I woke up still tangled in Alex's arms. I am really over being this delicate flower that everyone's worried about. I am gonna get better but on my own, starting with getting out of this bunk. I wiggled out of Alex's arms and stepped onto the floor. I walked over to where we kept the towels and pulled one out. I walked over to the bathroom and closed the door behind me. I turned on the water and saw the state of my face.

Running make up and puffy eyes. I sighed and only remembered how ugly I must look. I pulled off my clothes and stepped into the shower. I washed my body and hair and stepped out. I wrapped my body in a towel. I stepped out of the shower. and walked back to my suit case. For some reason I had one of You Me at Six's songs stuck in my head, which was ironic cause they were on this tour.

"Take my advice and leave right now. You're gonna find a way to sell yourself, to someone who cares, to someone desperate." I sang to myself as I got dressed pulling on my crop top jersey, it hung off one shoulder and showed my stomach. It had short sleeves but the guys knew now so I didn't feel like hiding, that and I figured it would help with them trusting me more, cause I know they don't trust my "Mental state", right now so. I slipped on some shorts and pulled on socks and my black vans.

I started to sing yet another YMAS song. "You keep me on the edge of my seat. I bite my tongue so you don't hear me, I wanna hate every part of you in me, I can't hate the ones who made me." I finished getting ready and headed out of the back lounge. I walked over to the fridge and pulled out a water. I downed the water and sat down on the couch. I pulled out my phone and saw a message from Bass.

From Bass:
Hey babe! How was it when I left?

To Bass:
Hell... I told them everything, as in everything and now I'm sure I'm gonna be on lock down but whatever and plus I'm a grown adult and can do whatever the fuck I want.

From Bass:
Now that's the Paige I know! You be awesome! Tell me when you get closer to home and I'll come see you! ;) Love you talk soon!

To Bass:
Alright boy, calm down. Keep it in your pants! XD I'll let you know when we're in town! Love you too! <3

I smiled down at my screen. "You look happier today..." Rian said taking a seat next to me. I turned to him. "Well I am, It's like a weight was lifted off my shoulders." "I noticed you're not wearing any bracelets." I pulled my wrists towards my body and looked down at the floor. "I figured since you guys knew now it wasn't gonna be a big deal... I can go cover them up if they make you feel uncomfortable..." "Oh no, I'm glad YOU feel comfortable enough around us."

He flashed me a smile and kissed my forehead before getting up and walking back to the back lounge. I walked over to my bunk and pulled out my head phones. I went to the front lounge and laid across the floor and put in my head phones. For some reason YMAS was just on my mind. I turned on my favorite album by them, Sinners Never Sleep, and laid face first on the floor.

I danced and wiggled a little just letting the sounds of Josh and his band mates carry me away. I felt someone sit on my back. "Oh my gosh! Who's fat ass is on my back!?" I yelled pulling my head phones out. "Fat ass, huh?" Jack said. He started to tickle my sides. "J-Jack, stop!" I yelled rolling my body over. "No way! Fat ass is mean!" "I thought you were an adult, I THOUGHT you could handle it!"

I pushed him off me and straddled his body. I pinned his arms above his body. I held down his hands and held out my tongue. "Don't you dare!" He shouted. "Oh, I think I do dare!" I said getting closer. He squirmed underneath my body, but I held strong. I got closer and closer. "No! Flyzik! Help!" He squealed. I dragged my tongue along his neck and up his face. "Gross!" He yelled.

"Flyzik... Your sister and Jack are dry humping each other in the front lounge!" Rian yelled passing us. I heard a crash and Matt came barreling down the high way. He stopped when he got to us. I sat up and let go of Jack's hands. He took the opportunity to wipe his face. "Get off him!" Matt yelled at me. "No!" I said pushing my hips harder on Jack's. "I'm quite comfy... plus I was getting Jack back for tickling me."

"No, your my sister and that's weird." He said grabbing my hand and pulling me off Jack. I stood up and fixed my shirt. "What are you wearing?" Matt asked me. "A shirt and some shorts-" "You mean nothing." He said. I rolled my eyes. "I can dress how I want Matt." "No you can't Paige, you live with all guys." "So what does that have to do with anything?!" I yelled back crossing my arms over my chest.

By now Rian, Jack, Zack and even Alex was up. Alex was only in his boxers cause he just woke up but still. " They might you know... see something..." He said. "Oh what, like my bra?!" I yelled and lifted my shirt showing my polka dotted bra. I lowered my shirt. "They've known me since I was born practically. I think they can handle it. Plus I'm 18 and can do what I want." They all just stared at me. I threw my hands over my mouth.

"Oh No! Don't tell me you've never seen boobs before!" I said in a sarcastic voice. I dropped my hands and pushed past Matt and went into my bunk. I closed the curtain and laid there. I didn't cry and I wasn't mad. I just felt indifferent about the situation at hand. I will always be Matt's little sister, I'll never be seen as an adult. I heard my curtain open. "What?" I asked, not rude or anything, really with no emotion.

"It's me..." Alex said. I rolled over. "Yes?" I asked staring at him. "I just wanted to see if you were..." "Crying?" I questioned. "Yeah." I rolled my eyes and rolled back over. Alex grabbed me and rolled me back over. "Why are you mad?" "I wasn't until you decided to check on me, now I am because I'm not always gonna get upset and cry. I don't need to." I said and sat up looking at Alex. "Your my best friend and I just thought I would check on you..." He said lowering his head enough for his fringe to fall in his face.

I took my right hand and wiped it away from his eyes. "Your still my best friend but I can't always be helped or checked on. It's the way life works." I patted the spot next to me in my bunk. He crawled in and snuggled into my side. He was still in his boxers with no shirt on. "I'm just tired of being treated like a little kid, I'm just not anymore. I have no innocence left." I sighed and Alex wrapped one arm around my shoulders but was still slumped into my side. "I don't think I wanna be on tour anymore..." I said quietly.

Alex's head shot up. "Please don't leave." He begged. I just stared at his light brown orbs. "Alex, I don't wanna be here and I'll never get treated like I want-" "Please stay, if not for the band...for me. I want you here." A light blush crept onto his cheeks but I didn't read into it. "Alex-" "Please..." He asked quietly. I sighed and nodded giving him an answer. He hugged me. "I'm gonna go get dressed." He said and climbed out of my bunk.

I hopped down also and went back to the front lounge. I was looking for my phone. "Who's Braxton?" Matt asked. "What are you talking about?" I asked still looking for my phone. "He keeps calling you..." He said holding my phone as it rang. "So what if the sex was great just a temporary escape another thing I grew to hate but now that's over!" I ran over and pulled it out of his hands before it had enough time to sing the song again.

Me: Hello.
Braxton: Why haven't you answered?! Where are you?!

I held the phone away from my ear and Jack, Rian and Matt were staring at me. I walked over to the door and opened it and stepped off the bus.

Braxton: Are you gonna answer me?!
Me: Yes Brax, calm down. I left with my brother and the guys-
Braxton: What guys? I knew you were cheating on me!
Me: How can I be cheating on you if we weren't even dating!?
Braxton: We are dating! How could you even say that?!
Me: Braxton, we're not dating, we've tried that before remember? You cheated on me.
Braxton: That's out of context. We were broken up and I was drunk-
Me: One thing, first we were broken up for like 20 minutes; Second thing, it doesn't matter if you were drunk. Plus we got back together the next day and you never told me!
Braxton: I want you, I need you, I need you to come home!
Me: I'm not coming back, not now probably not ever and I'm definitely not coming back for you!
Braxton: Please don't be like this-
Me: Stop calling Braxton, I can never love you again, I don't trust you. You need trust in a relationship and we've lost it. Just stop calling.

I hung up and clutched my phone in my hand. It's was definitely harder than I thought it would be to get rid of him, I loved him the first guy I ever fell in love with, and it was a secret. Bass knew but that was it. I wiped a tear from my face and sniffled. I turned back to the bus and walked on. All eyes on me. "And who was that?" Matt asked. "No one important." I said. I could feel the tears cloud my vision again. "What's wro-" "I'm fine!" I yelled and walked off the bus again.

I ran around the venue and leaned against the wall. I frantically wiped tears from my face. "Hey." I heard someone say. They scared me and in doing so I smacked the back of my head against the wall. "Oh shit." I said and held my head. "Oh I'm sorry." Tony said walking up to me. "You ok? Didn't mean to scare you." I looked up at him and his smile left. "What's wrong?" "Nothing." "You don't have to lie."

"It's just my Ex called and I hate when he calls cause he has memory lapse and most of the time he calls and freaks out cause I'm not there and he doesn't get why, and he doesn't remember that we broke up. But then I remind him why we broke up and he gets all defensive and begs me to come back and I can't cause he hurt me... Mentally and Physically..." I finished out of breath and Tony just stared at me. "Wow... Can I ask what you mean by mentally and physically?"

I nodded. "He cheated on me after only being on a "break" for 20 minutes, and then I have a scar from when he stabbed my shoulder yelling at me for leaving the house." "Wait you're only 18 and you lived with him?" "Yeah, we shared an apartment... it was good timing when we broke up the last time for me to move back home and pretend I never left." He stared at me. "I'm sorry." He said. I looked at him. "Thanks." I wiped my eyes. "Everyone treats me like a kid, I've been through a lot, and if Alex hadn't asked me to stay I would be on my way to the air port right now flying to Australia."

"Wow, why Australia?" He pulled me down to sit next to him on the wall. "Cause it's beautiful, the animals, the people, and all the accents. I like that if I moved there I would hear Australian accents and I would have an accent too." "He smiled at me. "What?" I asked giving one right back. "Nothing, when you talked about it your eyes lit up, it was just a nice change to see on your face." I blushed. "Thanks... I guess." "Yeah... it was a weird compliment."

He blushed harder than me and leaned back against the wall, not making eye contact. I laughed and he looked back. "What?" "Nothing, you were just as embarrassed as me and turned around with a blush on your face... it was cute." His blush got darker and he just stared at me. I looked at his dark eyes. I caught myself staring and turned away. He chuckled and pulled my face back to look at him. "You did the same thing." I could feel us getting closer. Tony was inches away and I could feel his breath on my lips.

He stopped just short and I pushed our lips together. His hand went to my cheek pulling me a little closer. My left hand found it's way into his hair and it managed to deepen the kiss. His tongue traced my bottom lip and I granted the access. Our tongues pressed against one anothers. He started to pull away and I pushed a little harder and it continued. I bit his bottom lip and pulled away, letting go eventually. Our eyes opened and they met one anothers.

He took both his hands and cupped my cheeks and forcefully pushed his lips against mine. I placed my hands on his and ran my thumbs over his skin. Our kisses were hungrier now. I pulled away and pushed him back against the wall. I threw one leg over his lap and crashed our lips together again. His hands went to my hips and caressed the open skin. My hands were on his shoulders giving my body leverage.

"Paige!" I heard Matt yell. I pulled from Tony's face and we both stared at each other. I cleared my throat. "Yeah, I'm coming Matt!" I yelled back. Tony and I just stared at each other. I got off his lap and smiled at him and stood up. He sat there dumbfounded and I walked around the corner but waved first. I ran straight into Matt. "Ow." We both said in unison. "Sorry, we just wanted to know what happened." Matt said. "That's fine, it was my Ex, Braxton, He's a little out there and was just confused... It's ok now."

"Alright, wanna come back to the bus?" "Sure." I said following Matt. I couldn't help but smile. We reached the bus and I walked on. "Hey, where did you go?" Jack asked. "Around the building." I said sitting on Alex's lap. I leaned back onto his chest and he wrapped his arms around me. I yawned. "Awwe, are you tired?" Zack asked. "For your information I am, I got yelled at a lot today and promised myself no crying, but I broke that promise. And "

I stood up and walked back to my suit case. I pushed out a little bag. "I'm giving these to you guys cause I..." I closed my eyes telling myself I really didn't need them anymore. "I don't need them anymore." Jack leaned over and took the little bag from me. I turned and climbed into my bunk. I laid down and faced the curtain. I ran my fingers over my mouth and a smirk came to my lips. The curtain flew back, scaring me a little. "Really, just like that? You don't have anymore?" Alex asked.

He was standing with all the guys right next to him peering in. "Y-yeah, I don't want them anymore." I said. "I'm so proud!" Jack yelled and crawled in the bunk with me. He held me close to his chest. I laughed. "Thanks." "Well all are." Rian said. "Thanks." I said again. Everyone one turned and left, Jack went to leave. "Wait, your comfy. Stay." He looked a little confused but smiled and snuggled back into place. My head laid atop his chest with my body leaned into his side. He traced patterns on my arms as I fell asleep on him. I was just so tired and today was a day off, so no show.

Notes

Comment please!!! comment! I haven't updated in a while and suddenly found inspiration again... hopefully this doesn't suck... Anyways LOVES :P

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