Just Two Kids Stupid And Fearless
Love is a beautiful place when you're in it
"Well, then if I get pregnant, that's the way it is. But I don't think so.", Wendy said, totally calm and stood up. I grabbed her arm.
"But what if y-"
"No 'what if's Alex. I'm close to my period, so I'll do a pregnancy test when I come to the tour. I'm not eating any last minute pill, that's just bullshit.", she wasn't totally cool. I saw that she was annoyed, but she didn't want to show it. She released herself from my grip, and in the right moment someone opened the door.
"Yo lovers!", Jack yelled, and I stood up and faked a smile. "Wow, it's fucking cold here. Did you have a fight?"
"No, we're fine.", I lied, and out a arm around Wendy's neck. She smiled, and kissed my cheek.
"Everything's cool.", she went to the boys, and hugged them.
"Look at you, there's nothing left to hug.", Zack said while inspecting her, and then hugged her hard.
"Hey, don't smash her!", I joked. They both giggled.
"Don't worry.", Zack winked. Wendy hugged Rian, and said hello.
"I'm gonna eat a little, be right back.", she answered Zack's first sentence, and went out in the kitchen.
Wendy's POV:
Me and Alex with a little baby? Unthinkable. Totally unthinkable, we would never handle it. There wasn't a big chance I would be pregnant, I mean, it was only one time, but I had my ovulation yesterday, so there was a possibility. If there was last minute protection I really believed in, I would've eaten it right now, but it wasn't.
I put the bowl with macaronis and bacon in the microwave. Well, right after the guys left, I knew me and Alex would have a big argument about this. He was so scared. He had a panic and anxiety about it, so. I would freak out if we knew I carried a child inside me, but there was nothing we could do now, just wait until I did the test. Abortion was an option of course, but it felt like I would kill someone then.
Ding
My thoughts got interrupted by the microwave. I picked out the bowl, and took a fork, and went to the guys who sat in the couch. They were jamming. Zack and Jack had a guitar each, Alex sang, and Rian drummed on his legs. I recognized the song, it was the one Alex wrote the same day we spent a whole day together, and he played it after Jack brought me back after running away when he tried to kiss me.
"If these sheets were the states and you were miles away
I'd fold them end over end to bring you closer to me
Because I don't sleep at all without you pressed up against me
I settled for long distance calls I'm lost in empty pillow talk again"
Alex voice was perfect, in talking and singing. He looked at me while I chewed, and he looked confused. The worried eyes started at me like he needed help during he sang the bridge. I wanted to look away, and it felt like I would freak out too and just cry. My period was 1 and a half week away, so I would probably know if we were clear next time I met him. But after my starving it could be late too, so it was really hard to know.
I threw in another fork with food in my mouth, even though I wasn't hungry. When I swallowed it, it felt like everything would come up again, but that was the thing with eating disorders. Before the bullying, I had never a problem with eating, it was just that I had a tiny stomach and couldn't eat much. But now, I forced myself not to eat and threw up everything I ate. So this was hard, but it was just to eat, swallow, and let it stay in the stomach.
"What do you think?", someone far away said.
"What?", I looked up at the boys. Jack looked at me with asking eyes. "Oh, it was great.", I swallowed a little piece if bacon.
"It looked like you spaced out for a while.", he said.
"No, I didn't. I heard everything.", I lied, and giggled. "Just thinking some.", Jack sighed.
"Hey, tell me what the fuck is going on between you two. Alex, you can't really concentrate, and Wendy, you look really lost. It's not 'nothing', something is bothering you.", Jack knew us too well.
"I know we tell each other everything, but this time it isn't really your business.", I said, and glared a little.
"Are you pregnant or something?", Jack pulled his eyebrows together, and I sighed at him.
"What the fuck? No I'm not, not even close. Just let it go, please.", I lied, and we dropped the subject. "So what's next? More new songs?"
"No, we've been off with the songwriting lately.", he said. "Or, not we, it's only Alex who writes."
"Is this one on the new album?", I tried to smalltalk, but a picture of a baby who looked like me and Alex was stuck in my mind.
"No, but we have two songs about you.", Jack grinned at me.
"I know them!", Rian yelled. "And I'm not telling you."
"Fuck off, which?", my head turned from Rian to Alex.
"Time-bomb and Forget About It.", Zack hurried, and Alex blushed.
"Do I wanna hear them?", I was curious.
"No,", Alex said. "but I'm no Taylor Swift if you think so, I just expressed my feelings, but Time-bomb isn't that bad."
"You just ruined the whole album for me.", I grinned at them, and Jack stack out his tongue for me.
Right after the boys closed the door at 8pm Alex and I looked at each other.
"How can you be totally cool with this? You could have a little kid inside you right now!", Alex shouted, and I had no reason for not yelling back.
"We're not even sure! Just because we didn't use protection once, it doesn't mean that we're going to be parents!"
"'I'm close to my period', it makes me nuts to think that it is a possibility. Everything about this is making me so fucking crazy, and I'm scared as hell!", what the fuck was he even scared of?
"Tell me what you're so damn scared of then! Don't you like kids, or are you afraid of them, I don't know!"
"If I'm gonna be a father, I don't wanna be an absent one, and that means I have to give up the music and the band. And you're body is too fragile to carry someone inside you, and give birth.", his voice went lower at the last sentence. He came closer, laid a hand on my neck, and a thumb on my cheek. "Hasn't this been enough tough for you, and us? I almost lost you yesterday, and I can't stand the thought of might doing it again. The kid might not make it too, so please understand what I'm saying."
"I know, and I want to have you there all the time, and this is the wrong time. But remember, we don't know anything for sure, we're worrying too much about something that might isn't true. If I am pregnant, then I seriously don't know what to do.", I said, and tried to smile. "But, we shouldn't think about that now."
"You're right.", he mumbled. "It's to early to be worried, it was today it happened, so. Sorry for my overreacting."
"Don't apologize, I know how much the music means to you. You have every right to worry about the future, because you have a big one in front of you. Don't you dare let that go.", I smiled and him, and he pulled me into a hug.
"I hate when we fight.", he mumbled in my hair.
"They say that it brings people closer to each other.", I answered and I heard the most perfect man giggle.
"I think it's true."
"But what if y-"
"No 'what if's Alex. I'm close to my period, so I'll do a pregnancy test when I come to the tour. I'm not eating any last minute pill, that's just bullshit.", she wasn't totally cool. I saw that she was annoyed, but she didn't want to show it. She released herself from my grip, and in the right moment someone opened the door.
"Yo lovers!", Jack yelled, and I stood up and faked a smile. "Wow, it's fucking cold here. Did you have a fight?"
"No, we're fine.", I lied, and out a arm around Wendy's neck. She smiled, and kissed my cheek.
"Everything's cool.", she went to the boys, and hugged them.
"Look at you, there's nothing left to hug.", Zack said while inspecting her, and then hugged her hard.
"Hey, don't smash her!", I joked. They both giggled.
"Don't worry.", Zack winked. Wendy hugged Rian, and said hello.
"I'm gonna eat a little, be right back.", she answered Zack's first sentence, and went out in the kitchen.
Wendy's POV:
Me and Alex with a little baby? Unthinkable. Totally unthinkable, we would never handle it. There wasn't a big chance I would be pregnant, I mean, it was only one time, but I had my ovulation yesterday, so there was a possibility. If there was last minute protection I really believed in, I would've eaten it right now, but it wasn't.
I put the bowl with macaronis and bacon in the microwave. Well, right after the guys left, I knew me and Alex would have a big argument about this. He was so scared. He had a panic and anxiety about it, so. I would freak out if we knew I carried a child inside me, but there was nothing we could do now, just wait until I did the test. Abortion was an option of course, but it felt like I would kill someone then.
Ding
My thoughts got interrupted by the microwave. I picked out the bowl, and took a fork, and went to the guys who sat in the couch. They were jamming. Zack and Jack had a guitar each, Alex sang, and Rian drummed on his legs. I recognized the song, it was the one Alex wrote the same day we spent a whole day together, and he played it after Jack brought me back after running away when he tried to kiss me.
"If these sheets were the states and you were miles away
I'd fold them end over end to bring you closer to me
Because I don't sleep at all without you pressed up against me
I settled for long distance calls I'm lost in empty pillow talk again"
Alex voice was perfect, in talking and singing. He looked at me while I chewed, and he looked confused. The worried eyes started at me like he needed help during he sang the bridge. I wanted to look away, and it felt like I would freak out too and just cry. My period was 1 and a half week away, so I would probably know if we were clear next time I met him. But after my starving it could be late too, so it was really hard to know.
I threw in another fork with food in my mouth, even though I wasn't hungry. When I swallowed it, it felt like everything would come up again, but that was the thing with eating disorders. Before the bullying, I had never a problem with eating, it was just that I had a tiny stomach and couldn't eat much. But now, I forced myself not to eat and threw up everything I ate. So this was hard, but it was just to eat, swallow, and let it stay in the stomach.
"What do you think?", someone far away said.
"What?", I looked up at the boys. Jack looked at me with asking eyes. "Oh, it was great.", I swallowed a little piece if bacon.
"It looked like you spaced out for a while.", he said.
"No, I didn't. I heard everything.", I lied, and giggled. "Just thinking some.", Jack sighed.
"Hey, tell me what the fuck is going on between you two. Alex, you can't really concentrate, and Wendy, you look really lost. It's not 'nothing', something is bothering you.", Jack knew us too well.
"I know we tell each other everything, but this time it isn't really your business.", I said, and glared a little.
"Are you pregnant or something?", Jack pulled his eyebrows together, and I sighed at him.
"What the fuck? No I'm not, not even close. Just let it go, please.", I lied, and we dropped the subject. "So what's next? More new songs?"
"No, we've been off with the songwriting lately.", he said. "Or, not we, it's only Alex who writes."
"Is this one on the new album?", I tried to smalltalk, but a picture of a baby who looked like me and Alex was stuck in my mind.
"No, but we have two songs about you.", Jack grinned at me.
"I know them!", Rian yelled. "And I'm not telling you."
"Fuck off, which?", my head turned from Rian to Alex.
"Time-bomb and Forget About It.", Zack hurried, and Alex blushed.
"Do I wanna hear them?", I was curious.
"No,", Alex said. "but I'm no Taylor Swift if you think so, I just expressed my feelings, but Time-bomb isn't that bad."
"You just ruined the whole album for me.", I grinned at them, and Jack stack out his tongue for me.
Right after the boys closed the door at 8pm Alex and I looked at each other.
"How can you be totally cool with this? You could have a little kid inside you right now!", Alex shouted, and I had no reason for not yelling back.
"We're not even sure! Just because we didn't use protection once, it doesn't mean that we're going to be parents!"
"'I'm close to my period', it makes me nuts to think that it is a possibility. Everything about this is making me so fucking crazy, and I'm scared as hell!", what the fuck was he even scared of?
"Tell me what you're so damn scared of then! Don't you like kids, or are you afraid of them, I don't know!"
"If I'm gonna be a father, I don't wanna be an absent one, and that means I have to give up the music and the band. And you're body is too fragile to carry someone inside you, and give birth.", his voice went lower at the last sentence. He came closer, laid a hand on my neck, and a thumb on my cheek. "Hasn't this been enough tough for you, and us? I almost lost you yesterday, and I can't stand the thought of might doing it again. The kid might not make it too, so please understand what I'm saying."
"I know, and I want to have you there all the time, and this is the wrong time. But remember, we don't know anything for sure, we're worrying too much about something that might isn't true. If I am pregnant, then I seriously don't know what to do.", I said, and tried to smile. "But, we shouldn't think about that now."
"You're right.", he mumbled. "It's to early to be worried, it was today it happened, so. Sorry for my overreacting."
"Don't apologize, I know how much the music means to you. You have every right to worry about the future, because you have a big one in front of you. Don't you dare let that go.", I smiled and him, and he pulled me into a hug.
"I hate when we fight.", he mumbled in my hair.
"They say that it brings people closer to each other.", I answered and I heard the most perfect man giggle.
"I think it's true."
So, I just read what you have of this story and its prequel, and I really like what you have of both. At first, it was a little rough getting into it; it seemed kind of rushed at first, especially with all of the drama of how they got together and then broke up in like a day when they first met, but I have to say, after the time passed and they got back together again, this story just really started getting good. Some of the grammar is a bit off, but as you continued the story I noticed your improvement and that's awesome; that means you have definitely progressed as you have continued writing this.
I'm sad it was never finished, though. One thing I found a bit odd was that you continued with this installment after giving the first one an epilogue, due to the fact that means we already know the ending for Wendy and Alex, but... I kind of like how you did that. I don't believe I've seen an author do that before, kind of go back and fill in the time in-between in the sequel.
And this story is seriously so cute. Alex and Wendy's love is seriously so genuine; again, while it was a bit rushed at first, as I got into the second half of the first installment and this sequel it was just, wow, I just love their relationship. It's been a while since I've seen such a connection between the two characters and I seriously enjoyed it.
And I also liked the fact that as I got to the end of what you have so far, that you made it realistic. Alex understands she's not ready for a baby and is ready to sacrifice that. This is actually the first time I've seen this in a story, where it's being both considered and followed through with, along with the fact that both characters are for the most part peaceful with the decision. Hell I'm even peaceful with the decision, which really surprises me, because every other story where this has happened, I haven't been. And that's really weird for me, so kudos for pulling that off and making it convincing, and not making it so heartbreaking. I mean it is still a heartbreaking thing, but it's more understood that it's the best decision. Although the two characters being fine with it probably is what makes me as a reader somewhat okay with it. I'm happy you took that route as opposed to creating severe conflict, which is what I typically see with this idea. It was a nice change.
And, wow, this is a long comment. To sum up, I think you're a great writer and I really hope you're still writing on your own time, at least. I'm sad this wasn't finished, but I wanted to leave a comment letting you know my thoughts and just how much I've genuinely liked what I've read so far. Seriously, great job. If you ever choose to continue someday, I will be here to read. This story is too good to let go. I think these two characters should have more of a conclusion in this installment. But I guess overall I should be happy, considering with the last installment, we know that they end up together. So at least that's been told.
But still, if you continue, I'm willing to read. :)
7/5/16