*1 month later*

I had just finished touring with All Time Low and right now we were driving back to Portland to drop me off back home. This was the day that I hated from the start, I did not want to leave.

Alex and I had been sneaking around doing what we do best but that always left me feeling empty. I longed for a relationship but every time I would try to mention it he would just ignore me and change the subject. I was beginning to wonder if I was just a side job for him. Every time we werent together he would always tease me and flirt with me. It was a constant battle between wanting and immorality.

After about an hour lost in my thoughts the bus made a sharp turn into an apartment complex. The familiar tall black buildings stood in front of me taunting me. I knew I didnt want to leave but I knew I had to. My time with All Time Low had come to an end.

The good news though is that Johnny hasnt called me all tour and im beginning to think that he wont ever call me again. A major weight has been lifted from my shoulders. When I first saw Johnny again in the bar and then he called me I was starting to think that he would start to come after me but, thankfully, he hasn't.

"Hey, bunny" Alex said sitting down next to me putting his hand on my knee. "We're here and we're taking your luggage upstairs for you." Alex informed me and I saw his eyes wet with sadness as he was about to shed a couple tears.

"No shh dont cry, I will see you again" I said softly brushing a tear away from his face. HIs skin felt soft under my fingers and he touched my hand kissing it lightly. I couldnt help but smile trying to hold in tears of my own. I had grown to know everyone in the band closely and they were all so sweet, they were my second family...minus Alex.

I stood up and took Alex by the hand leading him out the door. The chill of the Portland wind shook my bones and I shivered. Alex wrapped his arm around me, squeezing me. The rest of the boys got off the bus, each with a suit case in hand ready to take up to my home. Separating myself from Alex I walked into the lobby and towards the elevators. Pushing the button to go up I looked down at my feet and at the reflection of myself in the tile floor. My face was distorted, kind of smudge as well as I waited for the elevator to arrive. I felt a squeeze on my shoulder and turned to see Jack looking down at me.

I buried my face into his sweater and let a few tears roll down my face.

"Im going to miss you guys" I mumbled into him and he rubbed my back uttering words I could not understand. The elevator doors slid open and descended up to the 11th floor slowly.

Drudging to my door I found my keys in my coat pocket and opened the door slowly. I flicked on the lights.

"Surprise!!" Susan screamed jumping up from behind the couch and running over to hug me. Just then Kathy walked out of the bathroom an waved to the boys.

"How was tour?" Susan asked giddily taking my hands and swaying them back and forth.

"Let's just say im sad to be home" I turned to the boys who were standing behind me and locked eyes with all of them lingering on Alex.

"Well Ashley we have to go." Zack said pulling me into a hug. I kissed him on the cheek and walked over to Rian and Jack doing the same. Jack like a little kid clung onto me not letting me go, Rian had to pry him off of me. I slowly made my way to Alex and gripped him tight kissing him on the cheek as well.

"Goodbye for now Bunny" He whispered into my ear. I pulled back a little bit giving him a small smile letting him go.

"I promise to write to you all and stay in touch!" I called out to them as they exited my apartment.
"We will make sure of it!" Jack called back at me as all of them gave me a wave goodbye. Alex winked at me sending my heart racing.

Closing the door I took in a deep breath closing my eyes a little before opening them to four accusing eyes.

"Spill" susan demanded sitting me on the couch

"First, I would like to ask how you got in here when I took away your keys?" I said accusingly

"We made a copy of the key when we had them because we knew you would take ours away, now tell us what is going on between you and Alex!" Kathy rushed out

"Nothing is going on" was it really that obvious?

"Dont lie to me! We have been best friends for years, I know when something is up. Plus, I saw him wink at you." Susan said holding in a giggle, I dont why it wasnt really funny but I thought I should tell her at least a little bit.

"Okay fine we may have kissed like once" I admitted

"Once?" she questioned raising her eyebrows

"Okay maybe like thirty times and maybe of those thirty times it got a little out hand like twenty times but its nothing really" I said sadly because I had wanted more.

Susans mouth hung open but it soon turned into a coy smile.

"You slut!" She said jokingly pushing me.

I smiled at her blushing slightly. But the reminder that Alex wasn't here made me feel bad.

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*Alexs POV*

We had just left Ashley's apartment and a black cloud has come over me. I curled up in my bunk holding my beanie wanting her to come back. I missed her laugh, her smile, and how she kissed me when we were in secret as if it was going to be our last time together. I hated sneaking around but I didnt think the guys would approve of having such strong feelings for a girl right when I just met her. But, I was planning on asking her on a date but with tour we were booked. I know I know I could have taken her out when we rendezvoused but those were for ten minutes at a time.

A few tears escaped my tired eyes and my curtain that was separating me from the world was yanked back. Someone crawled into my bunk and sat beside me.

"You like her a lot don't you?" Jack said in a low whisper so the others could not over hear.

I nodded in reply not looking at him. His hand started to stroke my hair and he whispered, "Don't worry we're going to go back to her someday.