Walls
"It could be for the last time and it's not right."
Jack’s POV
I don’t know why, but as soon as I walked through the school doors, I felt that something big was going to happen today. What? I didn’t know.
I walked to my locker like I did everyday. Dawn wasn’t at her locker though. Of course, I walked through the door a minute later than normal, and it doesn’t take long for her to get her stuff anyway. I grabbed my stuff and started walking to my first class . Although, this wasn’t like everyday.
Everyone was looking at me.
Most of the time, I could walk to any of my classes without a second glance. Rumors must have really started up about Dawn and I. I mean, I liked her, but I didn’t want the whole school to know before her. I guess that is just life. Stuff just never went your way.
I walked into my first class and saw that we were having the same sub as we had had the day before. That meant that everyone was going to be giving Dawn a hard time again. Things were never going to go her way, were they? I sighed and sat down in my seat. When the bell rang, everyone started talking about her just like I thought they would. Of course they just had to talk about the one other thing that was going around as well.
They just had to be talking about me.
Was it all really that interesting? I didn’t think that it was. Of course, I was the one being talked about. Now I see why Dawn cut. It would be hard to go through this every day of your life without releasing it some way. I could barely even stand it, and it had only been a couple of minutes. I rubbed my forehead with my thumbs as if that would relieve some of all of it.
I just happened to glance up when Dawn was up at the desk, asking to go to the bathroom just like she did yesterday. As soon as she was out of the room, I got up to ask as well. I stepped out of the room and followed her just like I had done yesterday. Her destination was the same as well. Dawn sat in the same spot on the stands as well. Although the next part was different.
A tear ran down her face.
Dawn had a calligraphy pen in her hand and was crying. I watch from a distance as she started to carve into her arm. I couldn’t stand watching her harm herself, so I spoke up.
“Dawn, are you ok?”
She wasn’t expecting me. Dawn jumped a little from being startled and stabbed her wrist in the process. “Shit.” I saw some of the blood, so I ran up to her as fast as I could.
“Are you ok?” I looked down at her bloodied hands. “Holy shit. W-We have to get you some help.” Fear filled my whole body. What if she loses too much blood? What if she dies?
I couldn’t believe what she said next. “Who do you care? You don’t. You just want to be seen as a hero.”
I looked her with complete disbelief. “I do care.”
“Why? I’m nobody.”
“You’re not nobody. You’re smart and talented and beautiful.”
“No I’m not.”
“Yes you are.”
“Prove it.” I kissed her. It was a soft one and not very long for obvious reasons, but I tried to put all of my feelings into this small act. It seemed to work to because her eyes were wide after I pulled away.
“I’m going to call 911 now.” I pulled out my phone and dialed the number. After telling her where we were and what happened, I looked over and saw Dawn on the verge of passing out. “Please stay awake. You need to stay awake.” I did as the woman told me and took my shirt off and then held it onto Dawn’s wrist. I put her in my lap and kissed her again. “Please stay awake.”
For some reason I started to think about how I first met her in Kindergarten.
There was this girl with brown hair and pretty hazel eyes standing in the doorway. Everyone was pointing and laughing at her even the teacher was chuckling. Why?
She was dressed up like Batman.
I didn’t understand why everyone was making fun of her for this. I thought it was really cool that she had the guts to dress in a costume on the first day and that she liked Batman. Most girls were into princesses and fairies.
At lunch, I went over to her and sat down. I couldn’t help but smile at her. My smile grew when she shook my hand. There was just something about her that gave me this feeling inside.
“What do you have to eat?” I asked her.
“Peanut butter and jelly,” she answered.
“Cool. I have some cookies if you want some.” I took one out of my bag and handed it to her. “Batman is really cool by the way.” She nodded. “What’s your name?”
“Dawn.”
“Pretty. I’m-”
“Jack!” a group of boys that I had met earlier shouted as they walked up to me. “I thought we told you to not talk to her. She’s weird. What kind of person would dress up like Batman to go to school? Besides, if she was going to dress up she should have dressed up like a princess or a stupid fairy. Batman is for boys.”
“Girls can like him too,” she tried to defend herself.
“No they can’t. Come on Jack. If you don’t hang with us, we’re going to make fun of you too.”
I looked down at my hands and mumbled, “I’m sorry,” to Dawn.
When the ambulance finally came, they told me that I couldn’t go with them because I wasn’t a family member. I nodded. If I couldn’t ride with them, I was just going to drive there myself. Without wiping the tears off my face from earlier, I walked into Dawn and my home room. I started picking up our stuff.
“What’s wrong?” one of the guys that I talked to yesterday asked me.
“It’s Dawn.”
“What happened?”
“She was carving into her arm and accidently stabbed herself. Their taking her to the hospital now.”
“Serves her right,” I heard my ex-girlfriend say.
I had had it with her. “Stop being such a fucking bitch! She’s probably dying right now, and if I remember correctly, you are the main one to blame! If she dies, it’s on your hands! Hell, it will be on all of your hands! You should really watch your mouth, you fucking whore!”
With that, I grabbed the remainder of our stuff and took it out to my car. I wiped my face once before starting the car and speeding to the hospital. I even ran a few red lights, but none of that mattered. I needed to make sure that she was ok. I needed to make sure that she wasn’t dead.
I really wish that I could take that first day in Kindergarden back. If only I had stayed by her side. If only I had the guts to stand up for both of us. If only I could have never hung out with those bullies.
If only I had told Dawn that I liked her sooner...
I don’t know why, but as soon as I walked through the school doors, I felt that something big was going to happen today. What? I didn’t know.
I walked to my locker like I did everyday. Dawn wasn’t at her locker though. Of course, I walked through the door a minute later than normal, and it doesn’t take long for her to get her stuff anyway. I grabbed my stuff and started walking to my first class . Although, this wasn’t like everyday.
Everyone was looking at me.
Most of the time, I could walk to any of my classes without a second glance. Rumors must have really started up about Dawn and I. I mean, I liked her, but I didn’t want the whole school to know before her. I guess that is just life. Stuff just never went your way.
I walked into my first class and saw that we were having the same sub as we had had the day before. That meant that everyone was going to be giving Dawn a hard time again. Things were never going to go her way, were they? I sighed and sat down in my seat. When the bell rang, everyone started talking about her just like I thought they would. Of course they just had to talk about the one other thing that was going around as well.
They just had to be talking about me.
Was it all really that interesting? I didn’t think that it was. Of course, I was the one being talked about. Now I see why Dawn cut. It would be hard to go through this every day of your life without releasing it some way. I could barely even stand it, and it had only been a couple of minutes. I rubbed my forehead with my thumbs as if that would relieve some of all of it.
I just happened to glance up when Dawn was up at the desk, asking to go to the bathroom just like she did yesterday. As soon as she was out of the room, I got up to ask as well. I stepped out of the room and followed her just like I had done yesterday. Her destination was the same as well. Dawn sat in the same spot on the stands as well. Although the next part was different.
A tear ran down her face.
Dawn had a calligraphy pen in her hand and was crying. I watch from a distance as she started to carve into her arm. I couldn’t stand watching her harm herself, so I spoke up.
“Dawn, are you ok?”
She wasn’t expecting me. Dawn jumped a little from being startled and stabbed her wrist in the process. “Shit.” I saw some of the blood, so I ran up to her as fast as I could.
“Are you ok?” I looked down at her bloodied hands. “Holy shit. W-We have to get you some help.” Fear filled my whole body. What if she loses too much blood? What if she dies?
I couldn’t believe what she said next. “Who do you care? You don’t. You just want to be seen as a hero.”
I looked her with complete disbelief. “I do care.”
“Why? I’m nobody.”
“You’re not nobody. You’re smart and talented and beautiful.”
“No I’m not.”
“Yes you are.”
“Prove it.” I kissed her. It was a soft one and not very long for obvious reasons, but I tried to put all of my feelings into this small act. It seemed to work to because her eyes were wide after I pulled away.
“I’m going to call 911 now.” I pulled out my phone and dialed the number. After telling her where we were and what happened, I looked over and saw Dawn on the verge of passing out. “Please stay awake. You need to stay awake.” I did as the woman told me and took my shirt off and then held it onto Dawn’s wrist. I put her in my lap and kissed her again. “Please stay awake.”
For some reason I started to think about how I first met her in Kindergarten.
There was this girl with brown hair and pretty hazel eyes standing in the doorway. Everyone was pointing and laughing at her even the teacher was chuckling. Why?
She was dressed up like Batman.
I didn’t understand why everyone was making fun of her for this. I thought it was really cool that she had the guts to dress in a costume on the first day and that she liked Batman. Most girls were into princesses and fairies.
At lunch, I went over to her and sat down. I couldn’t help but smile at her. My smile grew when she shook my hand. There was just something about her that gave me this feeling inside.
“What do you have to eat?” I asked her.
“Peanut butter and jelly,” she answered.
“Cool. I have some cookies if you want some.” I took one out of my bag and handed it to her. “Batman is really cool by the way.” She nodded. “What’s your name?”
“Dawn.”
“Pretty. I’m-”
“Jack!” a group of boys that I had met earlier shouted as they walked up to me. “I thought we told you to not talk to her. She’s weird. What kind of person would dress up like Batman to go to school? Besides, if she was going to dress up she should have dressed up like a princess or a stupid fairy. Batman is for boys.”
“Girls can like him too,” she tried to defend herself.
“No they can’t. Come on Jack. If you don’t hang with us, we’re going to make fun of you too.”
I looked down at my hands and mumbled, “I’m sorry,” to Dawn.
When the ambulance finally came, they told me that I couldn’t go with them because I wasn’t a family member. I nodded. If I couldn’t ride with them, I was just going to drive there myself. Without wiping the tears off my face from earlier, I walked into Dawn and my home room. I started picking up our stuff.
“What’s wrong?” one of the guys that I talked to yesterday asked me.
“It’s Dawn.”
“What happened?”
“She was carving into her arm and accidently stabbed herself. Their taking her to the hospital now.”
“Serves her right,” I heard my ex-girlfriend say.
I had had it with her. “Stop being such a fucking bitch! She’s probably dying right now, and if I remember correctly, you are the main one to blame! If she dies, it’s on your hands! Hell, it will be on all of your hands! You should really watch your mouth, you fucking whore!”
With that, I grabbed the remainder of our stuff and took it out to my car. I wiped my face once before starting the car and speeding to the hospital. I even ran a few red lights, but none of that mattered. I needed to make sure that she was ok. I needed to make sure that she wasn’t dead.
I really wish that I could take that first day in Kindergarden back. If only I had stayed by her side. If only I had the guts to stand up for both of us. If only I could have never hung out with those bullies.
If only I had told Dawn that I liked her sooner...
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12/17/12