ALEX

So Ivy had agreed we should tell the others about us, now it was time to take her on a date. It will be our first official date. I was now in search of somewhere to take her I knew of a few restaurants here but not many this is the first time I've ever been here properly, I’m glad I get to spend it with my girl. I couldn't ask for much better. I bring her closer to me as I look around I notice a setback cafe it's not what I had planned but it's perfect none of the guys would find us here we could have a quiet time without them bothering us.

"Hey Ivy what do you think of that place?”I point towards the cafe?

"Aren't you supposed to be planning this Lex"

"Yes, but I wanted to see if you would like it first"

"It's up to you babe"

"Well lets go there, it looks nice and we can sit in peace without being worried Zack or anyone will find us, and if you don't like it that's just too bad" I let out a giggle so she knew I was joking.

I wrap my arm around her shoulder to bring her closer to me and then I plant a soft kiss to the top of her head.

As we walk into the cafe, I realize how quiet it is, there was a woman in her thirties smiling at us, Ivy walks on past the women and takes a seat just at the back of the place, and she takes a menu and passes it to me.

"Are you having anything Ivy?"

"I'm not hungry Alex"

"You haven't eaten since you got on the van"

"Yeah well, I haven't been hungry since"

"I thought you were going to eat something that's why we came here"
I say getting a little bit annoyed at her, why won’t she eat something, why would she agree to come and get something to eat and then not eat a thing? Has she eaten today? I wonder what the last thing she ate was.

"No I never said I was going to eat I just agreed I would come with you"

"Why are we even here Ivy, this isn't a date at all, this is not how it's supposed to be. We should both be eating, when did you last eat?"

"Then go Alex, if all you're going to do is bitch at me for not eating then go, I'm not hungry I’m going to eat if I’m not hungry okay? Please don't make me do something I don't want to do."

"Fine Ivy, I’ll leave. I'm bitching at you because I’m worried about it. I haven't seen you eating for at least 3 days. I wanted you to just eat something but don't bother okay. I forgot I’m just a baby-sitter to you. I'll see you back at the van"

IVY

"Alex wait" He didn't listen just kept on going, I had no idea where I was or where the van was, slowly I stood up with tears rolling down my face, wishing I didn't say what I did, wishing I was normal. I wasn't ready to go back to the van just yet, but I knew I had to get back just before Alex did, or he would tell everyone about us. I know that when he's angry he doesn't give a shit about anything. He just rambles on and when they ask where I am to he will tell them everythinghe'll tell them how lame and how fat you are too.The voices won’t leave, they've been here for a while, but I know they’re getting stronger again. Alex doesn't need someone like me. I had to sit down for a bit, I felt I was going to pass out. I don't understand what happened everything was good, I felt good around him and with him. I may have ruined everything; he must think I’m a freak.Think? He knows you're a freak Ivy; he's only with you because he feels sorry for you!
I couldn't take anymore I cried and cried until I felt arms slip around my shoulder

"I'm sorry"

I knew the voice I just cuddled up to him

"I can't take it anymore"

"What can't you take"

"The fact you were right, the fact that they're back. The fact that I’m not okay."

"What was I right about?"

"I haven'teaten today Alex, I didn't eat yesterday or the day before."

"Ivy why do you want to starve yourself? You're amazing you're beautiful"

"But they don't tell me that"

"Who don't"

If he knows about us he will think you're even crazier.

"No-nothing Alex"

"Ivy please tell me, I'll still be here."

"No Alex, its fine, why did you come back?"

"I never left, I was just round the corner taking a breather away from it, I saw you walk out and I followed you, I didn't want anything bad to happen then I saw you sit down here you look ill and then you broke down, I couldn't leave you on your own"

"Thank you"

"For what?"

"For being here and staying with me"

"What kind of guy would I be if I didn't? Now tell me who 'they' are please Ivy?"

"A normal one? The voices Alex they're back, they've been back for a while."

"Well normal guys suck then, and we will get through this okay?"

"I don't think I can"

"Don't be silly of course you can, I’m here now alright?"

"Okay"

"Shall we go back to the lovely bus?"

"Yes"

He helped me up then gripped my hand he look upset, I knew it was my fault I couldn't help it anymore I wasn't okay but with Alex I might be able to push through it. I haven't felt like this with any other person but Alex. We were just getting back to the van and Alex turned around a kissed me gently.

"I need that, before we got back sorry"

"It's okay Alex, I needed it too"

We carried on walking and Alex dropped my hand but just before he did I whispered to him

"Let me tell him first okay? I love you Alex. Really I do"

"You don't have to baby, and I love you too"

"I do"

Notes

I have no excuse of why I haven't wrote for 3 months all I can say is that i'm sorry, but i'm going to try and be better at this. I hope this chapter is alright, It's not the best thing for you guys but you needed a chapter and I tried to write a good one.

Please give me a comment on what I can do better in the story and I will do better

-Kay