I woke up before Jack. Snuggled naked in his arms. Well not completley, before I get ahead of myself. We had only our boxers on. I don't know how I managed to get past Jack without him seeing my cuts or scars. Seeing there were fresh ones on my wrist I had made in Jack's bathroom. Last night was the best night of my life. It was honestly the first time I've smiled in a while. Well, a real smile. Not an extremly fourced one like usual. I've known Jack only a couple of days, but ready he has had such a great effect on me. I can't say I'm in love with Jack, but I can say I really really like Jack. And really really don't want to loose him.

Jack stirred a little in his sleep, making a soft 'mew' noise. I laughed a little and Jack opened one eye and looked up at me. Seeing he was on my chest. He groaned loudly and turned his head the other way. I laughed softly and Jack groand again.

"Lexxx!" Jack whined in a deep raspy voice, his morning voice. "Stop laughing. It's to loud. I'm trying to sleep." Fuck, I could get used to that voice every morning.

Jack turned back at me and smiled. I just smiled back. Doing that came easy with this boy.

Jack's eyes racked up and down my body. Suddenly making me self cautious. I slide out of Jack's grasp, desperate to get dressed. I knew he was thinking about how fat I was. His face twisted in such a way that let me know exactly what he was thinking. " Ew! What was I thinking! Look at how fat he is! Gross! Gross! People like him should die!"

I was back to Jack, still sitting on the bed, I was looking all over the floor for my clothes,but all I could find was my scarf. Jack sighed, instantly tears welled in my eyes.

"Lex..." Jack started but I cut him off.

"Save it Jack, I've heard it all before; 'Ew you're so fat!' , 'Ew you gross emo cutter'. I don't need to hear it from you.

Jack sighed again,wrapping his arms around my large waist from behind me. Laying his warm cheek on my unnormally cold back.

"Alex, I would never say those things. You're. Not any of those things. Who called you those things baby?" Jack placed a kiss on my back, sending butterflies to my stomach and a grin to my face.

"Everyone in my old school called me those things. You, however, just called me baby." I felt Jack smile against my back, making me smile. Again.

"Sorry. I didn't realize. " Jack said spinning me around to face him. His eyes never left mine, but there curiosity burning in his eyes. Curiosity killed the cat.

"I don't mind at all. " I said back. Jack smiled again.

"Alex. Can I look at your scars?" Jack whispered.

I knew I should have said no. I don't let anyone look at them I don't even really look at them.

But while I was finishing the thought, I found myself nodding. Jack's eyes flashed to something I've never seen before. Well, I see that look it Rian's eyes when he looked at is girlfriend, I think her name was Cass.

Jack kissed my lips ever so softly. Melting away most my worry. But some was still there, Jack might think the cuts or scars are completley gross. And tell me to leave.

his eyes fluttered down. His eyes widened, ans he wasn't even pasnt my hips. Nor had he looked at my arms yet. I bit my lip and looked away. I knew what he was thinking. "Ew! This Alex killed is fucking disgusting! He must be insane! He's unstable!"

"You're beautiful Lex. So beautiful." Jack mumbled, kissing my thigh, where my skin was most ruined.

"Lex, will you be my boyfriend? I don't want you to do this. I want to help. But with how fucking amazing you are, I don't think I could do it as just your friend." Jack said serious, but trying to lighten the mood with his joke at the end.

i laughed a little , before thinking.

I want to be with Jack. I want to be with Jack so bad. But he wants to help me. I honestly don't tthink I could ever be helped. His efforts will go to waste.

But again, I found myself nodding without thinking.

Notes

Sorry it's so shot, I was on a iPod