I threw my phone to the ground. "Aaaaggghhh!" I smacked my hands against the wall. I was in my house. I was more mad with myself then Paige. I understood why she gave Alex her number in the first place, I was being a total dick. I originally thought of Paige as someone to be my fuck buddy, but as it went on it turned into a friendship I can't bare to loose.

This morning when I went by the diner to apologize, she was there with her family...and another guy. I rarely ever get jealous but I was definitely jealous. It almost made me sick to my stomach that we've been "Together" for a little while and she hasn't introduced me, but him...I mean how well did she know him?! But that's when it hit me, she must feel like this all the time, even though Paige is the only one I have been sleeping with, with all the woman that I hang around. That and I never even thought about introducing her to the guys.

I walked over to my fridge and pulled out a beer. I picked my phone off the floor and wiped the screen off. I decided it would be a good idea to have Rian over, maybe if I told him what was going on he would know what to do, cause I think I fell for Paige.

Rian: Hey man. What's up?
Me: Hey, I was just wondering if you wanted to hang out with me?
Rian: Sure, I can be over in like 20. Is that cool? You got beer right?
Me: Yeah I got beer, and yeah that's fine.
Rian: Cool see you then.

I hung up and plugged my phone up to the charger. I walked into my living room. I looked out the window, It was raining pretty hard now. Then I remembered the first time I say Paige, It was raining really hard that day too.

*FLASH BACK*

I was driving down the road, squinting hard at my windshield trying to see out. That's when I noticed a blonde walking in the rain with her bag draped over her shoulder and her arms crossed. She looked like she was gonna freeze to death, I mean what else was I supposed to do. I pulled over in the turn lane and rolled down my window. "Hey. Can I give you a ride?" She turned to me. "N-No...Thanks. I-I'm good." She was stuttering. That's when I realized she was crying.

I hopped out of my car and ran up to her. That's when I realized she was bleeding too. "Woah. Your bleeding...Are you ok?" "Y-Yeah, I'll b-be fine." She was still crying uncontrollably. "Pleas, let me at least give you a ride. I promise I'm not a murderer." I said hoping she would say yes. She nodded and that was enough for me. I pulled her into my side blocking her from the rain as I walked her to the passenger side of car.

I opened the door and she got in. I went to my side, I slid in and buckled my seat belt. I turned to her and she was still crying. "Alright, I'm Jack. Please stop crying..." She turned to look at me. "Why?" She asked. "Because your gorgeous and you don't deserve to cry so much." She sniffled and wiped her nose. "I'm Paige." "Alright." I started my car.

"So what were you doing walking in the rain?" I asked. "Well, I got lost going a different way to my house." "Oh, Is that where I'm dropping you off-" "No!...Please no. He'll be there." she said starting to get tears to well up in her eyes. "alright then we wont go there. We'll go to my house, Ok?" I asked, looking over to make sure she had stopped crying. "Ok..." I started to drive towards my house.

I pulled up to my house. We got out and she followed behind me. We stepped inside and she slid off her shoes. I did the same. Then I realized she was wet and freezing. "Can I get you some clothes?" "Oh, you don't hav-" "No really it's not a problem, I promise." She nodded and walked up the steps behind me and into my room. I walked over to the dresser and pulled out a shirt and some sweat pants.

I handed them to her. She pulled off her shirt. "Uhh...I should leave." "Oh, sorry. I'm just comfortable with it... I really don't care." She was strange, but the good kind. "Ok. Do you mind if I change in here too?" I asked. "No...Go ahead. It is your room." She pulled off her pants followed by her underwear. It took everything I had to stop staring at her body. When she pulled the shirt over her head is when I noticed the cuts that ran up and down her arm.

I finished getting my clothes on and looked over at her. She was sitting on my bed, staring at her arm. I walked over sitting next to her on the bed. "Can I clean those for you?" I asked. She tensed up and looked up at me. "I guess..." I took her hand and pulled her into my bathroom. She sat on the toilet and I cleaned them and wrapped them in gauze. The cuts were almost bone deep, and they were so wide.

"What happened?" I asked. She was sort of tense at first but slowly came around to it. "My uhh... Ex-Boyfriend did them... I went over to his house today and that's where I was leaving, and why I didn't wanna go home..." "Wait. He has a history of stuff like this?" I asked completely shocked how someone could hurt this beautiful girl in front of me. "Yeah... for the most part. I have staples in my head from when he slammed it into the counter top, and a scar from where he stabbed me. I had to get stitches there too. Not to mention the words." She finished looking up at me.

I was lost in her stories and eyes, a beautiful blue color. "Wait... Words?" I asked. "Yeah... He carved words into my back with razor blades... They say things that I only believe about myself."She looked away from me. She must either trust a lot of people or no one, to be telling me all this. I fifnished cleaning and wrapping her cuts then I pulled her off the toilet. "You can stay here if you want." I said still holding her hands in mine.

"I would like that. Your really nice Jack, and easy to talk to..." She said looking down. "I squezed her hands a little tighter. " I can always be here for you if you want." I was staring at her lips so pink and plush, so kissable. She caught me and that's when I realized she was doing the same thing. I leaned in first but she followed. Our lips met and fireworks went off inside my head. Her lips so soft, I had to have more. I slid my tongue across her bottom lip.

She opened them letting my tongue slid in. I explored her mouth, as she wrapped her arms around my neck. I wanted her...

*END OF FLASH BACK*

I heard a knock on the door and I jumped off my couch. The memory I was thinking about was the first time I met her pure bliss. I opened the door. "Hey man." Rian said. He walked in and we walked to the kitchen. I pulled out a beer for him. "So what is this really about?" Rian asked opening his beer and taking a sip. "Well..." "So I was right. Something has the great Jack all confussled." "Sorta. I'm just gonna tell you alright?"

"Sure man. Tell me anything." He took another sip of his beer. "You can't tell anyone, Alright?!" I warned him. "Dude, Ok." "So while ago I met this girl-" "Ooh. Jack met a girl, like actually got a name." "Yes, Now shut up. Well this girl, I really like her and we have been sort of dating theses past few months but-" "And you haven't brought her around to meet us?" "No, I was afraid at what you guys would say." "Would say? Jack do you hear yourself? You have obviously fallen hard for her, why would we take that away from you?"

"Cause...she's only 17..." I looked up at Rian's face. "Umm..." "Exactly. She's turning 18 soon so we figured keep low key until then but now... it's like.... I don't know." I leaned back against my counter and pushed the heel of my hands into my eyes. "What do you mean?" "Well She and I both are tired of hiding and well I brought it up and she said not until I introduce her to you guys, cause of my reputation, but then she went out to OUR place on Saturday mornings with her family and some guy I had never seen." I started to pace back and forth.

"She introduce him to her family. I mean sure that's fine but I was supposed to be the one she introduce next, then I called her. That was earlier, I asked who he was and she said it was the closets thing she had to a friend. Now I feel horrible. And on top of all that Alex asked her out and now they are on a date and I really wanna go over and..." I slammed my fist against the fridge. "Aagggghhh!" I slid down the front of my fridge. Rian came over.

"This was the girl from the bar last night?" "Yeah... I called her my friend cause I was afraid that you guys would try to get me to stop seeing her cause she was so young." I looked up at Rian. He sat next to me. "She's where I go when I don't know what to do. She's who I wish was in my bunk while we're on tour. I miss kissing her..." "Well Jack you either let her go to be happy or you can show her that you can be happy together. And from ehat it sounds like she was ready, but you weren't." Rian was right.

He got up and left my house. I picked up my phone and tried the call her, she didn't answer. She and Alex have been on that date a while so it's gotta be over. I'll go over to Alex's house and tell him what I told Rian and then I'll go apologize to Paige. I looked over at the clock. "Ugghh... It's like 12:52." I decided I would let Paige sleep but I'll still go to Alex's house.

I drove over listening to Blink, trying to get my mind off everything. I pulled up outside Alex's house. I walked up to the front door. I opened it. I walked in noticing all the lights on but Alex no where to be seen. I walked up the stairs and turned into his room. I opened the door noticing the lights off. It's only 1:30. He can't be asleep. I walked over to his bed. At first I only saw him but then there, laying next to him wrapped up in his arms was the woman I loved. I knew that now. She and he both were naked.

The pain in my gut hit me like a semi truck barreling down the highway. I backed out of the room slowly and closed the door. I ran down stairs and out of the house. I got in my car. I hit the steering wheel a couple times. "Jack, You really fucked up this time. She obviously doesn't wanna be with someone who hid her. I love her and I know it now. I'll get her back, the only way I know how. Jealousy.

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