*1 year later*
I lost touch with All Time Low months ago. With them constantly on tour and me with my new job it was hard to stay in touch. We did follow each other on all social networking sites and have each other's numbers and emails but they seemed like old friends; they were friends that you talk to on occasion but have lost contact with in the long haul. I have tweeted them all a few times giving them a quick congratulations or a stupid smiley face but I guess they never payed attention because of all the fans they have gained over the past year.

I had missed Alex the most. His laugh and his smile but most of all I just missed spending time with him. Looking at his picture is not the same as looking at him in the real life and I'm sure as hell the real life version is so much better. He probably found a new girl now...someone who he isn't afraid to be seen with.

I was also moving to Pennsylvania soon because it would be closer to all the companies that always hired me. Everything was so stressful right now it was overwhelming.

My mind became a cluttered mess and it was in my best interest if I took a walk. Slipping on my red coat I opened the door and hurried down the stairs to the my car so I could get to the park.

Walking the park was great because they had a river that went on for miles and the sound of the gentle current was so soothing. It always brought me peace.

A few minutes later I pulled into the park and found a spot close to the trail. Turning off the ignition I opened the door to the sound of birds and children's laughter.

Locking my car I made my way to the trail and began my walk. Walking alongside the river I came across a little sitting area. I sat down and swung my legs over the side letting them dangle over the green tinted water.

I saw the fish swim quickly across the river and I began to wonder what it was like to live submerged in water. Did they know they were submerged in water or did they think we were in water? What if our air is their water and they think they're breathing air? I let the thought go because at any moment I would go into an existential crisis.

My focus then turned to the sun. The suns rays started to diminish and the sky faded to pretty shades of pink and orange. If my job was to be a painter I would have not been able to capture such beauty on a canvas.

I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket and saw that it was my modeling agent; answering the call I had gotten some very exciting news.

"Ashely I just got a call from vogue and they want you to do the cover shoot!" My agent, Shelia, squealed into the phone

. I couldn't contain my excitement either because I sprung up and jumped up and down laughing.

"When do they want to shoot?!?!" A huge smile stuck on my face.

"In an hour at your place...is that okay?" She asked cautiously "Yes! See you soon!" I laughed ending the call and running to my car to get home

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*Alexs POV*

"ALEX WE HAVE TO GO NOW OF WE WANT TO CATCH OUR FLIGHT TO NEW YORK" jack called up to me from the house that we all shared in Baltimore.

I detangled myself from my girlfriend, Marisa, gave her a kiss on the cheek and quickly got dressed into a pair of black jeans and a red hoodie before heading downstairs. As I got downstairs

Jack was sitting on his laptop eating a bowl of Cheerios. He must have been really into what he was watching because he didn't even glance up at me when I came down the stairs.

Curiosity got the best of me and I walked over to Jack. Before he noticed I was behind him I caught a glimpse at his screen, on it was Ashley's twitter profile.

Her latest tweet: "super excited for the new shoot:)"

what new shoot? What was a shoot? Didn't he promise me he wouldn't look for her? I let out a groan and jack suddenly realized I was there and saw what he was looking at.

" Ithought you promised me that you would try to forget about her...she's gone." My voice quivered as my old feelings returned briefly, I quickly pushed them back.

"Dude it says here that she's moving to Pennsylvania!" Jack said getting my attention. I wanted to see her so badly but I couldn't...I have Marisa now.

"Alex, I know you still like her and I know the guys never knew about your little romance but I did and you should try to find her." Jack was serious. He didn't like Marisa that much, probably only because he really liked Ashley and once jack likes someone no one can replace that person

"You promised you would help me let go, you promised you wouldn't keep in touch with her for that long or try to track her down." I said

"I'm a grown up Alex I can do what I want and I want to help you and that is by finding her!" Jack yelled

"Jack, I want to but I have to let go! Five months I mopped around hoping she would just magically appear! It was- I mean is best for me to forget and I can't have you looking for her when I'm trying to forget her!" I screeched frustration escaping me. I ruffled my hair and took in a slow deep breath. Jack looked sad, maybe I had gone to far.

"Look I'm sorry I didn't mean to-" I began

"No. We promised her we would keep in touch but just because you want to FORGET doesn't mean I have to forget. It's not fair to Rian, Zack, and I who loved having her around and as a friend! You could have kept in touch with her and not have started to date another girl. You picked what you wanted and I can't help that you replaced a diamond with plastic." His face had hardened and he no longer looked sad but instead he looked mad.

"We were never dating" I said flatly

Jack angrily threw his bowl in the sink and picked up his suitcase heading out to car leaving me alone in the room.

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*Ashleys POV*

As I just got out of the shower I heard as knock on my door and I opened it to see about fifteen people at my door

. "Hello Ashley, I am Amanda Vogues photographer" her red hair flowed down to shoulder length and her glossy lips were pulled back in a smile. Her outfit was a black pencil skirt and a white button down shirt with a camera hanging on her neck.

"It's so nice to meet you" I returned the smile letting them in.

"Okay, a hair and makeup team will get you ready and then we shall begin." Amanda informed me sitting me down on one of the kitchen chairs

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About an hour later everything was done and I stood up making my way to the full length mirror in my room. I examined the way my curly hair seemed like endless waves down my back and my skin looked like a porcelain doll, like my skin could break any minute. They had given me a smokey eye and winged out my eyeliner

. I had on a leather skirt and a tight burgundy top that went a little above my ribcage exposing the poem I had tattooed there. They had given me black combat boots to wear. Walking out they all stared at me with anticipation.

"So what do you think?" A designer asked sitting on edge and I took a brief pause.

"You all made me look amazing! Let's get this shoot on the road!" I cheered stepping onto the backdrop of a white background.

After hours of getting my pictures taken Amanda explained to me that I would be on next weeks cover and that I would be paid a handsome amount of money.

"You will get enough money to visit a special someone I'm sure you have." Amanda said. Little did she know my certain someone has been gone for a year and I was positive he was never coming back. I ached for him every night just to kiss him one more time.

"You can keep the clothes darling!" Amanda called back to me as they all rushed out the door. I flopped down on my couch and thought I deserved a much needed night out.