"Alex please," I heard Zack call, "Those guys are just jerks ok? It doesn't matter what they think."

"Yes it does Zack!" I cried, "Because it's all true! I'm just one big emo faggot! And you know what? I've deserved every amount of pain I've ever felt! I'm nothing but a fuck up and I don't deserve to be alive!"

"Le-ex," I heard Jack's voice crack, "Please don't say that. You do not deserve to be in pain. You only deserve happiness for the rest of your life. You're so special Alex, I don't know what I'd do without you."

"Everyone deserves to live," Zack added in, "A life wasted is the worst catastrophe the world has ever experienced time and time again."

"Even if I kept living my life would be a waste! I have no future!" I argued, "If I'm so goddamn special then why am I always so fucking sad Jack?"

"Sometimes terrible things happen to the best people," he said quietly, "You do have a future. A future with me. I love you so much Alex, it would take an atomic bomb to keep me away. I promise I'll never leave you, just, please let me in?"

Before I could eternally process what I was doing, my body was moving. I had unclicked the lock on the door. But before I could regret my actions, I was being smothered with warmth. The warmth that was radiating from my boyfriend's body. His arms were around me and his head was in the crook of my neck. I mirrored his actions and hugged him back, allowing his warmth to take me into a sense of calm.

"I love you too Jack," I whispered.

"You really scared me, you know that?" he whispered back.

I nodded into his neck, "I'm sorry. Sometimes I just can't help the things that go on in my head."

"I know you can't," he said gently, "How about we get you something to eat. Sounds like a good idea, yeah? I bet Rian and Matt are worried about you."

I nodded again before pulling away from his body. He helped me stand up before wrapping an arm around my waist and kissing the top of my head. He started to lead back to the auditeria, arm never leaving my waist. Zack was on my other side. He had given a very warm and sincere smile before we left.

When we got back to our table, I saw that Jack was right about Rian and Matt being worried. They overwhelmed me with questions about what had just happened. Questions I couldn't answer without the fear of being judged. Zack probably has a pretty good idea of what was happening now, and I didn't need more people knowing.

After they figured out I wasn't going to answer, they let me peacefully finish my lunch. I was thankful for that, I just needed quiet time for a little bit. I needed to think.

~

That night after school, I had invited Jack to come over. My mother was no where to be found as usual so it was just the two of us. We were currently cuddling on the couch watching The Breakfast Club on ABC Family. For some reason I had a soft spot in my heart for 80's movies.

I averted my attention from the tv during a commercial break to ask Jack a question that had been playing on my mind since lunch today, "Did you really mean what you said today Jack? That you'd never leave me?"

He looked down at me and smiled, "Of course. I really do love you Alex."

"How do I know you're not lying," I said quietly, hoping he wouldn't hear.

"You don't," he said thoughtfully, "You just have to trust me on this," he then placed a kiss on my lips that made my heart leap and my stomach to backflips.

Notes

Yeah I know this is short and bad. But I'm already like two days late for this update and I'm dead tired. >_<<br>
Title Cred: Sleeping With Sirens- Alone (Ft. MGK)

~Mary