After arguing with Matt who had sobered up over the course of the day, I returned to my bunk. I was pretty fed up with all his bullshit, he was still jealous. He was sorry for hurting me but at the same time he admitted that I “kinda maybe deserved it kinda a little bit”. I was hurt more by this and I had said some words that I’d never have said otherwise. In short, I was pissed off with Matt and had told him that I was not up for this relationship anymore before he’d have himself sorted out. He had looked like Bambi when it’s mother had died and for a moment I had hesitated but then an imagine of Jack crouching on the bathroom floor, shaking, crying, had popped up in my head and I felt anger rise up again. This was necessary.

And so I was cheered up a little by the thing I found under my pillow when I flipped it over before lying down. I know it is weird but I just do it automatically before I get in bed.
There was a piece of paper. I picked it up curiously. It was Alex’s handwriting. My heart started beating faster. What would Alex hide under my pillow?

“Dear Jack,

I have discovered something. I hope it is not too blunt for you.
I love you.”

I thought I’d have a heart attack right then and there. Oh my God. Alex. The boy who I cared about most in this world, the one my heart beat faster for when he was around said he loved me. I gulped and read on.

“Let me tell you, it took a long time to find out and I am really nervous. I have prepared something. Meet me under the tree close to the big, graffitied house close to the backstage area at 7pm tomorrow. I have prepared something.
Yours,
Alex”

I barely held back a squeal. What would he have prepared? I looked at my watch. 7 pm. 24 hours to go. DID HE WANT TO MURDER ME??? I was so curious.

I laid down and tried closing my eyes, expecting sleep to come. But I was way too antsy, excitement bubbling through my body. So I got up and went to pee in an attempt to calm down. And it worked. I lied down, and fell asleep with the letter pressed against my chest like a baby.

Notes

Looooook, Jalexy stuff c:
But be prepared.

-Laura