I woke up and rolled over with closed eyes. I felt someone pull me against their chest. In my sleepy stupor I thought it was Jack, I kissed his cheek, I then opened my eyes and realized it was Parker. "Good morning." I played it off as nothing. "Morning." "Wanna get some breakfast?" "Only if there are hash browns involved." I laughed and stood up pulling down the shorts I had slipped on yesterday and pulling on some jeans, out of my drawer. I turned around to see Parker just staring at me.

"Come on. It's not like you've never seen a girls body before." He blushed and turned away. I grabbed a bra and a shirt out of my drawers and walked into the bathroom. I quickly changed and brushed my teeth. I exited out of the bathroom only to be called by mt aunt. "Paige? Come here for a sec." "Coming." I walked down the hall way into her room. "Yes." "We're all gonna go out to breakfast." "O-Ok." "Don't worry your friend can come to." I froze when she said those words.

"Sorry Aunt Kim, I should have asked-" "Paige it's alright. Your almost an adult and I know nothing happened." She stood up and gave me a hug. "How long till your ready?" "Ten." "I'm gonna go wake up your cousin and George." She let go of me and I left her room and went to my own. Parker was standing there with his shirt off but now had pants on. "The cats out of the bag." He turned to look at me. "Did you get in trouble?" "No. Plus even if I did it would have been worth it." I pulled him into a hug. "Thanks for being here." "Welcome. I had a great time."

I pulled apart our hug. "Alright get dressed." "We still getting breakfast?" "Yep with my aunt, cousin and George." "Who's George?" "Ali's Boyfriend." I stepped out of my room and into the living room. I suddenly got a call.

Me: Hello?
Alex: Hey. Uhh...Paige.
Me: Oh...Hi Alex.
Alex: I was wondering if you wanted to hang out today, maybe?
Me: Sure but later on. I'm going out to breakfast right now.
Alex: That's fine. Maybe dinner?
Me: That sounds great.
Alex: Ok I'll call you later.
Me: Ok, bye.

I hung up and walked back inside the house. I made it half way around the corner before I was tackled to the floor. "Oh how I miss my buddy!" George yelled. "George! I missed you too!" I yell back as Ali grabs his feet and pulls him off me. Parker comes around the corner and notices me on the ground. He offers me his hand and I took it. "Ohhh...And who is this?" Ali asked. "Right. Ali, George. This is Parker." ""Nice to meet you." Parker said. My Aunt walked around the corner. "Ready?" "First thing first. This is Parker." She pulled him into a hug. "I'm Aunt Kim." He gave her a hug right back. "Nice to meet you."

I smiled to myself knowing that I haven't brought anyone home since Chance. This was going really good. "Does anyone wanna ride with me?" My Aunt asked as we headed down the steps. "We will." Ali said. "I have to get Parker back to his car, so no. But thanks." I said. "Sure. See you at the diner." She said and got into her car. Parker and I got into mine and took off towards the diner.

We got out of the car and I walked in with Parker. Everyone was already sitting in the big table in the corner. We walked over. We call this my table, I come here almost every Saturday. We sat down and ordered our food. We were all almost done before Ali spoke up. "So Parker?" He lifted his head to look at her. "Are you and Paige dating?" "Uhh...No. We're just friends." He said. Then my Aunt chimed in. "What do you do in your spare time?" I took my right hand and hid my face in the one. I felt some take hold of my left ahdn and give it a reassuring squeeze.

"I play Baseball." "What position?" Ali asked. "Pitcher." "When I played I was pitcher on our softball team." "So Paige." I looked up at George. "I have a proposition for you." "Listening." I said. "I'm trying to get my house on the market so I can move up here-" "Congratulations." "Thanks. I was wondering if you wanted to come down and help me fix it up?" "sure." "It'll be nest weekend." "Yeah." I said

We finished our meal and walked outside. everyone finished their goodbyes and Parker and I got in my car. We listened to Pierce the Veil on the way. "Sorry bout my family." "Your fine. And they were really nice." "Yeah they were just a little too much, I haven't had anyone over in a really long time so." We pulled up to his car and He got out. He walked over to my side and gave me a hug through the window.

"See you whenever." "See ya." I said. And pulled away. I got a cal, I answered it.

Me: Hello.
Jack: What the fuck?!? I got to the diner, where we eat like every Saturday and there you are with your family and some dude I've never seen before?!
Me: Jack, That could have been you but you screwed that up. He's also the closet thing I have to a friend.
Jack: Paige...I'm sorry but I also know that you agreed to go out with Alex! That's my best friend Paige!
Me: You called me your friend Jack...Friend. And what was I supposed to say 'Sorry can't hang out with you cause I'm secretly dating your best friend!' That would have gone over well!
Jack: Well...I don't want you to...
Me: I'm sorry but you should have thought about that. I'm tired of being you secret fuck! I thought we were serious but whenever we get close to commitment you back out. I want something real.
Jack: I can do that-
Me: No you can't jack. I should have never tried to change you.

I hung up in tears. I cried all the way home. I got out of my car and walked into the house. I made it to my room. I should have never let him into my heart. I sat up feeling heart ache hit my stomach.I rolled up the sleeves of my shirt feeling weak. "This is all my fault." I stood up and walked into my bathroom. I searched through the drawers until I found my blades. I took one out of the box. I took off my shirt throwing it on the floor and yelling out. "Ahhhhh!" I was the only one home.

Everything that happened today reminded me why I didn't let people in. Everything was Chance's fault he broke me to begin with but I know I'm just as much to blame. I held the blade and took it to my wrist. I watched as the blood pooled around the open cut. I did a few more on my left wrist. I hated myself for trusting people. That's why it has taken me so long to introduce anyone to my family.

Trust is a commodity that I don't allow myself to give out. I looked at my face in the mirror. Tear stained cheeks and quivering lips. Along with trembling hands. I felt sick. I lunged at the toilet emptying my stomach of it's contents.I finished and sat up against the bath tub. The tub was cold against my back. It helped calm me down. I sat there until the blood stopped flowing from my wrist. I stood up weak from the amount of blood I lost.

I wiped down the counters and floor. I felt like I had blood everywhere. I finished walking back into my room just in time to hear my phone start ringing.

Me: Hello.
Alex: Hey... Where do you live? I'll pick you up in an hour.
Me: Ok. 413 High tower rd.
Alex: See you then.
Me: Yep.

I hung up and looked at the time. I was in the bathroom for a few hours. I opened my drawers looking through everything I owned for something to wear. I pulled out a stripped hoodie and put that on. I slipped on some burgundy skinny jeans, I kept on my socks and slipped on my converse. I walked into the bathroom. Changing my tongue piercing and straightening my hair. I finished and laid across my bed. I rolled up my sleeve a little looking at the cuts. It was doing ok, so I left it open. I sat up grabbing my guitar out of my closet.

I started to play The cave by mumford and sons. I was halfway through when my phone went off. It was Alex. I didn't answer I just walked down stairs and out the front of my house. I saw him in the drive way. I slipped into the passenger seat of his car. "Hello." I said. "Alright so I figured some where cool." "Ok." We pulled out of my drive way and down the road. "So where exactly is cool." "It's a surprise." He said looking at me and wiggling eye brows.

I leaned my head against the window. We parked somewhere random. "Come on we gotta walk they have the road closed." Alex said taking my hand in his and pulling me down the side walk. We were in the middle of some festival thing. There was live music and kids running around. There were people everywhere. I was looking around as we passed some shops, while heading down the walk way. "Hungry?" "Actually, Yeah." I said back.

"Alright well there is this place that has amazing hamburgers." "Sounds awesome." I said back. Alex was still holding onto my hand, he pulled me down the side walk weaving in and out of people. I was laughing when Alex just stopped in the middle making me run into the back of him. "Ouch..." I said. "Well that's what you get for running into me." I dropped my jaw. "Your the one who stopped in the middle." "Yeah cause we're here."

He pulled me in to the little restaurant. "How many?" A girl asked. "Two." Alex said. He still had my hand. We haven't lost connection this whole time. I've only hung out with Alex for 30 minutes and already we have had more PDA then Jack and I. He let me sit first in the booth. "Thank you, kind sir." "Your welcome milady." He said back. "What can I get you to drink?" Another girl asked. "Can I get a coke." I said. "Same." Alex said. She nodded and walked away.

"Copying me?" I said to him. "No...It's a free country. I can drink what ever I want." The girl brought out our drinks. She set them down and turned around. Before Alex could grab his I grabbed it and took a sip out of both glasses. "Hey..." "Free country remember?" I said and handed him one cup. He took it and took a sip. "Ok..." He looked up at me from the menu. "Let's get the awkward questions part out of the way." "Ok...You first." "Hmm. Do you have any siblings?" "I did. He passed away..." I left it at that. I didn't want it to get awkward.

"Same question." "I had a brother he ended up dieing in a car crash." "Sorry." "It's ok. I was the one driving...." I wiped away a tear from my cheek. "My brother killed himself." Alex said. I looked up. He had a few tears rolling down his cheek. I leaned over wiping them away with my right hand. "Sorry." "It's fine. Family?" He asked. "I live with my aunt and cousin. My mom died when I was little and my dad's a jerk so." "My parents are ok." The woman came back.

"Know what you want to order?" "Yeah. I want a hamburger with everything and some fries." I said. "Same." She walked away. "Here we go with the copying thing again." I said he just looked at me. "I know I have good taste." I said he laughed.

Our burgers came out and we ate them in a comfortable silence. "You were so right about these burgers." I said. "Told you." He had some ketchup on his cheek. I took my napkin and wiped it off. "Thanks mom..." He said. "Your welcome sweet heart." I said back playing along. Some people gave us weird looks but we thought it was funny. About half way through our meal it started to rain.

We finished and Alex paid. We got to the door neither one of us realizing it was raining yet. "You wanna come over and watch a movie or something?" Alex asked. "Sure sounds fun." I said. We both took a step out side under the awning. "This sucks." Alex said. "My hair is gonna get messed up." I started to laugh. "It's not funny." He said. "Sure it is." He grabbed my hand and we ran down the side walk. It was raining super hard now. We got to his car and stood outside cause it was locked. Alex got his keys out and dropped them.

"Seriously?" He yelled. I laughed. He grabbed them and unlocked the doors. I got in. We were soaking. We drove to his house. Our hair was ticking to our fore heads and our clothes clung to us in weird places. We pulled up and ran to Alex's front door. He unlocked it and walked in. I stood awkwardly in the front door area.

I was looking around it was a nice house. Seemed to be a two bedroom. I was brought back to earth. "Can I get you some clothes to change into?" "Yes please." I said, he gestured and I followed him upstairs. We walked into what I assume was his room. There were posters all over the walls. I saw an acoustic and an electric guitar in the corner of the room. I looked over to the windows. It was dark out side by now.

He walked over to his drawers and pulled out some jogging pants and a shirt for me. "I'll change in the bathroom so you can have my room." I took them from his hands. "Thanks." He left the room and I set the clean clothes on his bed. I took my shirt off followed by my bra. I peeled off my pants and underwear. I slipped on the sweat pants followed by the shirt.

The shirt was a black v neck. I shook my hair messing it up only more then it already was. I stepped out of the room and down the steps with my clothes in hand. "If you hand me your clothes I'll dry them for you." I handed Alex my clothes and he walked out of the room and put my clothes in the dryer. I stood in the living room with my arms crossed just looking around when he came up behind me.

"What movie you wanna watch?" "Doesn't matter to me." He walked over to the movies naming off countless titles. "Ooh...The breakfast club." "Alright. Take a seat on the couch and I'll get us something to drink." I walked over sitting on the couch. Alex walked back in and set our waters on the table and put the movie in. He came back and sat on the couch. I could tell he wanted to sit next to me but didn't wanna scare me off.

I took initiative and scooted closer leaning back against his chest. He wrapped his arm around my body and pulled me in closer. I laid my head on the crook of his neck. We were watching the movie. Alex was playing with my hair. I mean how was he supposed to know that turned me on. He quickly figured it out though, especially after I let the smallest moan out. He ran his hand up my arm and to my stomach. "You look even sexier in my clothes then I do." I turned my head to look at him and he pushed our lips together.

My hands instantly found their way to his neck and hair. He pulled me onto his lap and I straddled his lap. He rested his hands on my hips. One hand sliding ever so slowly up my shirt. His tongue traced my bottom lip, I granted him access and he took dominance. I gained some much needed confidence and tugged at the bottom of his shirt. It came off over his head breaking the kiss.

Our lips crashed back together, but it quickly ended when I hopped up. "Looks like you have a problem, Lex." I said to his referring to the growing bulge in his pants. He rolled his eyes. I leaned over connecting our lips again, I used this to my advantage. I grabbed his hand and pulled him up. He pushed me up against the wall across from the couch. His right hand was on my hip exposing skin. Our tongues were tied. My left hand was mixed in his hair at the nape of his neck.

His left and my right hand were waffled together over my head against the wall. His lips left mine and gave me time to breathe, only for it to be taken away he found a spot on my neck that was my weak spot. It made my breathing hitch and my knees weak. "Aleeex..." He smiled against my skin. I pulled out of his grasp. I stood at the bottom of the steps. He didn't move. "Oh, Alex." He looked up at me. I pulled off my shirt. I threw it at him.

I turned and ran up the steps. He followed behind me. I was standing in the middle of his room. He came up behind me wrapping his arms around my waist. I tilted my head on his shoulder and he took the access and chewed on a spot on my neck. He flipped me around and I jumped up, he caught me and walked over to the bed. He laid me down and with one leg in between mine he pushed up on the t shirt I was wearing.

I pulled it off completely exposing my breasts. He let his fingers on his right hand, drag their way up my sides and across my stomach, playing with my belly ring, and to my right breast. "That's so sexy." I let out a moan as I pulled Alex's face down to mine. Our kisses were hungry now, both of our tongues fighting for dominance. I let him win but took initiative. I pulled down the jogging pants and threw them across the room. He followed suit and pulled his own down. I wrapped my hands around his neck and pushed our lips together.

"Condom." I said against his lips. I let go and he shuffled across the bed and pulled out a condom from the night stand drawer. He came back over and put the condom on. He took my hands in his own and pined them down above my head. He lined him self up and pushed inside. I let out a breathless moan. He leaned down our lips connecting.

I moaned into his mouth. He pulled away and took one of my breasts in his mouth. He was teasing the nipple. I let out another moan. I grabbed his head and pulled his lips back up to mine. I repositioned my hips and wrapped my legs around his body. This little movement earned a moan from his throat. I moved from our kissed and trailed kisses down his jaw bone to his neck.

I found a spot behind his ear. I nibbled at it. The grip he had on my wrists tightened, it kind of hurt. I left a hicky behind. He hit a spot that sent shivers up my spine. "Do that again." I breathed out. He did as I asked. "Shit, Lex. Faster." I said. He did as was asked. I let out a loud moan. "Fuck, Paige." He said. His voice was so sexy. He trusts kept going for a few minutes.

"Fuck! Aleeex...I'm close." I managed to get out.
He let out a moan and his thrusts were getting sloppier, I knew he was close too.

He thrusted hard and this action did it for me. My back arched and I let out a moan which happened to be his name. He followed shortly behind me. He hovered over me for a second and kissed me. He rolled over and laid next to me. I put my head on his chest both of us trying to catch our breath. He sat up a little, leaning on his elbow. I did the same. He smiled at me, but his smile quickly faded.

"what?" I asked. "Paige. Your wrist." He said. I sat up looking at the blood run off my wrist. I stood up and ran to the bathroom off his room. I grabbed some toilet paper and applied pressure to it. Alex came in behind me. "Did I do that?" He asked. I shook my head. "No...I did." I looked up at his face. "Why would you do that?" "Just cause of shit in my life." I replied back with a laugh. He didn't think it was funny, he took a step closer. He pulled me into a hug.

"You don't need to do that anymore just give me a call, come over, hell I'll go over to your house. I know how hard it is to quit." He showed me his wrists. I ran my fingers over the cuts on his wrists. I started to cry. "Hey. It's ok." "I'm so messed up Alex." I sobbed into his chest. He hugged me tighter. "Come on. You can stay here if you want." I looked into his eyes. "That would be nice." He took me back to his room and turned on another movie and we laid up in his bed and watched whatever till we fell asleep. All I ever wanted was to do this with Jack but he never gave us the chance.

Notes

Comment please! Planing on doing another POV next chapter. YAY! Loves :P

Outfit 1: http://www.polyvore.com/breakfast/set?id=96020506

2: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=96031062

3:http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=96057215