I clutched Alex's hand tightly as we walked back to my house. After what happened earlier I didn't want to leave him alone. It's not like I don't trust him, but accidents happen. And my mom was out for the night anyways, so it'll just be the two of us.

We walked in silence, the tension of the unsaid words making the air inside my lungs heavy and thick. I felt myself getting light headed, barely allowing the air to swirl in and out of my chest.

"Jack?" Alex asked softly, "Are you ok?"

I allowed myself to take a deep breath before answering him, "I'm just scared I guess."

"Scared of what?" he asked, confusion evident in his voice.

"Lex you just mean so much to me," I said quietly, "I'm absolutely terrified to lose you."

He stopped walking and just looked up at me, with wonder in his eyes. It scares me to think he doesn't believe me when I say how much I want him. I literally can't see myself being with anyone else. I want to spend the rest of my life with this boy, and I hope to god he feels the same.

"Jack, I'm so fucking lucky to have you. Just know that I don't plan on leaving me unless you push me away. You're the only person to show any type of compassion to me. I just, I trust you more than anyone else. I'm scared that you're going to leave me," he said, avoiding eye contact.

I couldn't help but feel a smile tug its way onto my lips. Hearing him say that makes my heart want to burst. It makes me so happy that it hurts. I don't know how I fell so hard for him, but I don't regret a thing. I know we're young, but he's all I'll ever need.

I cupped my hand around his cheek and made him look at me, "Alex listen to me. I promised you that I'd never leave and I won't. I don't think you understand how much I love you."

"But why?" he asked, his eyes glistening as he looked into mine.

"Why not?" I challenged, "You're perfect to me."

"But I'm not," he said, looking away, "I'm anything but. I'm nothing but a fuck up. I can't live a normal life and I'll never be able to."

"Hell Alex," I started, "All of your quirks and flaws are what make you perfect. You're not normal, you're extraordinary. And I can't imagine being anywhere else but here, with you."

"Jack..." he whispered, his voice shaking.

"Shhh Alex," I soothed, bringing him into my chest.

He didn't hesitate to hug me back and nuzzle his head in my shoulder. I rubbed his back in an attempt to calm his shaking body. I knew he was crying from the wetness I felt leaking through my shirt. Honestly, it broke my heart to see him so broken.

"Don't be sad baby," I said gently, still trying to sooth him.

He shook his head into my shoulder, "Not sad," he muttered, his voice shaky, "You just make me feel so happy and so loved. It just kind of got to me."

I felt my heart warm and a smile come to my lips. I myself wanted to cry out of happyness. I can't even express how good it makes me feel inside to know that I make him happy. The boy was so broken and so sad when I met him, but here he is now. Telling me how happy I make him. If possible, I clung to him tighter than I already was.

Eventually Alex's breathing calmed and he stopped shaking. He lifted his head from my shoulder and looked up at me. His eyes were red and swollen from crying, but he looked alive. There was a smile on his lips and a sparkle in his eyes. The sight made me smile even larger.

"I love you Jack," he said, "So much..."

"I love you too,"

He smiled even larger before coming up to catch my lips. The kiss left me breathless, like it always does. What is this boy doing to me?

"How about we go back to my house and cuddle on the couch?" I suggested after our kiss was over.

"Sounds perfect," he whispered, kissing my nose.

I grabbed his hand and continued walked.

"Oh and Jay," he said, once we were almost to my house, "Thank you."

Notes

Oh hey song references xD Oh hey a really short chapter... I'm sorry(not really... >.<)

Title Cred: Sleeping With Sirens- James Dean and Audrey Hepburn

~Mary <3