I woke up and it was Monday morning Zack offered to give me and Adam a lift to school this morning, of course I said yes. He gave me his number so I could text him when to get here. I groaned and rolled out of bed. I'm sorry to say I cracked again last night, Mum kept taking the piss out of me kissing Zack, so I self harmed again. 6 new fucking scars. I got dressed, cleaned my teeth then went downstairs.
“Want breakfast?” Mum asked.
“No.” I replied bluntly.
“Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning.” Mum replied.
“No, I didn't. You just don't realise that taking the piss out of me for kissing someone wont help me get over my fucking anxiety or depression any time soon, will it?” I shouted.
“What anxiety? It's all in your head. You just want attention. Well news flash, the world doesn't fucking revolve around you” She shouted back.
“You know what? You're a shit parent.” I said as I grabbed my bag and walked out with Adam on my heels. I called Zack.
“Zack we're ready” I said.
“Are you crying Em?” He asked.
“Adam will explain when you get here” I said and hung up. Zack was here 2 minutes later and we got in.
“So what happened?” Zack asked. I looked at Adam and he began.
“Mum and Emma had a really bed argument” He said.
“I'm sorry Emma, if you ever need to get away, you can always just call me” Zack said. Adam just smiled to himself. He was glad that Zack and I were friends, I could tell.
“Thanks Zack” I said. The rest of the car ride was silent, Zack parked the car and we all got out.
“Have a good Day Ems, see you at lunch” Adam said.
“So do you wanna do the rest of the project at mine then?” Zack asked on the way to English.
“Please” I replied. I wasn't looking where I was going and tripped over the kerb.
“My ankle, I think I twisted it” I said as Zack helped me up.
“Can you walk on it?” He asked.
“Yeah but it hurts” I replied.
“Hop on” He said, turning his back to me. I jumped on his back and we ran all the way to English. We fell through the door just as class was starting. Everyone looked at us in shock, we were the 2 kids who avoided everyone. And now, we're both friends.
“Zachary, Emma, see me after class” Miss Main said. We just nodded and sat in our seats trying to fight the laughter.

English flew by and at the end, we walked up to Miss Main's desk.
“So how's the project going?” She asked.
“We're nearly finished.” I answered.
“Good, and I see you two are getting along well, especially you Emma, you know, with your-” I cut her off.
“I think we've got to get to science” I said and pulled Zack out of the class room.
“What was all that about?” Zack asked.
“Long story. I'll tell you another day” I replied. Of course, Dad had to tell the school about my anxiety.
“You're one mysterious girl, Ems” Zack said.
“Well, all the more reason for you to stick around, eh?” I laughed. We got to science and took our seats.
“So, you and Merrick, eh?” Alex asked.
“Shove off Alex” I retorted.
“Woah girl, just curious” He said.
“Well get your nose out of my business and talk to someone who gives a fuck.” I said.
“No one else in the school likes you you know?” Alex said. I walked over to the other side of the classroom where there were a few cups, I picked one up and put the empty cup in front of Alex.
“Here you go Alex, here's my last cup of care. Don't drink it all at once.” I said and sat back down. Everyone in the room was watching and laughing.
“Well I, I uh” He stuttered.
“Oh give it up Alex and find some random girl to fuck and chuck” I said.
“You calling me a man whore?” He asked.
“Yeah, got a problem with that?” I asked back.
“Yeah, maybe I have, you little slut.” He pushed me backwards off my stool and I hit my head on the floor. Zack and a few other guys came running over.
“Hey man, it's not cool to hit a girl” One guy said, and then punched Alex in the nuts. Zack helped me up and everyone asked if I'm alright.
“I'm fine, my head just hurts a bit” I replied. The teacher walked in then.
“And what's going on here?” He asked. Everyone looked at each other and Zack spoke up.
“Alex was taking the piss out of Emma and then pushed her off her chair.” He said.
“Is this true, Alex?” The teacher asked.
“What? No!” Alex said.
“He's lying sir” One girl spoke up.
“Alex, Emma, Jess and um, Zack, come to the principals office with me, I'll need a few sides to this story.” He said. We all walked up to the office and sat on the plastic chairs.
“Well well well, what have we got here?” Mr Wilding, the principal asked.
“Well, I think I should let these 4 explain.” Our science teacher said.
“Okay, you start, young lady.” Mr Wilding said, pointing to me.
“Well Alex assumed that me and Zack were together, which we aren't and I told him to mind his own business then he said that no one likes me so I gave him an empty cup and said here's my last cup of care, so he pushed me backwards off my chair” I said. Mr Wilding nodded and pointed to Alex.
“Alex, your side?” He asked.
“Pretty much what Emma said” He groaned and Zack and Jess nodded in agreement.
“Right, well Alex, 3 after school detentions” The principal said and we all walked back to class.

Nothing really happened after that, and before we knew it, it was lunch. Me and Zack walked into the cafeteria and saw Adam waiting for us in his usual spot.
“Hey Adam” I said.
“So, I heard you got called to the principals office. Good comeback by the way.” He replied.
“How did you hear about that?” I asked.
“Someone in your class texted someone in mine and they told me what happened.”
“Well I have to say, your sister would be good in a fight” Zack said as he put his arm around me. Adam rose his eyebrow at me and I just shrugged.
“Yeah, she can be pretty confident when she wants to be” Adam said.
“Oh yeah, we're finishing the project at Zack's, so I'll be at his after school for the next few days” I said to Adam.
“But I'll still give you a lift home” Zack said.
“Thanks Zack” Adam said. He then announced that he was going to see some friends so me and Zack went to music. I never realised that we had all of our lessons together.

When music finished we got in his car and waited for Adam who climbed in the back seat about a minute later. We dropped him off home and told him to tell Mum that I'd be home later. We then got to Zacks and went straight up to his room.
“Where's your parents?” I asked.
“Oh, they don't get home until later.” He shrugged. We got out our notebooks and wrote our versions of part of the play. When we did that, we were finally done. If I wanted, I could leave now, never talk to Zack again. But I can't do that, something is making me stay, and I didn't like it.

It's been a week since we finished the project. We've spent all of our time together since, but after school today, Zack's spending time with his Mum, which means I'd have to face mine. No, we haven't exactly spoken since the argument, and I don't really want to, to be honest.
“See you tomorrow Zack, have a good time” I said as he dropped me off outside my house. Adam was ill today so it was just me and Zack in the car.
“See you tomorrow.” He said. I got out and walked inside.
“Emma?” Dad shouted from the kitchen before I could get upstairs.
“Yeah Dad?” I said as I walked into the kitchen. I saw him, Adam and Mum sat around the table.
“Do you have something you want to say to your mother” He asked.
“Not really” I smiled.
“I mean, you should apologise.” He said.
“Oh yeah, okay. Um. Sorry for being such a shit daughter with a mental illness. I know it isn't exactly what you wanted” I said.
“Emma, be nice” Dad said.
“Why should I? Because she takes the absolute piss out of my anxiety when neither of you are here? No. I shouldn't be the one apologising. She should” I said.
“Emma, what you said the other day really hurt your mother” Dad replied.
“And what she's been saying for the past 2/3 years hasn't hurt me?”
“That's because you fake it to get attention” Mum said.
“Oh, I fake it, do I? I faked hurting Zack's feelings by saying he couldn't be my friend? I faked getting bullied? I fake not being able to make friends? Makes sense” I snapped.
“Yeah, you did. Because your an attention grabbing, ugly little whore” She said. I looked at Dad and Adam who were scowling at me.
“Oh, so she just called me a whore and you're still taking her side?” I said to them.
“Yeah we are. Because she's right” Adam said. That hurt me more than anything else.
“What made you change your mind about me, Adam?” I asked.
“The fact that you take the attention away from anything else here. Just grow up and stop pretending” He said. That hurt me even more.

“You know what? I don't give a shit any more. If you'd rather take her side on this calling me a whore then don't bother talking to me again. I'll be out of here when I'm 18.” I said and stormed off upstairs. I locked my bedroom door and grabbed the blades off my shelf. I cut into my wrist deeper than I've gone before, and then grabbed the bottle of pills and took them all. Zack's obviously the only one who wants me here, and he'll move on. I put Sempiternal in the CD player turned the volume up and pressed play. I then wrote 'I'm sorry' on a piece of paper, then led down on my bed and closed my eyes. Before I knew it, I was drifting off, hoping to never wake up again.

Notes

I managed to write this today because I'm home with whiplash. So if it's rubbish, that's why. Anyway, I hope you're enjoying it ^-^
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