Three Musketeers

RECORDING.
We flew up to Pennsylvania, I stocked up. I got high. We started recording. Thats how every album starts off. Untill I saw him. We were 2 weeks into recording. I went outside for a smoke, I saw Charlie. Just standing there in his old beat up Rolling Stones hoodie. Smiling at me like nothing had happened. The Wind rustling his hair, he looked so happy. I rubbed my eyes thinking I was imagining things but when I opened them he was still there. I slowly walked towards him, he did the same like it was a mirror. I stretched my hand out, and cupped the side of his face, again he did the same. He titled his head and said
"Hey you"
I just stared in shock.
Charlie Died when he was 23. He OD'd at a his friends house. Heroin, I had no idea he was using that bad when were together. He used to do it before he met me then we fell in love and he said he stopped. I met him when I was 16, he was 19 and I had never been happier. When he died, apart of me died as well. He was Everything, He was my first for everything. My first love, My first time being with someone, The first boy I lived with, The First boy whoever met my parents, my brothers. He was mine. Alex watched me grow into the adult I am now. But here Charlie was there in front of me, touching my face, I could feel his touch, his warmth, I could smell his aftershave. I dropped my hand and walk fast back in side, when I turned back he was gone. I ran to the bathroom. I threw up and got all my coke and flushed it. I never wanted to see him again. Never again. Bad trip. When I looked up at the mirror. My eyes had teared up, I wiped away the tears, as doing this, I smelt my sleeve. His smell was there. I needed to sober up. I walked out to the lads.
"Hey, can we give another shot at unlucky 20?" I sounded upset I could tell.
"Yeah sure" the guys all shouted in unison
I walked into the booth. I belted out the song full of passion and emotion. What I was missing before. I walked out of the booth the guys just looked at me in shock.
"Where did that come from?" John asked me "It was amazing"
"I dunno it just came out of me, I gonna order food, do you want anything?" I asked everyone
"What you ordering? Chinese? Burgers? Fries? Pizza?" Andy asked me"
"Yeah"
We ordered over $100 worth of food and for once we all actually ate it. When I looked up for the table, there he was. Standing there just looking at me like he used to, eyes filled with love. I went outside for smoke again and he walked out with me...
"How are you here? I watch you die in the hospital. I buried you, I cried at your funeral"
"I'm here for you Jasey" He smiled and everything was better.
"But you died Charlie"I was crying now
"I don't know how I'm here but I am for you my love. I've missed you so much" He was crying now and pulled into a hug.
I took a deep breathe in and I could smell him. He was my Charlie. My Charlie was back. In my mind this is normal.
Another Two week of recording past. I had two weeks of my Charlie back. I thought maybe it was gonna end when I got home. I got home before Joel did. Charlie was there waiting for me.
"You made it baby, This house is amazing"
"Its a band house.... my fiancé lives here with me"
"Ohhh boyfriend" He winked "I know him?"
"Joel from all them years ago"
"ooo I remember, but is he as good as me?" He winked at me again, kissing my neck, with no time at all he had pushed me down on the bed. I just could help but be loud and came home half way through. I freaked thinking he would see Charlie but he didn't.
"couldn't wait to see me" He winked at me and came down and joined me.
Charlie just disappeared

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