Homecoming
Cause you were such a tool
Uh oh... I am screwed now. AFter he calls my name I just stand still just hoping he won't say anything to the grandparents.
“Kennadee, are you drunk?”
“n-no daddy...”
“I can’t believe you would do this to us!”
“Shhh... dad don’t wake them up!”
“DON’T WAKE THEM UP?! REALLY KENNADEE ?! THAT IS ALL YOU CARE ABOUT?”A he says this my dad grabs my arm, a little too hard, and drags me outside this house.
“How am I ever supposed to trust you, you little fucking slut,” and then he slaps me HARD!
I whimper as I coward away from him. Unfortunately he does not quit hitting me right then. The verbal abuse continues as well.
“Dad, please stop.”
“No you need to learn your lesson.”
“Daddy, please! You’re scaring me!”
After another 10 minutes he stops the abuse and it is as if he has popped out of a daze. I of course have makeup down my face at this point.
“Oh my God, Kenna, I am so sorry.”
I just look at him and cannot speak. “I am so so sorry baby girl...”Monday came around all too quickly. The bruises did not fade enough so of course I now have to dress in long sleeves and leggings. Yay, go Kennadee! My grandparents never noticed that I was shying away from them and dad all weekend.
“Ms. Gaskarth,” crap I must have been in a daze yet again.
“Yes ma’am?”
“Who was the first person to use mol?”
“John Dalton. Do you need the date too?” Ugh I just do not need to deal with lady or this school today.
“No Kennadee I do not need you to tell me the date too. Lose the attitude miss or you are going to the office.”
“Okay Ms. Blowme,” the whole class began to laugh.
“Excuse me?! What did you just say?” Fuck now I have done it again.
“I said okay Ms. Bolme.”
“That is it! Get to the office now Ms. Gaskarth!”When I get to the office I know I am going to never hear the end of it. The principal has never liked me; frankly no one has since I came back. Sometimes I wonder if everyone I know would be better off without me. I know my parents would be just dandy if I just left and never came back.
"What did you do this time Ms. Gaskarth?" the office lady asks.
"Dozed off in Ms. Bolme's class and then had an attitude. Can you just call my dad already and this over with?"
"Yes, would you like to talk to him also?"
"No I am perfectly fine with not talking to him this time."
"He said he is on his way to pick you. I will have Mr. Deeks look over the report and decide what he would like to do with you."
"Great. Thanks. Can I go wait outside?" I was nearly in tears. I can just see my father now; he will degrade me all the way home, maybe slap me up a bit, and then he would act all innocent when he dropped me off at his parents house.
"I'm sorry honey but I can't let you leave this office alone."
"I'll go out there with her miss," I hear a male voice say. I look over and see Connor standing right in front of me.
"Of course Mr. McDonough!"
We walk outside and Connor looks at me, "why have you been avoiding me and why are you wearing so much clothing?"
"I thought you would be better off without me," now he could see the fear in my eyes, "look Connor I can't do this right now I have to go," and I walk to my dad's car.
"Who is that?"
"Just a friend. Let's just go home dad I don't want to talk."
"No Kennadee we need to talk. What has gotten into you?"
"Really? Now you care? Let's just go home, I have things to do that do not include people who slap me around," I replied with narrow eyes.
"Kennadee Jade look at me. Please just look at me," that is when he sees the tears welling up. "I am really sorry, okay? What happened to you?"
"Nothing."
He then grabbed my arm lightly to try and get my attention. That is when he saw the cuts across my wrists. I pull back quickly of course but it was too late he had already seen the damage he had done.
5/14/13