I could see the sadness in their eyes. They all just looked at me with pity. He showed them the slits across my wrists. Now they are just sitting here wondering what happened. If only they knew the whole story about my life. If only I was brave enough to tell my dad why I am so scared of him. But here I am wondering how I can make it so that they don’t look sad anymore. The only solution I can come up with is just to take some of my Nana’s pills and hope to never wake up. I decide to get up and go to my room to get more clarity. None of them budge. On the way to my room I go to the medicine cabinet and grab the first prescription I see, oxycontin. I think to myself, “these should do the trick” and I head to my room. As I am about to shut my door I hear the adults in my life begin to discuss what they are going to do. I find a pen and grab a piece of paper and decide to write these people to try and explain the actions I was about to put into motion.

I finish my note I grab the bottle of pills and get some tap water from my bathroom. I chug the water with at least 10 pills and sit to wait it out. About 10 minutes later I begin to feel woozy and I fall to the ground, everything began to go black.

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After a pep talk from mom and dad I walk to talk to Kenna. I really need to find out how I can help her. I can’t lose this girl like I lost my best friend , Amber, years ago. I knock on the door of her room and listen for sniffling or movement or anything. I hear nothing. I decide to knock one more time and call out her name, still nothing, so I open her door. I don’t know what I was expecting but when I see her on the floor unconscious I freak out.

“Oh my God, Kennadee! Mom, dad, help!” I scream as I walk to her .

“What happened honey?” my mother asks as she turns the corner.

“Call 9-1-1!” and that is when I see the bottle of oxycontin laying next to her. How could she do this to us? “Mom hurry, she’s taken pills!”

My dad does not take his eyes off of us while mom calls an ambulance. The next hour or so is quite a blur. It consisted of some tears and a lot of pacing in the waiting room of the hospital.

“I’m looking for a Mr. Gaskarth,” I hear a doctor call out.

“That would be me,” I reply. His face looked somber which makes me believe is not a good sign.

“Kennadee is alive.”

“Oh thank god!”

“But she is heavily sedated and since we don’t know how long she was unconscious we don’t know what the outcome will be.”

“Can I go see her?”

“Yes, the nurse will come out to get you when she is all cleaned up and settled in her ICU room.”

“Okay, thank you doctor,” that is when I remember that I need to call Amber to let her know. I grab my phone and dial the familiar number. It rings twice and then a very out of breath Amber Lynn Fields answers, “hello?”

Hearing her speak took me off guard for a second but when I finally come to I am able to tell her, “hey Am, it’s Alex.”

“Why are you calling me Alex?” now she sounded pissed.

“It’s about Kennadee.”

“Oh no what happened?”

“She took some pills from my mom’s medicine cabinet. She is now in the ICU recovering.”

“I’m on my way!” and then she hung up the phone. It was definitely a sigh of relief to hear her voice again but I wish the circumstances were slightly different.

“Mr. Gaskarth we’re ready for you to come back now,” an overly cheerful nurse says to me. We make our way though many hallways and come to the room I-501 where I see my baby girl laying there lifelessly. “Here you go sir. Let us know if you need anything.”

All I am able to do is go in the room with my tear-stained face and look at her innocence. I mean how could anyone not want to save her. You could even see the pain in her face when she is asleep. These thoughts make me well up even more. “Kenna, don’t you ever do this to me again! I need you to help me grow up and man up baby girl. I love you! Please just come back to me. Please I am begging you to just open your eyes and give me that great big smile.” I then manage to get into bed with her and hold her in my arms throughout the night.

Notes

So I know I said a new chapter wouldn't happen for a while BUT this popped into my head earlier today so I decided you guys could have it right away :)

I may or may not have teared up a bit writing this... will Ms. Kennadee survive her attempt? Only time will tell. Anyway I love you all, enjoy!