Return the Favor
Bulletproof Love
Laura's POV
"My love for you was bulletproof, but you're the one who shot me." I sing loudly, knowing that everyone is on the other end of the bus. I don't know what, but something about this song has always been so comforting to listen to. I'm ruining that. I'm cutting listening to it. It won't ever be the same.
I don't understand why it comforts me. It's about Zack, to me. "And goddamnit, I can barely say your name. So I'll try to write it, and fill the pen with blood from the sink."
The latter doesn't sound appetizing, although by the looks of it I have enough blood to write him a fucking dictionary. So I figure I'll try it. Saying his name. Sometimes, saying my thoughts aloud feels better anyway.
"Zack. Zachary Steven Merrick. The only love of my life. The one who still owns my heart. The one I was ready to finally give myself to. The one who broke me. Why Zack? I loved you, and I'm still pretty convinced that you loved me. So why? Why wasn't it enough?"
The song changes to "Caraphernelia".
Hold my heart, it's beating for you anyway
What if I can't forget you?
Suddenly I hear the curtain to my bunk being drawn back. I stop, my hand hovering over my stomach with the blade, poised to keep carving myself into nothing. I can't bear to turn my head and see who it is. Then I hear it. The voice, crying.
"Laura...."
Zack's POV
I freeze outside of Laura's bunk. Great, I'm her Pierce the Veil lyrics. But the song stops, and her voice doesn't.
"Zack. Zachary Steven Merrick. The only love of my life. The one who still owns my heart. The one I was ready to finally give myself to. The one who broke me. Why Zack? I loved you, and I'm still pretty convinced that you loved me. So why? Why wasn't it enough?"
Oh Laura. If only you knew how many times I had asked mysef those same things. Still owns your heart? Ready to give yourself to? What does she mean?
Then it clicks. Why she came to the bedroom instead of texting me. Oh my god......this just makes it worse.
Before I even realize what I'm doing, I've pulled her bunk curtain away.
"Laura...."
"My love for you was bulletproof, but you're the one who shot me." I sing loudly, knowing that everyone is on the other end of the bus. I don't know what, but something about this song has always been so comforting to listen to. I'm ruining that. I'm cutting listening to it. It won't ever be the same.
I don't understand why it comforts me. It's about Zack, to me. "And goddamnit, I can barely say your name. So I'll try to write it, and fill the pen with blood from the sink."
The latter doesn't sound appetizing, although by the looks of it I have enough blood to write him a fucking dictionary. So I figure I'll try it. Saying his name. Sometimes, saying my thoughts aloud feels better anyway.
"Zack. Zachary Steven Merrick. The only love of my life. The one who still owns my heart. The one I was ready to finally give myself to. The one who broke me. Why Zack? I loved you, and I'm still pretty convinced that you loved me. So why? Why wasn't it enough?"
The song changes to "Caraphernelia".
Hold my heart, it's beating for you anyway
What if I can't forget you?
Suddenly I hear the curtain to my bunk being drawn back. I stop, my hand hovering over my stomach with the blade, poised to keep carving myself into nothing. I can't bear to turn my head and see who it is. Then I hear it. The voice, crying.
"Laura...."
Zack's POV
I freeze outside of Laura's bunk. Great, I'm her Pierce the Veil lyrics. But the song stops, and her voice doesn't.
"Zack. Zachary Steven Merrick. The only love of my life. The one who still owns my heart. The one I was ready to finally give myself to. The one who broke me. Why Zack? I loved you, and I'm still pretty convinced that you loved me. So why? Why wasn't it enough?"
Oh Laura. If only you knew how many times I had asked mysef those same things. Still owns your heart? Ready to give yourself to? What does she mean?
Then it clicks. Why she came to the bedroom instead of texting me. Oh my god......this just makes it worse.
Before I even realize what I'm doing, I've pulled her bunk curtain away.
"Laura...."
Notes
Whew. So I'm in a Pierce the Veil frenzy right now. Sue me.But anyway, thanks to gamble with desire. and all of you faceless readers! Please, leave me comments! Don't be a silent reader. Tell me what I can do to make it better. Thanks :)
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4/3/13