Ivy

It wasn't for another couple of weeks from getting off tour did I notice the bad feelings creeping there way back in through my brain. It wasn't until I had Alex shouting at me, telling me to just 'Stop' It wasn't until I no longer had Alex's arms around my body. That I realized that I couldn't do it anymore. I needed Alex. He couldn't take it any longer, he couldn't take me. Just like the shit on his shoes he tossed me to the ground leaving my thoughts with me. I mean I understand, he couldn't take it anymore. I was starting to get bad again, and I mean very bad. I had or have stopped eating. My self harming got a whole lot worse. Alex kept trying to save me. But he can't no one can, not even my desperate brother. Alex still comes round often to see Zack, and maybe me but I know we can't and we wont be together he doesn't want me as much as I want him. He doesn't need someone like me in his life. I needed to get away.

Alex

She was killing me as well as herself. The last thing I had expected was the news that she had gone. Zack rang me that morning telling me she had left. Without a word. Just leaving a note. 1 for me, 1 for Zack. I quickly hung up. I tried to process the information, My Ivy was gone. She just packed her things and left me all on my own. I was stupid I let her go, I couldn't see her killing herself again, it all got to much. She wan't eating, the cuts was unbearable to touch I couldn't see her doing this again. So I left her instantly regretting my decisions I would never have her again. I would never wrap my arms around her petite body. I could never hold her or kiss her. She was gone without a trace. I jumped into my car and drove to Zacks, I needed o see the note I needed to see if there was any clue to where she is. I don't even bother parking properly before I know it I was in Ivy's room watching Zack cry. I look at him as he points to a bit of paper.

'Dear lexy

I have to leave you, I can't stay here with these thoughts I can't be here thinking what me and you were or what we could have been. My head is eating me up again, everyday it's getting worse please don't blame yourself you've done nothing wrong I love you and I always will but I need to leave before they get worse. I don't know what's happened to bring them back, maybe it's just being in this house. I can't promise i'll ever see you again, please look after Zack for me he's probably broken explain to him that I just couldn't take it anymore. I love you lex and I hope one we will see each other again and not hold any grudges I hope you meet someone nice and forget about me. You saved me for so long, but now I have to try and save myself. Thank you for trying to understand. All time low will do great!

-Yours Ivy.
P.s Please don't try and contact me, I have left my phone here.

As I read through the letter I felt fresh tears escape but I felt the anger boil up

"Why didn't you try and stop her, how could you just let her leave?"

"Zack answer me!"

"Alex just leave, if it wasn't for you she'd still be here."

"Yeah fucking right, whatever."

I know Ivy wanted me to look after him, but i needed someone to look after me and without hesitation I get in my car and drive until I reach my own home as I storm inside I move towards my parents liqueur cupboard taking a bottle of whiskey and going to my room. Maybe tomorrow i'll regret this, Maybe tomorrow she'd be home. How dare she leave me. How dare she.

Notes

Okay so this is it. This is the last chapter D:

But don't worry there's a sequel! I'll post a link to it soon!

-kay