Rebecca’s POV

I walk into Jacks living room and sit down on the sofa, Alex sitting on the sofa opposite me. You can tell just by looking at him that he’s hangover. His eyes are bloodshot and have bags underneath. I sigh as I try to think of what to say, the silent tension building in the room becomes unbearable. I feel tired as well. I had a terrible night’s sleep, I felt restless in Jack’s arms, and I couldn’t sleep knowing where Alex was…thinking about what Alex was doing. I cried silently for most of the night, being careful not to wake Jack. My heart ached; I could admit now that I loved Alex, there was no hiding it.

I was stupid to not admit it before. I glance back up at Alex, noticing a depressed look plastered all over his face, he looks tired and upset. I see no reason for him to be upset, he doesn’t have to pretend to care for me now.

“Listen, before you speak, let me just say, I understand.” I say running a hand through my hair.

“You what?” asks Alex confused.

“I understand why you did it, agreed to go out with me then decided against it.” I mumble back.

“Rebecca I didn’t -”

“No Alex, its fine I understand, you only asked me out cause you felt sorry for me, cause you saw what I did to myself, and then you decided you didn’t want to go through with it, didn’t want to be tied down.” I reply shrugging him off.

“No Rebecca, trust me it was never anything like that.” Alex explains a look of worry on his face. I shake my head not wanting to hear it. “Is this about what happened with Kendra because I tell you nothing happened.” He mumbles getting upset.

“No I know nothing happened, and I apologise for not listening to you over that.” I reply.

“Then what is it? Why wont you listen to me. Do you not want me? Am I not good enough?” He questions

“Alex please don’t be stupid, I just know you don’t want me and that’s it, I’m not in the mood for pretending and you feeling sorry for me.” I explain tired.

“What do you mean?” Alex questions.

“I know you only asked me out cause you felt sorry for me, I know you didn’t want me. I saw you last night. I saw you with that girl.” I mumble, my voice cracking up at the end.

“Rebecca nothing happened. I did not sleep with that girl, I couldn’t do it. And I wouldn’t cause I don’t want her, I want you to listen to me because I want you.” He replies

“Alex just listen for a second-” I mumble.

“No Rebecca you listen! I didn’t ask you out because I felt sorry for you. I asked you out because I
have wanted to be with you since the first day I saw you. When I saw you walking down that corridor I knew you were different from all those whores, you was just so naturally beautiful that all I wanted to do was get to know you…and then I did! I realised how wonderful your personality was as well. I realised how much of a truly kind amazing girl you are and how much I wanted you to be my own. I didn’t blow you off, I was protecting you, Kendra said if I didn’t go to her, she would tell everyone about your self-harming, I was protecting you. I didn’t ask you out because I felt sorry for you, I asked you out because I…I…I fell for you Rebecca” Alex explains.

“What are you trying to say Alex?” I ask my breathing hitching up a step.

“I love you Rebecca.”

Notes

omg.....He finally admitted it!!!!

Okay first I am sorry for the long overdue chapter, but sadly it might be like this for a bit, got some shit going on and also got all my GCSE exams coming up which I am in no way ready for, so I will try and update when I can.

I am also sorry it is a short chapter but with him admitting his feelings I didn't want the chapter to be cramped or too choco-block.

Also if any spell check problems or grammar problems I occur, not really one for proof reading so yeah x_x

Anywho hoped you enjoyed the chapter...please let me know what you think :)