If you could choose
Easier to forgive when you agree...
I rolled over in my bunk, I was alone. I sat up. I rubbed my eyes they felt weird from crying so hard last night. I checked on my wrists and they had stopped bleeding a while ago so I was fine. I threw my legs over the side and jumped out. I went back to my suit case and looked through it to find some clothes. I pulled some out and walked towards the bathroom. The door was closed so I walked through the living room towards the little kitchen.
I opened the fridge and pulled out a water. I took a long sip and turned around leaning on the counter. Zack, Alex and Jack were staring at me. "Morning?" I said. "Actually it's the Afternoon." "Well smart ass, Good afternoon." I said back to Jack. I gave a smile and Rian left the bathroom. I ran over to it with my clothes and went in.
I brushed my teeth, cleaned my wrists. I took my hair out of the bun and left it in it's curlish state. I took off my shirt and put on a bra I pulled out along with a clean pair of underwear. I pulled on some shorts and slipped a shirt over my head. The shirt came only to right above my belly button but had full sleeves. I loved clothes that showed off my stomach, it was almost like a pride thing.
When I first started to cut that's where I did it, but I haven't cut there in years so I liked to show it off. I slipped on some socks and left the bathroom. The guys were only in town 3 days before we left for tour. Before that they were gone the better half of the year so I was all alone with my mother...and well myself. I changed a lot over the past tour.
I grew up more too. I walked over to my suit case and put my clothes in it. I sat down and put on my converse. I walked out into the front lounge. "Hey, Where's Matt?" I asked the guys. Their head shot up at me, staring at how I was dressed. Sure my shorts were short and the shirt low cut so you could see my cleavage, not to mention it wasn't even a full shirt.
"Hello?" I said waving my right hand in the air. I snapped Alex out of his trance, but Jack spoke first. "When did you get your belly button pierce?!" He asked. "A while ago. Same day I got my tongue pierced. Now where's Matt?" I asked again. "Wait...how did I not notice your tongue was pierced?!" Alex asked. "I didn't show it off." I started towards the door of the bus.
"Where you going?" Alex asked. "To find Matt." I opened the door and walked outside. Alex and Jack ran outside after me. "Wait why do you wanna find Matt?" Jack asked. "I'm supposed to be helping. I don't care about what happened last night, alright?" I said continuing to walk into the venue.
I walked in and noticed Matt right of the bat, standing there. "Matt!" I called. His face went white when he looked at me. "Paige..." "What am I doing right now, where do you need me?" I asked. "Uhh..." He said. "Come over here you can help me." Vinny said. "Alright." I walked past Matt and headed towards Vinny.
I helped him set up and we just talked and cut up the whole time, playing jokes on each other and such. We finished and the show starts in about an hour. We were in the middle of sound check. "Alright Alex your Mic now." I yelled. He decided to sing into the mic. "Paige has a belly button piercing and I wonder what else I don't know about her." He sang.
I was blushing. "Alright that's enough. Your turn Zack." I yelled over trying to get the blush to leave my cheeks. "Do you have any tattoos?" He asked into the mic. I just blushed even harder. "Alright Jack." I yelled. "She does! Look at her blush! Where is it?!" He yelled into the mic. "Alright I'm out!" I yelled.
I ran off the stage and to the back lounge. I laid across the couch back there. I wasn't really doing anything just laying there. When I heard someone come in. I didn't bother to open my eyes or anything. "Hey Paige." Vic said. I opened my eyes. "Hola." I said back. "¿Qué pasó anoche?" He said. I sat up.
"I don't speak spanish." I said standing up. "I asked what happened last night." He said. "Well... Matt made me angry and I slapped him. I'm over it now so we're all good." Mike poked his head in. "Who speaking spanish up in here?" "Me." Vic said. "I can't speak spanish. I can speak Latin." I said.
"Latin? That's a dead language." "So. Just cause it's dead doesn't mean you can't speak it." I said back to Vic. Mike stepped in the room. "Speak it." He said. "Ego manducare prandium in pavone." I said, they just stared at me. "What did you say?" Vic asked. "I eat peacock for breakfast." "Why that?" Mike asked.
"What were you looking for something like: Ego expellam aliquando, tam prope oculis meis. Vestibulum risus natare in orbis lumina amet est sit amet diebus vitæ meæ?" I asked. "Now what did you say?" Mike asked. They were actually impressed with my Latin skills.
"Someday I'll drive, close both my eyes. We'll swim in circles in the blue lights, it's gonna be the best day of my life... Your lyrics." I said. "That's so cool." Vic said. "Thanks." I said back. "I heard your sound check earlier. Where is your tattoo?" Mike asked.
"On my body." I said and crossed my arms. "That's very descriptive." He said back. "I know. It's on my shoulder." I said lowering my arms. "Which one?" He asked. "Left." "What's it of?" Vic asked. "Jack the Pumpkin King." "Cool." Mike said.
"Paige!" I heard Alex yell. I rolled my eyes and left the room. "Yes my darling." I said walking up to him. "We were just looking for you making sure you didn't run off and slap someone." I rolled my eyes. He grabbed my hand and pulled me with him. "Where are you taking me?" I asked him.
"Gotta come do a shot with the guys and I before our show." He said back. We left the venue and walked over to the bus. Alex opened the door letting me get in first. I nodded and entered the bus. "What kind of shots are going on in here?" I asked. Jack turned around. "You know... Jack." He smiled. "Well at least we know I can drink you under the bus then."
I said taking the shot glass he had out of his hands. "So what you took more shots than me big deal." He said grabbing another shot glass. "Since when do you drink?" Zack asked. "Well I've been to quite a few parties since you guys left. I'm the reason the party is cool." I said nonchalantly. "Well then." Alex said.
I smiled. "Alright you guys go on in 10, so lets do these and get you inside." Matt said walking out of the back lounge. We all clinked our glasses together. "To the first show on tour!" Rian yelled. "Yeah!!" The rest of us yelled. I slammed back my shot and set it on the counter.
I turned and started towards the door. I opened it with people following behind me. I got out. "Paige." I turned to see Matt standing there. "Yeah." I said taking a few steps back to him. I've come to grips you can't be mad at someone for pointing out your flaws, so I forgive him. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I was drunk and not thinking-" "It's really ok Matt. We're good." I smiled and he smiled back.
He pulled me into a hug."I'm glad. Also you should be wearing more clothes, people on tour are crazy." He said pulling away. I rolled my eyes. "I like dressing like this, plus shows off my butt." I turned around. "It looks good in these shorts." I said he hid his face in his hands and I laughed. Alex walked up behind me next to Matt and smacked my butt.
"Yes it does. Right Jack!" He yelled continuing to walk away towards the venue. "Yep! Mighty fine!" Jack yelled back turned around at the venue doors. "Guys that's my sister!" Matt yelled. "Can't help it if she's hot!" Zack yelled. I curtsied and started to walk to the venue doors.
We walked in and the guys went on. After the show we headed back out towards the buses. Jack ran up to me and wrapped his sweaty arms around me. "Gross dude!" I yelled at him. "Oh you know you love it." He said back. "Yeah but you know what I'd like it even more if it wasn't sweaty." I said continuing to walk towards the bus.
We made it and got on. I walked straight back towards my suit case. I pulled out a shirt and some shorts. "Hey Paige." "Yeah." "So you speak Latin." "Yep." I said throwing my clothes in my bunk and walking towards the guys in the front part of the bus. "Can you sing one of our songs in latin?" Alex asked. "I mean I could but it wouldn't come out how you want it to sound." I said back.
"Sing part of Dear Maria." Jack shouted. I thought for a sec before singing. "Possedi tuum picture, uenio ad te, o Maria, numerare me ingredi Ibi suus fabula ut in calce huius et utrem sum calamo." I finished. They were staring at me. "I'm gonna go change." I said walking to my bunk. I sat in it and pulled off my shorts and slipped on my comfy ones.
I pulled on just a long sleeve shirt and stepped out of my bunk throwing my clothes in my suit case. I turned around and Alex was right behind me. "Oh hello." I said. "Hey. I didn't know you had a tattoo." He said. "Yeah it's a Jack the Pumpkin King one on my left shoulder." "That's cool. You match Jack." "A little, yeah." I said.
I walked past Alex and towards my bunk Alex followed. "Jack said he saw one of your drawings. He said you were really good." "I just enjoy it. I don't think I'm good but whatever." I pulled out my phone I got a text from Sebastien.
From Bass:
Miss you! Who am I supposed to spend the night with now?! :P
I smiled and texted him back.
To Bass:
I don't know?! You gonna try to come to the next location so we could meet up?
From Bass:
Hells Yeah! Of coarse! I miss you! Duh! Night!
I smiled and put my phone down realizing Alex is still standing there. "Well... I'm gonna go to bed. I'll see you tomorrow." I said. He smiled. "How can you just forget what happened yesterday, so fast?" He asked. "It gets easier to forgive when you agree." I said back. His face went from confusion to almost angry. "Your not a Slut Paige." He said sternly.
I nodded. "Good night Alex." I said and laid down in my bunk. He took the hint and closed my curtain and I rolled over. I stared at the wall for a few but eventually I rolled over staring at the ceiling of my bunk. I sat up and pulled out my sketch book and started to write. I was writing song lyrics.
Recently I decided to learn the guitar. Probably only been doing it for about 6 months but I'm a fast learner. I write it out first then put chords and such to it. I cut some words out and add other to make it sound right. I was happy with how it was turning out so I put up the book and laid down now able to fall asleep.
I opened the fridge and pulled out a water. I took a long sip and turned around leaning on the counter. Zack, Alex and Jack were staring at me. "Morning?" I said. "Actually it's the Afternoon." "Well smart ass, Good afternoon." I said back to Jack. I gave a smile and Rian left the bathroom. I ran over to it with my clothes and went in.
I brushed my teeth, cleaned my wrists. I took my hair out of the bun and left it in it's curlish state. I took off my shirt and put on a bra I pulled out along with a clean pair of underwear. I pulled on some shorts and slipped a shirt over my head. The shirt came only to right above my belly button but had full sleeves. I loved clothes that showed off my stomach, it was almost like a pride thing.
When I first started to cut that's where I did it, but I haven't cut there in years so I liked to show it off. I slipped on some socks and left the bathroom. The guys were only in town 3 days before we left for tour. Before that they were gone the better half of the year so I was all alone with my mother...and well myself. I changed a lot over the past tour.
I grew up more too. I walked over to my suit case and put my clothes in it. I sat down and put on my converse. I walked out into the front lounge. "Hey, Where's Matt?" I asked the guys. Their head shot up at me, staring at how I was dressed. Sure my shorts were short and the shirt low cut so you could see my cleavage, not to mention it wasn't even a full shirt.
"Hello?" I said waving my right hand in the air. I snapped Alex out of his trance, but Jack spoke first. "When did you get your belly button pierce?!" He asked. "A while ago. Same day I got my tongue pierced. Now where's Matt?" I asked again. "Wait...how did I not notice your tongue was pierced?!" Alex asked. "I didn't show it off." I started towards the door of the bus.
"Where you going?" Alex asked. "To find Matt." I opened the door and walked outside. Alex and Jack ran outside after me. "Wait why do you wanna find Matt?" Jack asked. "I'm supposed to be helping. I don't care about what happened last night, alright?" I said continuing to walk into the venue.
I walked in and noticed Matt right of the bat, standing there. "Matt!" I called. His face went white when he looked at me. "Paige..." "What am I doing right now, where do you need me?" I asked. "Uhh..." He said. "Come over here you can help me." Vinny said. "Alright." I walked past Matt and headed towards Vinny.
I helped him set up and we just talked and cut up the whole time, playing jokes on each other and such. We finished and the show starts in about an hour. We were in the middle of sound check. "Alright Alex your Mic now." I yelled. He decided to sing into the mic. "Paige has a belly button piercing and I wonder what else I don't know about her." He sang.
I was blushing. "Alright that's enough. Your turn Zack." I yelled over trying to get the blush to leave my cheeks. "Do you have any tattoos?" He asked into the mic. I just blushed even harder. "Alright Jack." I yelled. "She does! Look at her blush! Where is it?!" He yelled into the mic. "Alright I'm out!" I yelled.
I ran off the stage and to the back lounge. I laid across the couch back there. I wasn't really doing anything just laying there. When I heard someone come in. I didn't bother to open my eyes or anything. "Hey Paige." Vic said. I opened my eyes. "Hola." I said back. "¿Qué pasó anoche?" He said. I sat up.
"I don't speak spanish." I said standing up. "I asked what happened last night." He said. "Well... Matt made me angry and I slapped him. I'm over it now so we're all good." Mike poked his head in. "Who speaking spanish up in here?" "Me." Vic said. "I can't speak spanish. I can speak Latin." I said.
"Latin? That's a dead language." "So. Just cause it's dead doesn't mean you can't speak it." I said back to Vic. Mike stepped in the room. "Speak it." He said. "Ego manducare prandium in pavone." I said, they just stared at me. "What did you say?" Vic asked. "I eat peacock for breakfast." "Why that?" Mike asked.
"What were you looking for something like: Ego expellam aliquando, tam prope oculis meis. Vestibulum risus natare in orbis lumina amet est sit amet diebus vitæ meæ?" I asked. "Now what did you say?" Mike asked. They were actually impressed with my Latin skills.
"Someday I'll drive, close both my eyes. We'll swim in circles in the blue lights, it's gonna be the best day of my life... Your lyrics." I said. "That's so cool." Vic said. "Thanks." I said back. "I heard your sound check earlier. Where is your tattoo?" Mike asked.
"On my body." I said and crossed my arms. "That's very descriptive." He said back. "I know. It's on my shoulder." I said lowering my arms. "Which one?" He asked. "Left." "What's it of?" Vic asked. "Jack the Pumpkin King." "Cool." Mike said.
"Paige!" I heard Alex yell. I rolled my eyes and left the room. "Yes my darling." I said walking up to him. "We were just looking for you making sure you didn't run off and slap someone." I rolled my eyes. He grabbed my hand and pulled me with him. "Where are you taking me?" I asked him.
"Gotta come do a shot with the guys and I before our show." He said back. We left the venue and walked over to the bus. Alex opened the door letting me get in first. I nodded and entered the bus. "What kind of shots are going on in here?" I asked. Jack turned around. "You know... Jack." He smiled. "Well at least we know I can drink you under the bus then."
I said taking the shot glass he had out of his hands. "So what you took more shots than me big deal." He said grabbing another shot glass. "Since when do you drink?" Zack asked. "Well I've been to quite a few parties since you guys left. I'm the reason the party is cool." I said nonchalantly. "Well then." Alex said.
I smiled. "Alright you guys go on in 10, so lets do these and get you inside." Matt said walking out of the back lounge. We all clinked our glasses together. "To the first show on tour!" Rian yelled. "Yeah!!" The rest of us yelled. I slammed back my shot and set it on the counter.
I turned and started towards the door. I opened it with people following behind me. I got out. "Paige." I turned to see Matt standing there. "Yeah." I said taking a few steps back to him. I've come to grips you can't be mad at someone for pointing out your flaws, so I forgive him. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I was drunk and not thinking-" "It's really ok Matt. We're good." I smiled and he smiled back.
He pulled me into a hug."I'm glad. Also you should be wearing more clothes, people on tour are crazy." He said pulling away. I rolled my eyes. "I like dressing like this, plus shows off my butt." I turned around. "It looks good in these shorts." I said he hid his face in his hands and I laughed. Alex walked up behind me next to Matt and smacked my butt.
"Yes it does. Right Jack!" He yelled continuing to walk away towards the venue. "Yep! Mighty fine!" Jack yelled back turned around at the venue doors. "Guys that's my sister!" Matt yelled. "Can't help it if she's hot!" Zack yelled. I curtsied and started to walk to the venue doors.
We walked in and the guys went on. After the show we headed back out towards the buses. Jack ran up to me and wrapped his sweaty arms around me. "Gross dude!" I yelled at him. "Oh you know you love it." He said back. "Yeah but you know what I'd like it even more if it wasn't sweaty." I said continuing to walk towards the bus.
We made it and got on. I walked straight back towards my suit case. I pulled out a shirt and some shorts. "Hey Paige." "Yeah." "So you speak Latin." "Yep." I said throwing my clothes in my bunk and walking towards the guys in the front part of the bus. "Can you sing one of our songs in latin?" Alex asked. "I mean I could but it wouldn't come out how you want it to sound." I said back.
"Sing part of Dear Maria." Jack shouted. I thought for a sec before singing. "Possedi tuum picture, uenio ad te, o Maria, numerare me ingredi Ibi suus fabula ut in calce huius et utrem sum calamo." I finished. They were staring at me. "I'm gonna go change." I said walking to my bunk. I sat in it and pulled off my shorts and slipped on my comfy ones.
I pulled on just a long sleeve shirt and stepped out of my bunk throwing my clothes in my suit case. I turned around and Alex was right behind me. "Oh hello." I said. "Hey. I didn't know you had a tattoo." He said. "Yeah it's a Jack the Pumpkin King one on my left shoulder." "That's cool. You match Jack." "A little, yeah." I said.
I walked past Alex and towards my bunk Alex followed. "Jack said he saw one of your drawings. He said you were really good." "I just enjoy it. I don't think I'm good but whatever." I pulled out my phone I got a text from Sebastien.
From Bass:
Miss you! Who am I supposed to spend the night with now?! :P
I smiled and texted him back.
To Bass:
I don't know?! You gonna try to come to the next location so we could meet up?
From Bass:
Hells Yeah! Of coarse! I miss you! Duh! Night!
I smiled and put my phone down realizing Alex is still standing there. "Well... I'm gonna go to bed. I'll see you tomorrow." I said. He smiled. "How can you just forget what happened yesterday, so fast?" He asked. "It gets easier to forgive when you agree." I said back. His face went from confusion to almost angry. "Your not a Slut Paige." He said sternly.
I nodded. "Good night Alex." I said and laid down in my bunk. He took the hint and closed my curtain and I rolled over. I stared at the wall for a few but eventually I rolled over staring at the ceiling of my bunk. I sat up and pulled out my sketch book and started to write. I was writing song lyrics.
Recently I decided to learn the guitar. Probably only been doing it for about 6 months but I'm a fast learner. I write it out first then put chords and such to it. I cut some words out and add other to make it sound right. I was happy with how it was turning out so I put up the book and laid down now able to fall asleep.
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