Chased by the Past
Explanations (Alex POV)
I felt weird. I pried my eyes open. Again, I was in a different place. I looked down at myself and realized I wore a hospital gown. I pulled it up only to find my thighs and hips dressed in gauze. I poked my hip in the place of the biggest wound, but couldn’t feel anything. The anaesthetics were still in my body. That explained why I was still not fully aware of everything.
I let the gown fall down again and looked up. I was in a white room, a monitor beside me, beeping regularly. I tried to scratch my head but something restrained me. I had been put on an IV. Of course. I sighed and slumped back against my pillow. At that precise moment, the door opened, and Jack walked in. He awkwardly closed the door and shyly looked at me.
“Hi Jack.” I nervously awaited an answer and was relieved when he greeted me back and asked how I was. I was desperate for him to hug me so I opened my arms and closed my eyes, waiting for him to come into my arms. When he finally was in my arms, I told him that I still was on anaesthetics. “Oh Lexy. I am so glad you’re still alive. But why did you do such a thing?” His body started to shake a gain and I felt some tears on my skin.
“Oh Jay. This will be incredibly difficult for me but I-I will try my best.” I could feel my eyes getting watery again, but I was not going to let the tears win. My boyfriend nodded. “Re-remember when I had to leave during several shows to “take a break from singing”? Well, actually… I had anxiety attacks. They were not that bad the first few times but now they are getting really bad. I already self-harmed when I was still a teenager, but I managed to quit back then. Now, I remembered how the self-injury had helped me cope back then. A-and so I relapsed.”
Jack sat up straight and frantically wiped his face. It was obvious that he was in emotional pain. It almost broke my heart to see him looking this hurt, and I couldn’t help but dig my fingernails into my hip.
I let the gown fall down again and looked up. I was in a white room, a monitor beside me, beeping regularly. I tried to scratch my head but something restrained me. I had been put on an IV. Of course. I sighed and slumped back against my pillow. At that precise moment, the door opened, and Jack walked in. He awkwardly closed the door and shyly looked at me.
“Hi Jack.” I nervously awaited an answer and was relieved when he greeted me back and asked how I was. I was desperate for him to hug me so I opened my arms and closed my eyes, waiting for him to come into my arms. When he finally was in my arms, I told him that I still was on anaesthetics. “Oh Lexy. I am so glad you’re still alive. But why did you do such a thing?” His body started to shake a gain and I felt some tears on my skin.
“Oh Jay. This will be incredibly difficult for me but I-I will try my best.” I could feel my eyes getting watery again, but I was not going to let the tears win. My boyfriend nodded. “Re-remember when I had to leave during several shows to “take a break from singing”? Well, actually… I had anxiety attacks. They were not that bad the first few times but now they are getting really bad. I already self-harmed when I was still a teenager, but I managed to quit back then. Now, I remembered how the self-injury had helped me cope back then. A-and so I relapsed.”
Jack sat up straight and frantically wiped his face. It was obvious that he was in emotional pain. It almost broke my heart to see him looking this hurt, and I couldn’t help but dig my fingernails into my hip.
Notes
Can you imagine how difficult this is for both of them? :(Thanks so much for your comments and ratings! Keep it up :3
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