of hurts me" She explained, vaguely and my heart skipped a beat for her, for one of the first times,
"Are you j-jealous?" I stammered at my words, Sophies face fell a bit and she scrunched up her nose and I hadn't realized how cute it was when she did that. I hadn't ever really examined her face so closely before and had ever gone into so much detail about it either.
"I mean I g- no I'm not It's just you defying females like that, it kind of hurts me because all those girls are almost just like me"
"How are they just like you?" I asked, the corner of Sophie's lips curled up a bit and she looked at me with her green eyes. "I mean, you aren't a slut"
Then her face faultered, I had said something wrong and I immediately felt terrible.
"See Alex, you don't even know those girls" She stated, her hands burrowing into fist and she hit her face in her knees. "How do you know they're sluts?"
"Well, I mean they don't even know me and they slept with me pretty quickly" I explained, a bit nervous that I would say the wrong thing and I did because just after I say that Sophie scoffed.
"Alex, that's because you're a rockstar and they want to maybe have a chance at winning you over; I mean I would sleep with Billie Joe Armstrong or Mark Hoppus anyday but not because I'm a slut but because, well just because" She explained, her reasoning was right and I sort of let out a laugh. She was right, those girls weren't sluts.
"I guess you're right, I didn't mean to hurt you and I guess I'll stop" I explained, looking into her green eyes once again and seeing them gleam out light.
"You don't have to stop completely, I just don't want you objectifying women because it won't get you into a good place" She explained, before sliding her book over from the table and placing it in her lap again. She began reading, and a stood back from her. I took her in and I just couldn't believe I had missed it.
She was absolutely gorgeous.
She was stunning.
She was smart, intellectual, literate, funny, and she totally understands me.
She had been in my life for more than ten years and I had been wasting my time on people who didn't matter.
Now I've had those moment where I thought I was an idiot, I mean it was only a few years later that I totally made myself look stupid in front of Mark Hoppus in the studio and you can look on youtube to see it. But that moment when I realized that the girl for me was right in front of me for all those years, I hadn't felt more stupid in my life.
And to this day I still feel stupid, because she isn't mine and she getting married in a week. I missed out on all my chances over the years because I just didn't know how she felt. But now I do.
"You okay dude? You see out of it?" Jack asked, hitting me in the face with a pillow and I nodded.
"Yeah, just thinking- so where are we going to eat?" I asked, my three best friends stared at me in shock as I didn't even react to what Sophie had just said.
"Dude, she basically just-"
"Can we not talk about whoever is in the other room right now? Because I had to spend a fucking 26 hour car ride with whoever that is and I wondered the whole time how I could have prevented her from being brain washed from the stuck up greek ass bastard. Because in there, that's not my Sophie and I want my Sophie back" I exclaimed, but making sure it wasn't loud enough for Sophie to hear. I just fell back onto the chocolate couch and rubbed my temples. I felt the couch sink and I turned to see Jack.
"Then that's exactly what we'll do, I mean Las Vegas is the place and I mean Alex, we all know how much you like her and we're going to help you" Jack stated, and I looked up at Rian and Zack who stood there stunned.
"Jack I don't think there's much we can do, she loves him and as much as it hurts me to say this, I need to move on and accept that I lost"
"Oh but Alex you haven't lost until the vowes and I do is said, we have one week to make her realize that she is making a msitake and I mean we're a team, we can do this"
"Jack-"
"Have you figured out where we are going to eat?" Sophie asked, Rian and Zack gasped as the looked at her and when I turned around, I saw the horror.
She was wearing, black short shorts and combat boots, her hair was straight and she had the necklace I gave her for her twentieth birthday. But that was not what we were staring at, the shirt she was wearing clearly spoke Kyle and I guess was the reason our foot ball parties always ended in Kyle and Sophie leaving early.
She was wearing a Steelers shirt.
"I think we're just going to grab some subs and then go sight seeing" I spoke, Sophie smiled and then turned back to get her purse.
"You can change her humor and her behavior but you cannot change her into a Steelers fan" Jack whispered.
"Okay, I'm in but if at the end of this Sophie isn't any of our friends anymore- I'm blaming it on you Jack"
"Fair enough, you guys in?" Jack asked the other two who were just standing there quietly.
"I mean, if we're setting the blame on Jack why not?" Rian stated and nodded.
"Uh, i don't know guys I mean, you may not like Kyle but I don't find him that bad" Zack stated, him being the nice guy I guess that's normal.
"Don't worry Zack, you'll join the dark side soon" Jack said, using his darth Vader voice.
I then started praying it ended the way I wanted it to.
I hadn't always liked Sophie I mean, there were days in high school that I definitely had those days that Sophie blew me away. But I would always be the one with girls talking about me and I guess I at the time I was proud of it but now I'm not because I know Sophie would never look at me the same. When we kissed in Rian's basement I thought of her as just one of those girls but not until a few years ago that I knew I was falling for my best friend.
It was our first Warped Tour so of course Soph was coming along, plus my mother didn't want me going alone with out some sort of ground and that's how Sophie was intitated into the crew. Everyone loved her, she cooked and cleaned but only for her own benefit. She not only straightened my hair, but also Jacks and half of Warped Tour's hair. And she didn't even accept a penny.
For the first half of the tour, I was still in a relationship with someone from back home but it wasn't that serious. It wasn't until late July that I told her that we couldn't be together but again it wasn't because of Sophie. It was because I was a teenager and I had urges, I didn't want to cheat so I didn't. I found myself with a different girl from a different state every night before band call, I knew it was risky but I was a teenage rock star. I knew I got the stares from Sophie every night when I escorted one of the young teen girls out every night but I didn't think I was actually hurting her until one night when everyone was at the BBQ.
I had just finished up with a girl, escorted her out and as I did, I met up with Sophie who gave me the cold shoulder when she entered the bus. After saying a goodbye to the chick I had just banged, I went back on the bus to see what was wrong with Soph because she was my best friend and I couldn't ignore it.
"What's wrong Soph?" I asked, she was sitting on the leather seats that the bus was equipped with and she was reading a book. She pushed her glassed up from the piece on the bridge of her nose and sighed, still ignoring me. "Soph? Did I do something wrong?"
"Nope"
"Well obviously I did" I stated, standing in front of her and she shook her head.
"It's really no big deal, it's stupid"
"If it's bothering you, it's not stupid and you can tell me anything" I explained, I kneeled down in front of her and that caused her to hug her knees at her chest.
"I guess, I- I don't know"
"Please tell me, so I can fix it"
"Ugh, Alex I guess I'm trying to say that when you take a girl every night and well do her, it kind of hurts me" She explained, vaguely and my heart skipped a beat for her, for one of the first times,
"Are you j-jealous?" I stammered at my words, Sophies face fell a bit and she scrunched up her nose and I hadn't realized how cute it was when she did that. I hadn't ever really examined her face so closely before and had ever gone into so much detail about it either.
"I mean I g- no I'm not It's just you defying females like that, it kind of hurts me because all those girls are almost just like me"
"How are they just like you?" I asked, the corner of Sophie's lips curled up a bit and she looked at me with her green eyes. "I mean, you aren't a slut"
Then her face faultered, I had said something wrong and I immediately felt terrible.
"See Alex, you don't even know those girls" She stated, her hands burrowing into fist and she hit her face in her knees. "How do you know they're sluts?"
"Well, I mean they don't even know me and they slept with me pretty quickly" I explained, a bit nervous that I would say the wrong thing and I did because just after I say that Sophie scoffed.
"Alex, that's because you're a rockstar and they want to maybe have a chance at winning you over; I mean I would sleep with Billie Joe Armstrong or Mark Hoppus anyday but not because I'm a slut but because, well just because" She explained, her reasoning was right and I sort of let out a laugh. She was right, those girls weren't sluts.
"I guess you're right, I didn't mean to hurt you and I guess I'll stop" I explained, looking into her green eyes once again and seeing them gleam out light.
"You don't have to stop completely, I just don't want you objectifying women because it won't get you into a good place" She explained, before sliding her book over from the table and placing it in her lap again. She began reading, and a stood back from her. I took her in and I just couldn't believe I had missed it.
She was absolutely gorgeous.
She was stunning.
She was smart, intellectual, literate, funny, and she totally understands me.
She had been in my life for more than ten years and I had been wasting my time on people who didn't matter.
Now I've had those moment where I thought I was an idiot, I mean it was only a few years later that I totally made myself look stupid in front of Mark Hoppus in the studio and you can look on youtube to see it. But that moment when I realized that the girl for me was right in front of me for all those years, I hadn't felt more stupid in my life.
And to this day I still feel stupid, because she isn't mine and she getting married in a week. I missed out on all my chances over the years because I just didn't know how she felt. But now I do.
"You okay dude? You see out of it?" Jack asked, hitting me in the face with a pillow and I nodded.
"Yeah, just thinking- so where are we going to eat?" I asked, my three best friends stared at me in shock as I didn't even react to what Sophie had just said.
"Dude, she basically just-"
"Can we not talk about whoever is in the other room right now? Because I had to spend a fucking 26 hour car ride with whoever that is and I wondered the whole time how I could have prevented her from being brain washed from the stuck up greek ass bastard. Because in there, that's not my Sophie and I want my Sophie back" I exclaimed, but making sure it wasn't loud enough for Sophie to hear. I just fell back onto the chocolate couch and rubbed my temples. I felt the couch sink and I turned to see Jack.
"Then that's exactly what we'll do, I mean Las Vegas is the place and I mean Alex, we all know how much you like her and we're going to help you" Jack stated, and I looked up at Rian and Zack who stood there stunned.
"Jack I don't think there's much we can do, she loves him and as much as it hurts me to say this, I need to move on and accept that I lost"
"Oh but Alex you haven't lost until the vowes and I do is said, we have one week to make her realize that she is making a msitake and I mean we're a team, we can do this"
"Jack-"
"Have you figured out where we are going to eat?" Sophie asked, Rian and Zack gasped as the looked at her and when I turned around, I saw the horror.
She was wearing, black short shorts and combat boots, her hair was straight and she had the necklace I gave her for her twentieth birthday. But that was not what we were staring at, the shirt she was wearing clearly spoke Kyle and I guess was the reason our foot ball parties always ended in Kyle and Sophie leaving early.
She was wearing a Steelers shirt.
"I think we're just going to grab some subs and then go sight seeing" I spoke, Sophie smiled and then turned back to get her purse.
"You can change her humor and her behavior but you cannot change her into a Steelers fan" Jack whispered.
"Okay, I'm in but if at the end of this Sophie isn't any of our friends anymore- I'm blaming it on you Jack"
"Fair enough, you guys in?" Jack asked the other two who were just standing there quietly.
"I mean, if we're setting the blame on Jack why not?" Rian stated and nodded.
"Uh, i don't know guys I mean, you may not like Kyle but I don't find him that bad" Zack stated, him being the nice guy I guess that's normal.
"Don't worry Zack, you'll join the dark side soon" Jack said, using his darth Vader voice.
I then started praying it ended the way I wanted it to.
6/23/13