No Pads… No Helmets… Just Memories!

"JASEY YOU HAVE TO SLEEP WITH HIM!" Cass bombarded down the phone line as I snapped the device away from my ear to save my hearing.

"Yeah, Jase, if you don't do it now your window of opportunity is shutting fast." Andrea's voice came down the line as well as I rolled my eyes. Picturing the two of them hunched over a single phone.

"Well, what happens if it does?" I asked carefully as I glanced to Alex. The boy paying no mind to my mindless phone call as he drove down the street. His features crinkled in the slightest as he fought to keep a straight face making my smile only widen. The very giddy smile I had on my face since that morning still shining bright as I held Alex's abnormally sweaty hand over the center console.

"Uh- it won’t," Cass answered, "because you are going to bang him, today!"

"Well, what if I don't?" I asked. Managing to keep my voice level and give nothing away as we drove down the road. Our street nearing with every second that passed. It felt so teen movie that was just waiting to go wrong. Like this was planned, exactly what we didn't want. Maybe I should have just skipped English and gotten it on with him in the music room, I mean it wasn't the best set up but it was certainly less uncomfortable. Well then again, what would we have done about protection? I mean, I was gone for two and a half years it’s not like I was around for Julie to get me on the pill, and it’s not like boys walk around with condoms on them. Right? Do boys do that?

"You will." Andrea broke me from my thoughts with a determined tone. "Jasey Rae Dawson listen to me," she said, "you are going to go in there and you are going to bang that boy like a screen door in a hurricane, got it!"

I bit my tongue to stop my bubbling laugh as I swallowed around my throat. Hardly forcing out a 'got it' as both girls began to laugh. Clearly enjoying my unease about the situation way more than they should have been. I looked up only to feel my heart stop in its cavity in my chest as I saw Alex pulling into his drive way. I muttered a quick goodbye to my friends and snapped my phone shut. Silencing their exaggerated moans and giggles I had somehow tuned out as Alex pulled our hands apart and killed the car's engine.

"So what did Cass have to say about the whole prom thing earlier?" Alex smirked as I dropped my hands to my lap. Blowing out a long breath as Alex grabbed his bag from the back. I rubbed a hand to my temple and released a half-assed laugh.

"Well, Rian sure got a lot of shit for the roses he put in her locker..." I muttered as Alex laughed loudly before climbing out of the car. It took me a moment to follow in step thanks to the spinning of my head and the trembling of my hands. It was almost as if my body was more nervous than my brain. I silently grabbed all my things and clambered out of the car in order to wrap around and hop up onto the porch where Alex was standing, holding the door for me to trudge through and drop my shit on the floor.

"Want something to drink?" Alex asked softly as he passed me, pressing a comforting hand to the small of my back as he passed on his way to the kitchen. I simply nodded my head as I stumbled after him. "Tea?" He offered as I rounded the corner to find him already holding up two boxes of tea bags with a playful grin.

I nodded again with a sleepy smile as he moved to boil some water. Quickly turning on the stove top and getting to work. "You’re too sweet..." I mumbled as I stumbled up behind him and lazily wrapped my hands around his back. Pressing a cheek to his spine.

"Jasey, are you okay?" Alex questioned gently. His hands trailing feather light touches down my arms that were wrapped around his middle as I soaked in the feeling of his skin on mine. Humming softly. When I didn't respond right away, Alex spun slowly in my grasp before leaning back against a counter beside the stove where he lifted a hand to softly caress my cheek. "You seem exhausted..."

I blinked up at him with soft eyes and a smile to match as I shook my head. Rolling to my toes and brushing my lips against his. I muttered a quick, "Nothing a little TLC can't fix..." Before I caught his lips in a soft motionless kiss. The boy humming as he smiled against my lips and broke the quick exchange.

His hand still on my face brushed a few strands from my eyes as he sighed. "You down for a little... Alex time?" He smirked as I looked up into his eyes. Trying my best not to laugh as I nodded my head.

"Sounds perfect..." I mused before he guided my lips back to his. I instantly sighed into the kiss. Never growing tired of feeling his soft lips on mine. Flesh on flesh as we molded ourselves as one.

"I’m sorry about earlier" Alex breathed between the movements of our lips as I smirked into the kiss. Reaching up and locking my arms around the back of his neck as his hands settled gently on my hips.

"Don't," I muttered, pecking his lips a few times before I broke away. Trying to ignore the way his head rolled back and his eyes remained shut as I pressed my hands to his shoulders. Drawing out my own long breath as I ran them down his arms to sit on his biceps. "I'm so used to this poetic, gentle giant that it was, refreshing to see that side of you..." I mused choosing my words carefully as Alex lifted his head, his eyes fluttering open. "A rougher side."

I took note of how his eyes darkened at my tone. Their usual golden flame fizzling into a deep chocolate brown. His teeth gnawing at his lower lip for just a moment as I felt his hands bunch up the fabric of my shirt to where he began to draw soft circles on my hips. "About what I said..." He trailed off as I bit my own lip and trailed my hands back up to the collar of his shirt, shaking my head.

"Just... Just shut up and kiss me..." I muttered as I wrapped my hands around the thin fabric and pulled his lips back down on mine. The instant his flesh graced mine, Alex took back the control. He forced my lips higher to his height by the grip on my hips as he kissed me with force. It didn't feel faster or rushed. But these kisses were deeper than the ones before. His hands dragging across my skin as he tried to pull me closer and closer, just feeling his body press up against mine. We were breathing heavily against one another as Alex's tongue found its way to my lips. Wanting to let him in but the need for air caught up to us fast and our mouths parted for air.

I slid my lips down his jaw and trailed over his neck as Alex threw his head back with a sigh. Feeling the beat of his heart quicken against my chest as I nibbled lightly at the vain running down the side his neck. Sucking a spot by the base of his ear as an earthy groan bubbled in his throat.

"My parents won’t be home till late..." He choked out as he dropped his head back even further. To ease the craning of his neck in the slightest, I slid my hands to the base of his neck and brought his head back up. My teeth continued to back step their work as I kissed along his jaw, my lips leaving a feather light trail of heat behind. "I meant it when I said they were both at work..."

I couldn't help but smirk against his skin as his grip on my hips sharply tightened and I knew he couldn't take it anymore, so I pulled my lips from his jaw. His eyes locking on mine as I watched the last few flecks of gold evaporate into the abyss of his pupils. I swallowed my nerves. Trying to play it cool as I reached over, passed Alex's hip and wrapped my hand around the knob on the stove. Turning off the flame to let the pot grow cold as I looked into Alex's eyes. "Then what are we doing here?"

Alex's grin turned wicked as he pressed his lips to mine in a derived and needy manner. Clutching my hips, he turned us sharply and forced my back to the counter. He slid his tongue over my lips as my spine hit the edge, forcing our lips to part from the shock. Alex took no time to waste as he bit down on my neck. Attacking the skin with bites and kisses, clearly seeking revenge. I couldn't fight the gasp as I held onto his neck, tangling my fingers in his golden locks as he bent at the knees. Feeling his hands slide down my thighs sending electricity up my legs, forcing me to surrender to his touch. I felt his grip tighten as he lifted me off the floor and slid my body back onto the counter.

"Alex..." I choked. Feeling his soft lips peck a line up my neck till he took one ragged breath and pressed his lips back to mine. I could feel the passion heating in the small crevice between us. The level rising to an even greater high as Alex rolled his hands from my hips to the curve of my ass and rocked my body closer to the counter's edge. Curving my body closer to his own.

As much as his actions were needy and rash, I didn't feel rushed. I felt heat sweltering in the pit of my stomach as my hands trailed over the terrain of his chest. It felt like that kiss that we shared in my kitchen on Christmas Eve. The first one where Alex thought no one was watching. The one that left me breathless as I felt as though I had all the time in the world to ravish in his being. But just like that kiss, we broke for air. My mind going to a blur when we each took a breath and resumed where we had left off. Not even opening my eyes in the split second his lips left mine.

I bit down hard on his lip when I felt his skin brush mine and the heat in my stomach expanded, leaking through my veins as I was poisoned by his touch. His hands slid up my sides at a painfully slow rate to cup my face. He took his time. Using his added height and sliding his tongue slowly back against mine till I was practically whimpering against his lips, begging for more. My nails dragged down his clothed back as I clawed at his shirt. Just wanting the fabric gone as I whimpered not wanting the feeling growing inside me to stop. But reading me wrong, Alex did.

He pulled his lips from mine, forehead rested against my own as I watched his chest heave from lack of air. His hand rubbing calmly against my jaw. "You don't have to do this..." Alex breathed as I ran my hands up under his shirt. Trailing my cold fingers along the waist band of his jeans and tracing the dimples in his back. Watching his chest as his skin hit against the fabric of his shirt before pulling away in the same instant. "As much as I want to... I can wait." He whispered.

'Jase, if you don't do it now your window of opportunity is shutting fast.' Andrea's voice rattled around in my head.

'Jasey, just- just, the next time he does something that you think is just overly sweet, and you appreciate, just- just jump his bones okay, just get him turned on and see where he takes it!'

I shut my eyes and took a deep breath.

'Yeah, maybe he's just nervous to scare you off!'

'Then if you’re not nervous, just... Go for it!'

I opened my eyes, feeling a catch in my throat as I looked up into his eyes. Seeing the tare between himself and his words, I knew what I was thinking was right. "I don't want to wait..." I told him, shaking my head as I slid my hand to his hips, bunching up the fabric of his t-shirt in my hands. His own breath catching at my words. "You told me you weren't done earlier," I breathed. "It's time to finish what you started."

I rolled the bottom of his shirt before releasing the fabric. Moving my hands past his sides. "I need to know..." Alex choked out past the sound of a muffled moan as I smirked. My hands trailing to his stomach where I slowly began to push up his shirt. "This isn't because of what I did earlier, right?" He mumbled. His words slightly slurred as I rolled his shirt and slid my fingers around his back to where I pressed the pads of my fingers to the base of his spine. "You're not doing this because it's what I want right?"

I laughed softly as I tugged on Alex's shirt. Slowly yanking it over his head with his help before I tossed it to behind him and let his arms drop to his sides. "Alex... You know me well enough to know," I sang to my pause as I dragged my nails softly down the tanned skin of his bare chest. Just soaking in the radiating heat. "I don't do anything I don't want to." I finished, shooting Alex a smirk. A small grin pulled at his lips as I pressed my palms flat and ran my hands up his chest. Only hoping I was leaving the same trail of heat on his skin as he was mine as he traced soft circles on my thighs.

He ducked his head to the cook of my neck for a moment where he placed a tender kiss to my skin. "I love you..." He whispered as my fingers trailed up his neck to cradle his jaw. A small smile pulled at my lips as I pulled his head back into sight and looked up into his eyes. Seeing warm gold flecks sprinkle across the dark canvas of his orbs.

"I love you too..." I breathed as Alex's smile widened and he dropped his lips to mine in a slow and steady kiss. Taking his time as he pulled my body flush against his by the small of my back. Kissing my lips softly before sliding his tongue out and tracing my trembling lips. I opened my mouth, letting him in as his hands slid to my thighs, lifting me off the counter. I wrapped my legs around his waist. The feeling of my skin on his made me sigh against his lips as he deepened our kiss and carried our form from the kitchen. One hand was on the swell of my ass, the other on my back as he carried me up the stairs. The only sound echoing off the walls was the gentle slapping of his lips against mine as I ravished in the feeling of our lips meshing together. Only hoping and praying this was as enjoyable for him as it was for me.

His kisses grew sloppy as I heard the click of the door. The pull of the wood on the carpet as it swung open and shut. The throaty groan emoting from Alex's throat as I dug my nails into his shoulders to keep myself up before I heard the creak of the mattress beneath my spine. Our lips breaking apart as my head rolled back onto his pillow.

"Alex..." Was all I could manage to sigh as I felt his hands inch down my thighs. His body wiggling in between the crook of my bent legs, eliciting a throaty moan from the slightest touch of his skin on mine. He slid his hands passed my hips and up under my shirt to pull at my sides as he yanked my body down under his.

A single hand slid to my hair as he took his sweet time when lowering his head. Feeling him place his open lips on mine and slowly letting them shut as my chest heaved off the bed, dragging my nails down the length of his torso as he moaned against my lips. His hand on my hip began to draw soft circles as he shifted to slip his tongue against mine. He took his hands in mine, guiding them slowly over my head as he had to shift and straddle my hips and I whimpered into the kiss. My ragged breathing getting the better of me as I broke and left his lips for his neck. Taking deep subtle breaths as I bit down on his sensitive spots. The act gaining a moan. "God, Jasey." He groaned through gritted teeth as I smirked at my work.

I kept my eyes gently shut as I felt Alex sigh above me, my head falling back on his bed. My mind wasn't racing as I thought it would be. And though my heart was seconds from pounding a gaping hole clean through my chest. My mind was at ease. Everything seemed easier once it was just Alex and I. My thoughts weren't flying by at a hundred miles an hour, all that was on my mind, all I saw behind my eyes, the face formed from the starts I was seeing, was the boy above me. He kissed my temple as his hands slid gently down my arms, his fingers tracing the outline of my curves as he slid his hands to my waist.

I bucked my hips slowly as I felt him pull at the hem of my shirt, trying to ease the task of removing the cloth. But I had to ignore the moan that slipped past his lips as I bit my own, not meaning to do what I had just done. Alex smirked down on me as he pulled my shirt over my head and tossed it to the side, leaving me to collapse back onto his bed. His lips meeting mine for a brief moment before he pulled away. His hands slid back up my sides, his cool calloused digits outlining my ribs as I bit my lip. Feeling subconscious of his pause as I was half naked underneath him, at the mercy of his touch. But he didn't seem worried as he smiled at me and ran a soft hand up my side, raising goose bumps on my once smooth skin. "You're so beautiful..." He hummed, oblivious to my thoughts. "I will never understand why you would settle for someone like me..."

I gave in, my eyes fluttering shut as his hands left a steamy trail on my skin. "If you’re trying to seduce me Gaskarth, I think you can give it up..." I forced. Trying not to moan as I felt his soft lips on my collar bone. His teeth nibbling at the skin. He chuckled against my flesh as he kissed a trail down the valley between my breasts, his body slithering down mine as he kissed at my stomach. The teen caught me by surprise as he stopped, just before my navel, and moved to my left. He reached out and cradled my wrist in one hand as he gently kissed the scars marking my skin.

"I will never love anyone the way I love you..." He hummed, kissing a line up my arm as he reached my shoulder and sunk his teeth into the muscle gaining a gasp he seemed to enjoy.

"I'm loving you a little less every second you leave me like this..." I groaned. Struggling to keep my voice from punching a new octave too high as Alex smirked and chuckled before kissing at a forming bruise he had left on my neck. I felt my eyes slip shut once again from feeling his body creep back down mine. His hands framing my figure as they followed his lips down my torso till he reached my jean shorts. His eyes finding mine as I struggled to keep them open. Drunk off the feeling of him as he silently asked me for my final permission.

Keeping my eyes open long enough to see him notice my nod, he smiled up at me. Quickly sliding up my skin to softly kiss my lips as he mumbled an 'I love you' one last time and molded his lips to mine. Holding the kiss just long enough for my hands to tangle in his hair while his popped the button on my shorts. Leaving me breathless as his body slid back down mine just one last time. Kissing every inch of my skin as he slid down my shorts.

I gasped once again as he brushed my shorts on my legs, and I knew I was just moments from eating my words as I looked down at him and could have sworn it felt as though we were the only two people left on this earth.

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