*Skips 3 weeks A/N otherwise this could get boring*
IVY

3 week have gone so fast, it’s only another 3 till the boys come home I’m getting more excited about it, I’ve kept my promise to Alex and I have been out more than 5 times thanks to Dylan who is still living with me and is making me go out nearly every day just to get coffee even when I don’t feel like it he persuades me, of course going out comes with a price my, self-harm has got a lot worse for the first couple of days I tried I really did, I tried not to but I just couldn’t take it anymore, at the moment I’m stood in front of my mirror staring at the body I hate so much I start pinching at my skin seeing every inch of fat, I’ve never been the type of girl to worry about it, but lately my head is turning on me again, and now cutting it not enough. It want something else. I haven’t eaten a lot in the past 4 days no one has noticed, I don’t want to be too fat for Dylan, I want to be his friend but my body is not helping. I haven’t spoken to Zack in 2 weeks every time he ring I just don’t feel like answering or I’m out and feel that I would be rude. I’, also just sacred to talk to him, I’ve let him down. I’ve probably let Alex, Rian and Jack down to. I don’t know what’s going on with my brain I hear Dylan call my name from downstairs.

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“Ivy”
“Yeah?” I shout back down to him
“Come down here, I made you breakfast”

Oh yeah I forgot that my auntie and uncle have come on a short break, for a 3 days.

“Okay I’m coming now”

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I walk down the stairs smelling the food as I walk. How did I not smell it before, My stomach makes a noise, telling me that it really needs the food that’s now sat in front of me, eggs and bacon the only thing that we have left in the house.

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“I made your favorite, you haven’t been eating properly for a few days”
“Thank you it looks good”
I ignore his last comment
“Are you okay Ivy, you seem a little down”
“Yeah I’m good Dylan don’t worry, what are we doing today?”
I try to change the subject
“Well I am worried it seems that you’ve gone from smiley and happy Ivy to down and upset Ivy, I don’t like it, where’s my happy Ivy?”
“She’s here Dylan I’m okay I promise”
“Well okay but I feel like I don’t know enough about you Ivy, I know the important things but there are still a few questions in my head”
I see him suddenly shift in his seat, he look kind of nervous
“Well then shoot, your questions”
“Okay well first, where is your brother?”
Shit I wanted to keep this for as long I can, I don’t want him being friends with me because my brother is in a band
“Well he’s currently touring the country with his friends”
I try not to say that he’s in a band
“So have they gone on a road trip or something?”
“You could say that I guess”
“Ivy you’re not helping here, I still don’t know where your brother is”
“Okay Dylan, he’s on tour with his band”
“WOAH! Your brothers in a band?”
“Yeah All time low”
“I know the name, from somewhere”
“You might have heard of them around town, they are a pretty big deal around these parts”
“What type of music do they play?”
“Pop-punk”
“Sounds awesome, when’s he back?”
“3 weeks from now”
“Awesome, right questions number 2, who is ‘sexiest man alive’ on your phone, is he your boyfriend?”
I laughed, I didn’t know if that was rude, but it was funny jeez
“What’s so funny?”
“That’s not my boyfriend that’s Jack, he’s one of my brothers friends, he changed his name on my phone and made me promise to keep it, and I’m too lazy to change it so I haven’t bothered also I don’t want to see Jacks face when I do.”
“Oh now I feel stupid, but you do have a boyfriend?”
“No, Dylan I don’t. If I had boyfriend don’t you think I would be with him right now not here?”
“Oh yeah, I guess that makes sense”
“Are there any other questions Dylan?”
“Not that I can think of, so what do you want to do today chick?”
“I’m not sure, can’t we just stay in today watch a movie or play some games, I’m sort of missing the guys today I don’t really feel like going out, or even getting changed”
“Whatever you want to do is fine with me, do you want me to go to the shop and buy some food?”
“If you want to, it’s up to you”
Knowing I’m not going to eat it anyway
“Okay well you set up the movie, I’ll be back in half and hour okay?”
“Yeah see you in a bit”
He stands up giving me a quick hug before leaving

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I deiced I should probably call Zack, he’s probably worried sick, he probably thinks I’m dead. He hasn’t bothered calling me this past week probably knowing I wasn’t going to answer, Alex has been texting me, so he knows I’m alive. After a while of ringing he picks up his phone

“Ivy, you’re alive?”
“Yes Zack, I am alive”
“How are you? Why haven’t you answered the phone? I was tempted to come home and see you”
“I’m okay, I miss you though, and I’m sorry every time you rang I was busy and when I wasn’t I was sleeping. Never do that Zack you know that I’ll be alright”
“Busy doing what? And I miss you too. I just got worried about you though Ivy never leave it this long to call me back please?”
“I’ve been going out with Dylan a lot in the past 3 weeks, I won’t I promise bro”
“That’s great see that’s the sort of answer I don’t mind”
I let out a laugh
“Everyone’s been so worried about you here, especially because there is some random guy living in our house”
“I’m sorry, and you don’t have to worry about Dylan he wouldn’t do anything to hurt me I promise, just trust me”
“I do trust you, I just don’t trust this kid I’ve never met him before. Of course I’m going to be a bit worried about it”
“I understand Zack but I have a brain I know who to trust and who I shouldn’t”
“I know you do, I have to pass you to Jack otherwise he’s going to cry”
I’ve realized this is all I need a phone call with Zack and the guys this is what I’ve been missing
“IVY, WHAT THE FUCK. WHY HAVE YOU NOT BEEN ANSWERING ANY OF OUR PHONE CALLS?”
He shouts at me, but I know he’s not angry at me
“Jack shut the fuck up, you know that you can’t act angry for shit, Zack will probably explain when this phone call is over”
“Well at least I try and okay”
He says in a baby voice
“How have you been Jacky, I’ve missed you”
“I’ve been drunk, hung over and repeat, yourself?”
“How do you even get served alcohol? And I’ve been great thanks”
Luckily Jack doesn’t know I’m lying, I hear the door open to reveal Dylan with a bag of food, I point to him to go in the room and pick a movie
“Well Ivy I have my ways darling, I have my ways”
“So basically Rian has been asking people if they will buy you lot drink?
“You know us to well little ‘un”
“Well what can I say I’ve known you for quite some time Mr Barakat, but it looks like I’ve got to go Dylan just got back with some goodies, love you say bye to Zack for me”
“I will do, just don’t leave it so long this time, ring us tomorrow love you to, goodbye darlin’”
I laughed as he but on the best English accent to say ‘darlin’
“You’re getting better at that”
With that we ended the call with a couple more goodbyes.

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Me and Dylan had just finished watching the first movie of the night, we were wrapped in a blanket with Dylan eating the food he bought.

“Ivy are you sure you’re okay?”
“Yes I’m fine why are you worried?”
“Because you’re not eating that much, you’ve become quiet and I don’t know why”
“It’s nothing don’t worry your pretty little head, this girl can look after herself you know”
“Well I hope she can”
I give him a reassuring smile, hoping that he doesn’t see through my lies.

Notes

I would have put this up earlier but i haven't been on my laptop for a week.
ENJOY
A few comments would be nice.


-Kay