I woke up and looked around the room. Hold on a minute, I woke up? How did that happen? Those pills were out of date and I surely took more than 15. I looked around the room again and apart from a machine that was beeping, telling me I was alive, a drip in my arm and a few chairs, it was completely empty. I layed my head back down on the lumpy hospital bed pillow and brought my wrist up to my face.

Stitches.

I hated having stitches. Wait. Does this mean that that all know about... about my self harm problem? How did they even find me in time? Why did they even care enough to bring me to the hospital? They made it pretty clear that they hated me, didn't they Or was I dreaming? Did I hit my head? Why is my memory so fuzzy? I heard something hit the floor with a loud thud I looked up to see Adam standing in the door way.
"Emma, you're... awake" He asked with a look of... was that a look of disappointment on his face? Okay, maybe he does still hate me.
"Why do you hate me, Adam?" I asked.
"Because Mum showed us the book" He said. Okay, now I was completely confused.
"What book?" I asked.
"This one" He said, handing me a purple notebook I'd never seen before in my life. I opened it and it said all sorts of horrible things about my family in.
'I hate Adam, he's the worst brother in the world!'
'I hate my family'
'My parents are shit and they don't care about me'
Those were just a few of the things written in the book, and they certainly weren't the worst. I read it again and again trying to work out who's handwriting it was, because it certainly wan't mine.
"This isn't my handwriting, Adam" I said, looking him dead in the eye, he looked away.
"Who's is it then?" He asked, sounding rather pissed off.
"Are you kidding me?!" I shouted. He thought about it for a minute.
"Ohh!" He said.
"Well done, genius." I replied.
"Why would Mum do this?" He asked.
"Oh yeah, don't even bother apologising for making your own sister feel like shit enough to push her over the edge." I said and looked away from him.
"Oh yeah, sorry" He mumbled, looking down at his feet.
"You're gonna have to do better than that, I mean, look at where I'm sitting, Adam. I'm in a fucking hospital and I'm probably going to end up on suicide watch, you could at least mean it when you apologise." I said.
"I'll make it up to you Emma, I promise. I love you, okay?" He promised.
"Thanks Ads. Love you too. And I have a few questions" I replied.
"Shoot"
"1, why did you care enough to come and check on me, and 2, how did you find me?"
"I cared enough to check because I didn't wanna loose you Em, even though I thought you hated me, I still cared and I don't know what I'd do without you. And I found you because 20 minutes after you went upstairs crying, I got worried, so I went after you and knocked on your door and when you didn't answer, me and Dad kicked your door down. We saw you lying there in a pool of blood and vomit and we saw the note saying sorry. Dad thought you were gone, but I called an ambulance and when they came, Mum continued to complain about how you were faking it. Dad and I were so worried, we didn't want to loose you." He explained. I took a second to take it all in.
"Mum really hates me, doesn't she?" I asked, he avoided the question.
"Mum and Dad are in the cafeteria with Zack, do you want to to send them up?" He asked.
"Just Mum, I need to talk to her" I said. He left the room and a few minutes later, Mum walked in and stood at the side of the bed and just stared at me.
"How are you honey?" She asked.
"cut the crap. I saw the book. Are you happy, Mum? You drove your own fucking daughter to try and take her own life. How does that make you feel? Why did you even do it in the first place?" I asked.
"Because you're an attention seeker" She said.
"Because that makes perfect fucking sense" I retorted.
"Don't swear at me!" She shouted.
"Given the circumstances, I think I'm quite within the right." I said.
"Look, I just wanted my kids to be perfect. Not fucked up emos like you" She said.
"Just leave me alone" I said. She stormed out of the room and about 10 minutes later, Dad appeared. He stayed in the door way though.
"Emma" He whispered. I looked over at him.
"The book isn't mine, Mum faked it" I said.
"Yeah, Adam said." He replied.
"Why are you stood in the door way?" I asked. He slowly walked into the room.
"I thought you might hate me" He said.
"I did last night" I replied.
"I'm sorry Em, I love you and I'll make it up to you" He said as he rested a hand on my cheek.
"I'm glad you still care" I said.
"Well we have one problem" He said.
"And what's that?" I asked nervously.
"We have a Zachary Merrick itching to know why you did this" He said.
"Send him up then" I sighed.
"You can do this Emma, he needs to know." Dad said. He then left and was replaced by Zack a few minuted later. He sat down next to the bed and I explained everything to him.
"Well I just want you to know, I wont leave your side, I'll help you though this Emma, you can trust me." He said.
"Well, on the bright side, I've learned something from this" I said.
"What's that?" He asked.
"That you cared enough to stay, actually, make that two things"
"What's the second?" He asked again. I took a deep breath and prepared myself for what I was about to say.
"That I love you Zachary Merrick, and today you made me realise that." He stood up and kissed me.
"I love you too, Ems" He said. Who knew I'd fall in love during a class project?

Notes

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