Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye
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Rebecca’s POV
I kissed him! Here I was shouting at him telling him all my secrets, then he tells me his, then I kissed him?! Why did I do that? I couldn’t believe what he had told me, he lost his brother but I would never have guessed he did. He always seemed so confident, so happy. But in that moment he told me I saw it; the sadness, the regret, the heartbreak. He knew what it was like to lose someone, but he also knew what it was like to blame yourself.
I don’t know what it was that made me do it, I just had to kiss him, it was the only way I could think of to take away the pain and I needed to take the pain away. As soon as our lips meet I feel a surge of electricity, and butterflies in the pit of my stomach. I go to pull away but then Alex starts to kiss back, his lips moving in time to mine, slowly I feel him pull me close to his chest, his arms wrapping tighter around mine. I can’t help but notice how soft, yet firm his lips are. My heart beats fast, starting to make it difficult for me to breathe.
After what seems like an eternity, we pull away from each other. Silence feels the room, neither of us knowing what to say. What was I thinking; I was an idiot, thinking he would enjoy that. Through that kiss I just admitted all my feelings, just to be basically silently turned down. I pull out of his arms standing up, I am a freak, he would never want a girl like me.
“Beccs…” he says standing up. I don’t answer him and stand at the window, staring out, wishing to take back my action.
“Rebecca?” he asks again moving closer. I feel him place a hand on my shoulder, to which I instantly shake off as tears start to fill my eyes.
“What Alex?” I ask wishing for my voice to not crack and show emotion.
“Look at me.” He replies taking hold of my arm gently. I shake my head wishing to not look at him, but feel him start to tug on my arm. I swallow my pride and slowly turn round to face him. Immediately he sees my tear filled eyes and cups my face with his hands.
“Beccs whats wrong?” he asks worry filling his eyes.
“I was an idiot to kiss you; I should have known you wouldn’t want it. I mean we are bestfriends for Christ sake and just look at me, why would someone like you ever want a fucking mess like me.” I reply looking away again. I close my eyes, expecting him to walk away, or even laugh at me, but I don’t expect him to kiss me.
Quickly he pulls me close into his arms before swiftly placing his soft delicate lips on mine, straight away I kiss back, our lips making a perfect mould. The butterflies immediately make a reappearance in my stomach, causing a smile to escape onto my lips. This kiss is different to the one before, before it was soft, delicate, both of us scared to break the other, but this one is passionate, both of us trying to communicate to the other our feelings through the kiss. I feel his arms slowly wrap round, his hands resting in the curve of my back as my arms go to wrap round his neck. In this moment I feel safe, I feel whole again, in this moment nothing can hurt me.
Sadly too soon the kiss comes to an end. We pull away and I look up at Alex, a huge grin plastered over his lips.
“Do you know how long I have wanted to do that since the day I met you?” he asks brushing a strand of hair out of my face causing my heart to flutter. Easy Rebecca.
I shake my head and blush slightly. “I could say the same myself.” I reply smiling.
“You are none of the things you said you are Rebecca, the only thing you are correct about is I am your bestfriend, but I am the bestfriend whose fallen for you.” He mumbles looking into my eyes. I scrunch my nose, confused to what he means.
“What do you mean Alex?” I ask confused.
“Rebecca, you are so fucking perfect but so fucking blind that you don’t see it, you only ever see the flaws, or other problems you make up in your mind. Rebecca you are so bloody perfect, you’re beautiful, sweet, kind, amazing, pretty and adorable. You have this attraction about you that makes anyone near you want to talk to you. You have this effect on me, an effect I cant explain but I don’t want to stop, you cause me to have butterflies in my stomach…me! The schools biggest manwhore, all I’m trying to say is you are so fucking amazing and should never think of yourself like that.” He explains, his gaze never leaving mine.
I feel my heart swell through his speech, tears pooling into my eyes. He really thought of me this way?
“That is the sweetest thing a person has ever said to me.” I mumble as tears start to spill out of my eyes.
“Then why are you crying silly?” Alex asks wiping my tears away from my eyes.
“Because for once; I’m happy.” I reply smiling up at him.
“Good I want you happy.” He replies smiling. I smile back, a soft blush creeping onto my face.
“Now I guess there’s only one thing left to ask.” He continues; his voice laced with nerves.
“What’s that then?” I ask.
“Rebecca Thomas, will you go on a date with me?”
I kissed him! Here I was shouting at him telling him all my secrets, then he tells me his, then I kissed him?! Why did I do that? I couldn’t believe what he had told me, he lost his brother but I would never have guessed he did. He always seemed so confident, so happy. But in that moment he told me I saw it; the sadness, the regret, the heartbreak. He knew what it was like to lose someone, but he also knew what it was like to blame yourself.
I don’t know what it was that made me do it, I just had to kiss him, it was the only way I could think of to take away the pain and I needed to take the pain away. As soon as our lips meet I feel a surge of electricity, and butterflies in the pit of my stomach. I go to pull away but then Alex starts to kiss back, his lips moving in time to mine, slowly I feel him pull me close to his chest, his arms wrapping tighter around mine. I can’t help but notice how soft, yet firm his lips are. My heart beats fast, starting to make it difficult for me to breathe.
After what seems like an eternity, we pull away from each other. Silence feels the room, neither of us knowing what to say. What was I thinking; I was an idiot, thinking he would enjoy that. Through that kiss I just admitted all my feelings, just to be basically silently turned down. I pull out of his arms standing up, I am a freak, he would never want a girl like me.
“Beccs…” he says standing up. I don’t answer him and stand at the window, staring out, wishing to take back my action.
“Rebecca?” he asks again moving closer. I feel him place a hand on my shoulder, to which I instantly shake off as tears start to fill my eyes.
“What Alex?” I ask wishing for my voice to not crack and show emotion.
“Look at me.” He replies taking hold of my arm gently. I shake my head wishing to not look at him, but feel him start to tug on my arm. I swallow my pride and slowly turn round to face him. Immediately he sees my tear filled eyes and cups my face with his hands.
“Beccs whats wrong?” he asks worry filling his eyes.
“I was an idiot to kiss you; I should have known you wouldn’t want it. I mean we are bestfriends for Christ sake and just look at me, why would someone like you ever want a fucking mess like me.” I reply looking away again. I close my eyes, expecting him to walk away, or even laugh at me, but I don’t expect him to kiss me.
Quickly he pulls me close into his arms before swiftly placing his soft delicate lips on mine, straight away I kiss back, our lips making a perfect mould. The butterflies immediately make a reappearance in my stomach, causing a smile to escape onto my lips. This kiss is different to the one before, before it was soft, delicate, both of us scared to break the other, but this one is passionate, both of us trying to communicate to the other our feelings through the kiss. I feel his arms slowly wrap round, his hands resting in the curve of my back as my arms go to wrap round his neck. In this moment I feel safe, I feel whole again, in this moment nothing can hurt me.
Sadly too soon the kiss comes to an end. We pull away and I look up at Alex, a huge grin plastered over his lips.
“Do you know how long I have wanted to do that since the day I met you?” he asks brushing a strand of hair out of my face causing my heart to flutter. Easy Rebecca.
I shake my head and blush slightly. “I could say the same myself.” I reply smiling.
“You are none of the things you said you are Rebecca, the only thing you are correct about is I am your bestfriend, but I am the bestfriend whose fallen for you.” He mumbles looking into my eyes. I scrunch my nose, confused to what he means.
“What do you mean Alex?” I ask confused.
“Rebecca, you are so fucking perfect but so fucking blind that you don’t see it, you only ever see the flaws, or other problems you make up in your mind. Rebecca you are so bloody perfect, you’re beautiful, sweet, kind, amazing, pretty and adorable. You have this attraction about you that makes anyone near you want to talk to you. You have this effect on me, an effect I cant explain but I don’t want to stop, you cause me to have butterflies in my stomach…me! The schools biggest manwhore, all I’m trying to say is you are so fucking amazing and should never think of yourself like that.” He explains, his gaze never leaving mine.
I feel my heart swell through his speech, tears pooling into my eyes. He really thought of me this way?
“That is the sweetest thing a person has ever said to me.” I mumble as tears start to spill out of my eyes.
“Then why are you crying silly?” Alex asks wiping my tears away from my eyes.
“Because for once; I’m happy.” I reply smiling up at him.
“Good I want you happy.” He replies smiling. I smile back, a soft blush creeping onto my face.
“Now I guess there’s only one thing left to ask.” He continues; his voice laced with nerves.
“What’s that then?” I ask.
“Rebecca Thomas, will you go on a date with me?”
Notes
You want kissing and happiness! I give you kissing and happiness but don't hate me cause the happiness will not be lasting for long! I just needed a little break before the drama starts up again!However I'm not sure....if it works...please let me know what you think!
If you want another chapter then I need another comment :P
11/10/13