Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye
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Alex’s POV
“For killing my father.” She mutters, silent tears running down her face. What the fuck did she just say? Did she just say she killed her father? What the fuck is going on. I pull away a little so I can look her in the eyes.
“W-what did you just say?” I question confused.
“My father is dead Alex and I am the reason he is dead.” She replies tearfully.
“What happened?” I ask brushing a strand of her hair out of her face.
“I don’t wanna talk about it” she says pushing me away and trying to stand up on her own. I don’t know why but anger builds up in me, no shes not pushing me away no more, for once she will tell me the truth.
“Yes we are gonna talk about it.” I reply pulling her back and making her look at me. “Tell me now.” I continue, my voice filled with annoyance and anger. Rebecca must have noticed cause she starts to angry herself.
“and why the fuck should I?” She questions, forcefully pushing me away. “You can’t tell me what to fucking do you dick!” she shouts standing up. I sigh calming down straight away, a fight isn’t exactly what we need right now.
“Look Rebecca calm down I didn’t mean it that way.” I reply standing up and walking over to her.
“No! I know what you meant okay Alex.” She screams angrily. “You wanna know what happened; here.” She lifts up her shirt and pulls back her bandage showing a giant surgery like scar. I stare at her open mouthed not knowing what to say.
“My father died because of me! That’s what happened. When he was a boy he got kidney cancer and had one of his kidneys taken away, luckily he got better and survived, fast forward a couple of years he’s in a car crash and damages his other kidney!” she screams stepping close to me. “So he needs a kidney quickly otherwise he is going to die, what happens me and my brother get tested and I turn out to be a match, my mother asks me and I’m stupid enough to agree.” She continues on, tears starting to pour out of her eyes again, all I wanna do is wrap my arms round her but I let her continue “What happens, oh yeah, his body rejects the kidney and he dies, I killed my own fucking father…WHILE TRYING TO HELP HIM. THAT’S RIGHT I KILLED MY OWN FUCKING FATHER!!” She yells before collapsing on the floor in tears, struggling to breathe. I quickly jump down to her engulfing her in a hug and just let her cry.
I sit there shocked by what I had just heard, we sit there for ages, her crying into my shirt, my shirt drenched with tears. Me stroking her hair and whispering comforting words into her ear. I can’t help but wonder how Rebecca had been dealing with this for so long…and the fact
she thought it was her fault.
“Shhh” I mutter when she tries to talk again.
“I’m sorry for snapping at you Alex.” She mumbles quietly and sadly. I shake my head and mumble ‘Don’t be sorry’ into her ear before saying “It wasn’t your fault.”
“But it was Alex.” She mumbles looking up at me. I have to tell her.
“Rebecca, there’s something you should know…when I first moved out here when I was 12….I had a brother.” I mumble staring off into the distance. She looks up at me guestering to go on. “he didn’t like it here, he wanted to go back to England, he started to change, he would drink a lot…and in the end it led to him changing…” I mumble quietly.
“What happ-“ she starts to ask.
“He killed himself.” I mumble quickly, wanting to skip over that part. “It was my fault, I flipped on him one night, tired of him trying to always take mum and dads attention, I said some things I’m not proud of and he killed himself.” I mutter while crying silently. I look down finally seeing that Rebecca is watching me. Slowly she takes hold of my hand, she mutters something that sounds like no more pain before leaning in and kissing me softly.
It takes me a couple of seconds to realise we are kissing, her lips are so soft and taste like strawberries, they are perfect. Throughout the kiss I have a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach that I was not use to…butterflies. The moment was perfect and I didn’t want it to end….
It was in this moment I realised I was in love with my bestfriend.
“For killing my father.” She mutters, silent tears running down her face. What the fuck did she just say? Did she just say she killed her father? What the fuck is going on. I pull away a little so I can look her in the eyes.
“W-what did you just say?” I question confused.
“My father is dead Alex and I am the reason he is dead.” She replies tearfully.
“What happened?” I ask brushing a strand of her hair out of her face.
“I don’t wanna talk about it” she says pushing me away and trying to stand up on her own. I don’t know why but anger builds up in me, no shes not pushing me away no more, for once she will tell me the truth.
“Yes we are gonna talk about it.” I reply pulling her back and making her look at me. “Tell me now.” I continue, my voice filled with annoyance and anger. Rebecca must have noticed cause she starts to angry herself.
“and why the fuck should I?” She questions, forcefully pushing me away. “You can’t tell me what to fucking do you dick!” she shouts standing up. I sigh calming down straight away, a fight isn’t exactly what we need right now.
“Look Rebecca calm down I didn’t mean it that way.” I reply standing up and walking over to her.
“No! I know what you meant okay Alex.” She screams angrily. “You wanna know what happened; here.” She lifts up her shirt and pulls back her bandage showing a giant surgery like scar. I stare at her open mouthed not knowing what to say.
“My father died because of me! That’s what happened. When he was a boy he got kidney cancer and had one of his kidneys taken away, luckily he got better and survived, fast forward a couple of years he’s in a car crash and damages his other kidney!” she screams stepping close to me. “So he needs a kidney quickly otherwise he is going to die, what happens me and my brother get tested and I turn out to be a match, my mother asks me and I’m stupid enough to agree.” She continues on, tears starting to pour out of her eyes again, all I wanna do is wrap my arms round her but I let her continue “What happens, oh yeah, his body rejects the kidney and he dies, I killed my own fucking father…WHILE TRYING TO HELP HIM. THAT’S RIGHT I KILLED MY OWN FUCKING FATHER!!” She yells before collapsing on the floor in tears, struggling to breathe. I quickly jump down to her engulfing her in a hug and just let her cry.
I sit there shocked by what I had just heard, we sit there for ages, her crying into my shirt, my shirt drenched with tears. Me stroking her hair and whispering comforting words into her ear. I can’t help but wonder how Rebecca had been dealing with this for so long…and the fact
she thought it was her fault.
“Shhh” I mutter when she tries to talk again.
“I’m sorry for snapping at you Alex.” She mumbles quietly and sadly. I shake my head and mumble ‘Don’t be sorry’ into her ear before saying “It wasn’t your fault.”
“But it was Alex.” She mumbles looking up at me. I have to tell her.
“Rebecca, there’s something you should know…when I first moved out here when I was 12….I had a brother.” I mumble staring off into the distance. She looks up at me guestering to go on. “he didn’t like it here, he wanted to go back to England, he started to change, he would drink a lot…and in the end it led to him changing…” I mumble quietly.
“What happ-“ she starts to ask.
“He killed himself.” I mumble quickly, wanting to skip over that part. “It was my fault, I flipped on him one night, tired of him trying to always take mum and dads attention, I said some things I’m not proud of and he killed himself.” I mutter while crying silently. I look down finally seeing that Rebecca is watching me. Slowly she takes hold of my hand, she mutters something that sounds like no more pain before leaning in and kissing me softly.
It takes me a couple of seconds to realise we are kissing, her lips are so soft and taste like strawberries, they are perfect. Throughout the kiss I have a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach that I was not use to…butterflies. The moment was perfect and I didn’t want it to end….
It was in this moment I realised I was in love with my bestfriend.
Notes
Okay I finally got them to kiss! ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?!?!?!?!Teheh I am only joking, I hope you lot like this chapter, I didn't want to focus on Alex's brother for too long because its his place to think about, not ours. I'm sorry if this chapter affects anyone.
Please let me know your thoughts :)
11/10/13