I listened to Jack laugh. The sound sent pure happiness threw me. So much that it made me shutter and smile myself. I spent all day with Jack, and it was different for me. I'm so used to be alone, being with someone all day was hard. I was trying not to be awkward, and maybe I wasn't, because Jack seemed at ease, even more so then when we were at school, maybe it's because I was actually being part of me and Jack's conversations. Instead of leaving them one ended on him.

I took my phone out of my pocket

9:47PM

"Oh shit Jack. It's way late. I should get home." Jack looked at me and frowned a little, or did I imagine that? Well, it was gone to fast for me to find out.

"Y-yea I guess you should. Hang out with me again tomorrow?" Jack asked, a glisten of hope in his eyes.

"Oh coarse Jay." He smiled at the new nickname, I really don't know where it came from. I stood up and walked to the bean bag, grabbing my school bag. I turned around to see Jack standing behind me, our chests touching.

I slowly brought my gaze to Jack. He was already looking at me. He smiled and laughed sort of, backing up away from me some. It sucked I really wanted to keep him close.

"Sorry, you probably don't want the gay kid rubbing up on you. Gimme your phone, I'll put my number in." I handed Jack my phone.

Is now a good time to come out to Jack? He wouldn't judge me right? Well, you never know. He could be some homophobic gay. Those exists right? Almost every 'Bible Thumper' I've meat seems pretty gay, checking me out and such.

But if he knows I'm gay, maybe he'll tell other people and I'll get made fun of. But maybe I could learn to be confident like Jack. Ha, probably not.

I was snapped from my thoughts by Jack handing me back my phone. I smiled when I seen that he put is contact as 'Barakitty'.

"No, it's fine Jack, I'm gay too." I said without thinking. I looked at Jack, he seemed shocked, but a smile stretched on his face.

"Awesome! Sense tomorrow is Friday, wanna come over after school and stay the night. I have the rest of the group over on Friday's. But you can stay the night. I mean, if you want." Jack's smile faded at the thought I might not come.

Is it weird school started on a Thursday?

"Yea. Sure I'll stay. See you tomorrow." I gave Jack a quick hug, which sent zaps of electricity threw my body, and left his house.

The walk from Jack's house to mine wasn't long. But it was a little scary at night. I made it home safe anyway. I didn't notice my sisters car in the drive, until I seen four other people in the house threw the window. I could hear Lady Gaga blaring throwout the other wise quiet neighborhood. I peered threw the large living room window to see my sister and her friends passing around a blunt, the room clouded with the smoke.

I sighed, I'm not going in there. I turned on my heel and walked further down the street. I found an old abandoned park, vines growing up everything, moss settling on everything, but in the moon light and my taste for ugly things, the playground looked beautiful.

I sat on a swing making it creek. From years of rust built up on it. What was I going to do? God knows how long they're gonna stay at my house. I reached in my bag, pulling out my box. I took out a pencil and song book.

Seven blades all calling my name.

Begging for my blood.

Crying for my flesh.

Hey, those are good lyrics! I slammed the box shut locking it, shoving the key I kept on a chain back under my shirt. Kinda like a key necklace, except this one wasn't for looks, it actually unlocked something.

I turned to a page were I wrote sappy things. There was only one other thing in the book. And it fit perfectly with what I just thought.

'Seven blades
calling my name,
Begging for my blood.
Crying for my flesh.'

I jotted it down under what I had already written.

'The water is clear,
But your wrists are stained.
Your face says happy,
But your eyes say pain.'

This would make a good song, and I really wanted to finish it. But I couldn't stop thinking about Jack, and our time together today. Subconsciously humming a tune in my head, lyric upon lyric flowed into my head.

Within two hours I had a whole song. I smiled at my work, proud of what I sounded like, when I have some alone time I'll figure out the guitar sound.

11PM

My sisters friends should be home by now. Hopefully. Slowly and reluncantly I got up of of the swing. I left the park, putting the bush back in form so it didn't look like someone walked threw it. I was going to remember this place, make it my own little hide away.

I took my time walking home, My sisters friends where gone, but she wasn't. I opened the front door and shut it quietly. Not sure of where she was in the house. I jogged down to my 'room' or should I say basement.

I opened my laptop, logging onto Facebook to talk to my two friends back home like I promised.

I had four new friend requests. I opened them and smiled at the first one.

'Jack Barakat'

'Erin Boyne' was the next one. The girl I met today.

'Rian Dawson'

'Zack Merrick'

I accepted them all, and was added into a group chat called 'If You Don't Answer Me, I'll Eat Your First Born'.

I starred at it awhile, before chat sounds and numbers galore started popping up. I smiled when I realize it was a group made by Jack, and it was probably my. . . friends.

Erin~ no! u fuck face! we've watch home alone 8 weekend in a row jack
Jack~ POINT?!?!?!?!?!?!
Zack~ thatz 8 times 2 many bro
Rian~ ^agreed

I couldn't help but laugh a little at the conversation going on. I knew Jack said his favorite movie was Home Alone, but I didn't think he meant like, out of all time. Like he watches it as a normal movie.

Jack~ GUISE ALEX IS ONLINE :DD
Erin~ omg! hi alex. lol if ur reading.
Me~ Hi :)

I shakenly typed a reply. I'm not up to date on 'Internet Language' . But they seem to be typing normally. Not like 12 year old scene kids or my sister.

Rian~ Man u comin 2 jakc 2morrow?
Jack~ ITS JACK NOT JAKC U DUMBASS!!!!!!
Erin~ omg jack calm ur titz
Me~ Yea I'm coming. :)

That was my second smiley face, was it to many? Will they get annoyed and stop replying? Probably not, I mean, look at the way Erin's typing. I kinda want to throw a dictionary at her face.

Zack~ AWWWWWWWWWWWESOME! Mayb u can convice jack not to make us watch home alone again. i swear im gonna end up like jack. noing every word of the fucking movie.
Jack~ ITS A GOOD SKILL!
Me~ Jack, I think you have a cat perched on your 'Caps' button. xD Lol jk

I hope my joke didn't insult Jack, but I wanted to make the other guys see I wasn't a mute robot That I can joke too.

Jack~ NOPE I JUST LIKE 2 B DRAMATIC!
Erin~ u are dramatic enough. u dont need caps to do the job 4 ya
Rian~ lol i g2g
Erin~ ya me 2 actually
Zack~ lol k i guess i'll go 2
Jack~ ME 2 ITS PAST MY BEDTIME
Me~ Holy fuck Jack...

I smiled at my continued joke. It's not hard to get along with these people. They're nice. Maybe to nice. . . Maybe they're setting me up for something. All the negative thoughts came crashing down on my shoulders. This happened at my old school. People pretended to be my friend for awhile, then they beat me up and I was alone. Whos to say it won't happen again.

Erin~ lolololololol im dying nice 1 alex

Everyone was offline by then. Even Jack, he didn't say goodbye, he kinda ended off silently. I took my phone out remembering I had his number.

To: Barakitty
I hope I didn't make you mad D:

I sent the next twiddling my thumbs nervously waiting a reply.

From: Barakitty
if this is alex: NO MAN IT WAS FUNNY :D MY LAPTOP DIED DOE
if this is anyone else from school: i'm fucking your mom currently brb

I smile realizing that is exactly something Jack would say to a bully.

To: Barakitty
It's Alex, night Jack :)

I tossed my phone on my bed, I finally kicked off my shoes and took of my jacket. I lied starring at the ceiling.

My first day here was actually good. I actually have friends. And I actually enjoyed it. I just hope tomorrow is as good.