Thanks To You
The truth.
“You shouldn’t have done that.”
You told me I should tell him the truth.
“I know you Alexander, you weren’t going to tell him “the truth”, you felt pity for him, you were weak.”
I noticed he looked like shit, and it’s all my fault, of course I felt pity.
“Fucking stop crying. Good to know you finally noticed that’s all your fault.”
You don’t have to keep repeating that each time…
“Now you’ll wake up, and tell him to fuck. Off.”
I don’t think I can do that…
“Yes you can.”
“Shh babe… I’m here.” I recognized Jack’s voice among the mess that was my head, almost without understanding a single word, I tried to reply, but I was too weak to say anything. “I’m glad you’re awake.” He whispered, I now could hear him more clearly. “You… you made me panic. I mean…” He gasped. “W-why did you do this to you Alex?” He stroked the scars along my arms, I tried to reply, but I couldn’t. “Shh… you don’t have to talk ok? You’re too weak.” He smiled.
“…J-Jack…” I could finally find the strenght to speak, he stared at me nervously. “We… h-have to…” He was going to interupt me, so I rushed. “We have to talk.” I said, loud enough for him to understand.
“Yes, we have to.” He replied quickly. “But it doesn’t have to be now.” He said while stroked my hair.
“It has to be now Jack…” I whispered.
He nodded and slowly pulled my up, so I was sitting on his lap between his legs.
I could finally look around. I was in my bedroom, in Jack’s arms, in my bed. My arms were clean, but there still was some dried blood between the scars. I was wearing clean clothes and my hair was a little bit wet, someone had clearly given me a shower. It didn’t matter now.
“Say whatever you need to say.” He whispered against my hair.
“Jack.” I started. “I need to tell you the truth.” Stop that.
“The truth about what Alex?” He asked. You are supposed to stay away from him.
“About…” Don’t you dare saying a word. “About me.” SHUT UP ALEX.
“Ok babe.” He whispered.
“Just promise me you won’t leave me.” I’ll kill you Alexander.
“I would never do that.” He said. “Ever. Just talk, when you are finished, you’ll say “I’m finished”, then you’ll rest your head on my chest, I’ll kiss the top of your head, we’ll sleep and I’ll forget everything by the morning. I promise.”
This had become a living nightmare, I had nothing left to lose. So I simply talked.
“When I was a kid, my parents used to be very rich. I was the only son, so I would always get everything I wanted. I studied in the best school, my parents had the best cars, I had all the last videogames and TVs. I was happy, and I treated everybody like shit, I didn’t care about their feelings, I wanted them to recognize how big I was. I’ve never had any friends. My dad’s company bankrupted, and he got really sick. I was not the cool kid anymore, and I started to notice I’ve never really been happy. People hated me. Then I finally changed school, since my parents couldn’t afford to pay for it anymore. Moving to a new school was awkward, so I would always stay alone, I didn’t care what people would think about me. It was when this girl started to get closer to me, Lisa, I was 12. She had her friends, and I would aways stay together with them. I didn’t feel comfortable near them though. That kiss thing happened and people finally started to notice me. But in a bad way. The guys would call me a faggot, useless piece of shit, worthless motherfucker, emo freak. Then the dark dreams started. They were just... dark, it felt like I was locked in a dark room with another boy. His voice sounded a lot like mine. I started to talk to him. He told me he was my subconscious. He soon became my only friend and the only one who understood me. I started to get away from my parents and family and I started to, kind of started to see this subconscious guy was different from me, we started to disagree in many things, and the dark dreams became darker nightmares. He would tell me I was dead, it was when I started to hurt myself, to know I was alive, it felt so good, I can’t even explain. It would keep him away from me. My mother saw I was different and she decided to send me here, so I could meet new people. He is saying I have to stay away from you Jack, I don’t want to…” I finally stopped talking, wondering if he was still awake. “I-I’m finished.” I whispered, pressing my head against his chest.
After some seconds I felt a light kiss on the top of my head, and I fell asleep, promising myself I would forget everything by he morning.
I woke up in Jack’s arms, with his stomach against my back. It had been a cold night, so it was even more comfortable.
I turned around to face him. Jack sleeping was the cuttest thing ever, he looked like a child. I removed some hair from his face and hesitantly moved closer. I didn’t want to do anything wrong and mess things up. This scared me a little bit. So I moved even closer and touched his lips with mine, kissing lightly. He smiled a little bit, letting a barely hearable moan escape his mouth, and turned around a little bit, now with his back against the bed.
I liked his reaction, so I decided to risk a little more.
I got on top os him, supporting myself on my knees and elbows. I got my head closer to his and started to leave soft kisses on both his upper and bottom lips, bitting lightly from time to time.
“What are you doing babe?” He whispered, smiling between the kisses.
I got nervous. Did I do something wrong? I then got off of the top of him and rolled to the edge of the bed, burying my face on the pillow.
“I was kissing you.” I whispered.
“That’s sweet of you.” He laughed and kissed my neck as a response. “Hey.” He said, making me turn around and getting on top of me. “My turn.” He whispered.
He grabbed my wrists and held them above my head, moving his lips along my neck, leaving some kisses.
“What are you doing Jack?” I said, nervously.
“I’m kissing you.” He chuckled in my ear.
“Stop this Jack.” I said, my breath was getting louder.
“Why..? I know you like it.” He whispered, almost making me moan. Fuck you sexy sleepy whisper.
And he kept doing that. I don’t know where he was trying to get, but it was working, because the bulge in my pants began to slowly appear.
He chuckled at that and then left a fucking strong bite behind my ear, making me scream. He laughed and covered my mouth with one of his hands.
“Shh…” He whispered. “We don’t want to wake anybody up, do we?” He said, facing me and removing his hand from my mouth.
“Then stop it, seriously.” I said, louder.
“Whyy..?” He moaned, rubbing his hips on mine.
“Jack!” I shouted.
He laughed and finally got out of the bed.
“I’m going downstairs and eat something, you should take a shower and get rid of this.” He said, pointing at my pants.
And he simply left the room, leaving me there.
“’YOU’RE EVIL JACK.” I shouted, hearing his laugh coming from the first floor.
"Hello Alex."
What are you doing here?
"You had a really bad nightmare yesterday Alex, I decided to come and comfort you."
Stay away from my mind, and from Jack.
"Hahaha, I pity you Alex. Jack's nightmare is just getting started."
You told me I should tell him the truth.
“I know you Alexander, you weren’t going to tell him “the truth”, you felt pity for him, you were weak.”
I noticed he looked like shit, and it’s all my fault, of course I felt pity.
“Fucking stop crying. Good to know you finally noticed that’s all your fault.”
You don’t have to keep repeating that each time…
“Now you’ll wake up, and tell him to fuck. Off.”
I don’t think I can do that…
“Yes you can.”
“Shh babe… I’m here.” I recognized Jack’s voice among the mess that was my head, almost without understanding a single word, I tried to reply, but I was too weak to say anything. “I’m glad you’re awake.” He whispered, I now could hear him more clearly. “You… you made me panic. I mean…” He gasped. “W-why did you do this to you Alex?” He stroked the scars along my arms, I tried to reply, but I couldn’t. “Shh… you don’t have to talk ok? You’re too weak.” He smiled.
“…J-Jack…” I could finally find the strenght to speak, he stared at me nervously. “We… h-have to…” He was going to interupt me, so I rushed. “We have to talk.” I said, loud enough for him to understand.
“Yes, we have to.” He replied quickly. “But it doesn’t have to be now.” He said while stroked my hair.
“It has to be now Jack…” I whispered.
He nodded and slowly pulled my up, so I was sitting on his lap between his legs.
I could finally look around. I was in my bedroom, in Jack’s arms, in my bed. My arms were clean, but there still was some dried blood between the scars. I was wearing clean clothes and my hair was a little bit wet, someone had clearly given me a shower. It didn’t matter now.
“Say whatever you need to say.” He whispered against my hair.
“Jack.” I started. “I need to tell you the truth.” Stop that.
“The truth about what Alex?” He asked. You are supposed to stay away from him.
“About…” Don’t you dare saying a word. “About me.” SHUT UP ALEX.
“Ok babe.” He whispered.
“Just promise me you won’t leave me.” I’ll kill you Alexander.
“I would never do that.” He said. “Ever. Just talk, when you are finished, you’ll say “I’m finished”, then you’ll rest your head on my chest, I’ll kiss the top of your head, we’ll sleep and I’ll forget everything by the morning. I promise.”
This had become a living nightmare, I had nothing left to lose. So I simply talked.
“When I was a kid, my parents used to be very rich. I was the only son, so I would always get everything I wanted. I studied in the best school, my parents had the best cars, I had all the last videogames and TVs. I was happy, and I treated everybody like shit, I didn’t care about their feelings, I wanted them to recognize how big I was. I’ve never had any friends. My dad’s company bankrupted, and he got really sick. I was not the cool kid anymore, and I started to notice I’ve never really been happy. People hated me. Then I finally changed school, since my parents couldn’t afford to pay for it anymore. Moving to a new school was awkward, so I would always stay alone, I didn’t care what people would think about me. It was when this girl started to get closer to me, Lisa, I was 12. She had her friends, and I would aways stay together with them. I didn’t feel comfortable near them though. That kiss thing happened and people finally started to notice me. But in a bad way. The guys would call me a faggot, useless piece of shit, worthless motherfucker, emo freak. Then the dark dreams started. They were just... dark, it felt like I was locked in a dark room with another boy. His voice sounded a lot like mine. I started to talk to him. He told me he was my subconscious. He soon became my only friend and the only one who understood me. I started to get away from my parents and family and I started to, kind of started to see this subconscious guy was different from me, we started to disagree in many things, and the dark dreams became darker nightmares. He would tell me I was dead, it was when I started to hurt myself, to know I was alive, it felt so good, I can’t even explain. It would keep him away from me. My mother saw I was different and she decided to send me here, so I could meet new people. He is saying I have to stay away from you Jack, I don’t want to…” I finally stopped talking, wondering if he was still awake. “I-I’m finished.” I whispered, pressing my head against his chest.
After some seconds I felt a light kiss on the top of my head, and I fell asleep, promising myself I would forget everything by he morning.
I woke up in Jack’s arms, with his stomach against my back. It had been a cold night, so it was even more comfortable.
I turned around to face him. Jack sleeping was the cuttest thing ever, he looked like a child. I removed some hair from his face and hesitantly moved closer. I didn’t want to do anything wrong and mess things up. This scared me a little bit. So I moved even closer and touched his lips with mine, kissing lightly. He smiled a little bit, letting a barely hearable moan escape his mouth, and turned around a little bit, now with his back against the bed.
I liked his reaction, so I decided to risk a little more.
I got on top os him, supporting myself on my knees and elbows. I got my head closer to his and started to leave soft kisses on both his upper and bottom lips, bitting lightly from time to time.
“What are you doing babe?” He whispered, smiling between the kisses.
I got nervous. Did I do something wrong? I then got off of the top of him and rolled to the edge of the bed, burying my face on the pillow.
“I was kissing you.” I whispered.
“That’s sweet of you.” He laughed and kissed my neck as a response. “Hey.” He said, making me turn around and getting on top of me. “My turn.” He whispered.
He grabbed my wrists and held them above my head, moving his lips along my neck, leaving some kisses.
“What are you doing Jack?” I said, nervously.
“I’m kissing you.” He chuckled in my ear.
“Stop this Jack.” I said, my breath was getting louder.
“Why..? I know you like it.” He whispered, almost making me moan. Fuck you sexy sleepy whisper.
And he kept doing that. I don’t know where he was trying to get, but it was working, because the bulge in my pants began to slowly appear.
He chuckled at that and then left a fucking strong bite behind my ear, making me scream. He laughed and covered my mouth with one of his hands.
“Shh…” He whispered. “We don’t want to wake anybody up, do we?” He said, facing me and removing his hand from my mouth.
“Then stop it, seriously.” I said, louder.
“Whyy..?” He moaned, rubbing his hips on mine.
“Jack!” I shouted.
He laughed and finally got out of the bed.
“I’m going downstairs and eat something, you should take a shower and get rid of this.” He said, pointing at my pants.
And he simply left the room, leaving me there.
“’YOU’RE EVIL JACK.” I shouted, hearing his laugh coming from the first floor.
"Hello Alex."
What are you doing here?
"You had a really bad nightmare yesterday Alex, I decided to come and comfort you."
Stay away from my mind, and from Jack.
"Hahaha, I pity you Alex. Jack's nightmare is just getting started."
Notes
I like this Jack, but he needs to suffer a little bit :3 Comments?(Ugh I'm sorry, but I have a feeling this fic is going to be fucking huge... sue me.)
Update: I totally cried.
Again.
1/15/15