I wish I could

I popped one more pill and got into my comfy PJs. I snuggled into my bed, happy to breathe in the scent I hadn’t had smelled in months. I fell asleep within seconds.

I woke up when the sun was already high up. I looked on the clock. Time to visit my family. I was pretty sure my nightmares would get worse after this. They always did after seeing my family, because it brought back old memories, things I had tried to forget.

I got dressed slowly and chugged down a coffee. Time to go.

I met my parents at a little café. It was cute, nicely decorated. I ordered a hot chocolate.

I was kinda absent during the meeting and only returned when we shook hands. I had arranged to meet Jack now. I got to his place quickly and knocked at the door. He let me in after a short time and we went straight to the couch, watching a game of the Baltimore Ravens.

Soon enough, we had stopped paying attention. We were giving each other heavy kisses. After some time, I pushed him away though, the memories were back and getting a little too much. He accepted it and we walked upstairs.

We cuddled lightly on the bed. It was already 1am but I didn’t want to go. I was almost a 100% sure my nightmares would kill tonight. I made some whimpering noises to Jack and he understood and nodded. I smiled a little, this took a lot away from my fear. I looked for my Seroquel but it wasn’t there. My search got frantic and I started to panic. What if I didn’t have them here?

I sunk down to the floor when I was sure they were not here. I needed to get through this night. Jack would be there to help me.

I snuggled into his bed, Jack spooning me. I was about to cry in fear when he held me a little tighter, rubbing circles into my back and shushing me. I guess it was time to fall asleep and I hoped I’d have a good time.

Notes

Aw aren't they cute? c:
Anybody noticed a song reference? In the last three paragraphs? :3

-Laura