Three Musketeers

Over the next 3 months Charlie kept repeating I'm here for you. Then all of sudden Alex got in an accident. Joel got in accident.
Joel started to get weird about Alex always coming over, About Alex and I hanging out. He got weird that I wasn't making any wedding plans. I got weird because I wasn't thinking about Alex in the ways I used to think about him but neither was I thinking about the wedding or about Joel in general. I just wasn't thinking. All I could think about was coke and music. Then one day when I was walking back to the bar from picking up Alex stopped me.
"Whats going on?"He asked me "You've been engaged for a while now and nothing. Its been nearly 2 years since we told each other loved each other"
"Alex please" I tried to push back
"NO" He yelled at me. He never yells "No, no you won't walk away this time. You do this every time shit get serious with us. you walk away. I need you right now to talk to me. Because I'm confused, I don't think if you wanna get married. I don't think you want to be with Joel. I think I know who you wanna be with" Tears rolling down his face, the rain made everything seem so much more dramatic.
I stood there soaked through and itching feeling to leave and do a line. It would make me feel better and when I'm high the Charlie thing was less odd to me. "Alex please over the last year I have done my best to not think about you or us or you with me" I started off "BUT WHERE WERE YOU, WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL? WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I WAS CRYING AT 6AM ON A DETOX BECAUSE I MISS MY BROTHER. WHERE YOU AT THE FUNERAL?" I shouted at him. "Alex I have been doing my best to not think about you. Because I have Joel and Joel is great. Joel knows me. He remembers small things I do, the little things about me and loves me and I love him. But I just cant let go of you . Because In my world you're forever gonna be my Alex and no one will ever good enough for my Alex because he deserves the world and more" I stopped and looked up at him. "Alex I'm in love with you and for the last year I pushed you to the back of mind. I'm in love with you and I've always been in love with you. The only time I've ever not been in love with was Charlie. And look what happened there." In the corner of my eye I could see Charlie tearing up "Do you see what happens when I follow my feelings? I get hurt to point where I think theres no return"
"Im In love with you too, I've always been in love with you. I was in love with you when you were with Charlie and I'm in love with you now even with Joel. I wont let you become the person you're scared of becoming. I won't let you. I won't hurt you. I'm sorry I wasn't there I was hurt but I'm here now and I'll be here forever more" He Pulled me in for a kiss
"I'm scared that you're not gonna want me when Im single"
"I'll always want you" We kissed again.
"Ok Ok I'll tell him tonight"We stayed in a hug for a while. Then I pulled away and walked home instead of back to the bar, I walked up to my room and Joel was sitting in bed watching tv, I stood in the doorway I swallowed my pride "I need to talk to you"

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