P.O.V Jack

The bright sunlight streaming through the window hurt my eyes as I woke up. My head was pounding and I was nauseous as hell. Well that's what I get for spending everyday drunk but today I've decided enough is enough. I need to pull myself together and start moving on. Slowly my eyes adjusted to the light and I could open my eyes fully, I was in my bedroom which was weird cause I was sure I had fallen asleep slumped against the couch. I brushed it off as being to drunk to remember and decided it was time to finally answer all of Alex's texts and phone calls that he had been sending me since half way through the week. Guilt coursed through my veins he must be so worried about me and I made it worse by being to selfish to answer his texts and calls. Slowly I raised my skinny arm and began to grope the sheets in search of my phone, my hands grasped something but it wasn't my phone. It felt like a leg. Quickly I pulled my hand away and sat up to inspect what the hell was in my bed. The sudden sitting up caused my head to spin and nearly caused me to throw up, I doubt back the vomit in my stomach and waited till my head was settled before turning to see what was in my bed. A mop of messy caramel coloured hair peeked out from under the covers. I knew instantly that it was Alex but why was he here? I gently lay back down as not to disturb the boy next to me and I began to ponder why Alex was here.

After a minute or two the memories of last night hit me. Alex had found me sleeping slumped against my sofa surrounded by all the bottles I had drank. He had woke me up and I began to sob before being violently sick all over the floor and nearly Alex. I cringed at the memory, it was horrendous. I was a complete mess, I was the mess I had tried to hide from Alex by avoiding him. More memories came after the initial ones, I remember Alex cradling me in his arms and carrying me to my bathroom. He ran me a bath and had gently stripped me out of the clothes if worn for a week straight. I had leant on him for support the whole time, to intoxicated and tired to stand up. Alex had then lifted me into the bath and that was where my memories ended. I groaned loudly grabbing at my hair, I hate myself for letting Alex see me like that. My load groan had woke Alex up and he shot up asking me a million questions about if I had a headache or if I felt sick or if I wanted anything. He was so caring, looking at me with his eyes full of concern and love. I just shook my head to say I was fine even though my head was pounding still. Alex relaxed a little and lay back down. There was an uncomfortable silence between us, neither of us knowing what to say to the other.
'Alex, I'm sorry', I whispered to him my eyes brimming with tears. I was ashamed of myself for everything I had done. Alex could see the tears starting to form on my lashes and wiped them away gently shushing me.
'I'm the one who should be sorry. I should have checked on you sooner and maybe you would be okay', he whispered his voice breaking and his tears starting to fall. Carefully I sat up and pulled his body into my arms, letting him rest his head on my chest as I traced little circles into his back.
'Dont blame yourself, none of this was your fault! You were just trying to give me space and I appreciate that. I'm the idiot who turned to drink to cope', I whispered to him, trying my best to calm him down. My guilt was unbearable again, I had put him through so much pain in one night and for that I could never forgive myself. I had really fucked up big time. Alex never answered me, he just snivelled and curled up closer to my body.
'Lex, I'm so sorry you had to see me in that state. I promise you on my life that it will never happen again', I said confidently. I knew for sure I would never get that bad again.
'Why didn't you ask for my help Jack?', Alex's voice was small but it was full of hurt.
'I didn't want you to see me so weak and pathetic', I whispered back absolutely ashamed of myself. Alex's response was cut off by a loud growl coming from my empty stomach.
'when was the last time you had something to eat?', Alex asked.
'Ehm.. I don't remember', I confessed.
'Well, why don't I go make you something', he asked getting out of bed and pulling me with him.

Alex took me to my living room which was spotless clean without a bottle or vomit in sight.
'Alex, you really didn't need to clean up for me', I said shocked at how clean the place was.
'Id do anything for you', he replied sincerely as he pushed me down onto the couch and grabbed a blanket to wrap around my naked body.
'Im just going to make you something small okay?', he asked as he headed towards the kitchen.

Five minutes later Alex returned with some toast for us to share and some cereal. He also had a glass of water and some painkillers for me.
'Thank you', I smiled as I knocked back the painkillers and munched my way slowly through some toast and some cereal. I wasn't able to eat that much but that was to be expected and I knew I would get better as time went on.

Alex and I were now both lying on the sofa, Alex was spooning me and tracing gentle circles on my bare hips which were hidden under all the blankets he brought through. Alex's touch sent chills through my body and the feeling of his warm breath on shoulder blade wasn't helping me to be able to get what I had been thinking about for the past hour to formulate into words.
'baby?', I asked quietly.
'mmhhmm', he hummed into my shoulder blade, showing that he was listening.
'I was just thinking that seeing as you practically already live here, I was wondering if you would maybe want to move in with me properly like after you graduate cause that's in a few weeks?', I asked nervously playing with my fingers.
'of course I would baby boy', he answered as he brushed his lips against my neck. I just smiled in response and nestled closer to his body drifting off into a peaceful sleep.

Notes

Aww it's kinda fluffy and stuff..

Hope you all enjoyed!

-Ailie xo


**it just got pointed out to me that I've been forgetting the whole teacher student thing. Sorry to anyone else that has noticed and doesn't like it :( **