It's been a month since warped started and for the most part it's been good. I'm currently cleaning up the BMTH booth. I'm just dressed in some regular clothes. I'm putting up the foam fingers and all the sweat shirts. "You don't have to help me." I said to Matt F. standing next to me. "I know but I like your company you like mine, plus we work well together." He said grabbing another box. "Thanks." I saw Matt N. walk by.

"Matt!" He turned and smiled at me, but it was awkward. "Have you seen Oli, I haven't been able to find him all day." "Nope, sorry haven't seen him." He turned and walked away. Flyzik looked at me. "Why was he acting so weird?" "I have no idea...all the guys have been like that for like the last 2 weeks." I put up another box.

"Matt, you mind if I go see if he's on the bus?" I asked him. "Nah, go ahead. I'll finish and lock up the trailer and give you back your keys." I gave him a hug "Thanks." I headed over to my bus. I walked past a few people saying hi and giving a couple hugs. I passed Jordan. "Hey! Paige! Where you going?!" He asked running up and pulling me from the door handle. "I'm trying to find Oli..." I said giving him a questioning look.

I reached for the door again. "I... Uhh... You don't wanna go on there..." "Why?" I asked. "I...Uhh... I can't tell you." "Alright, well I'm gonna go on then." I pushed past him and onto the bus. I didn't see anything out of the ordinary. I walked to Oli's bunk and pulled back the curtain, nothing. I opened the door to the back lounge and how was I welcomed.

"Oli?!" I said. He stopped plowing into the tiny brunette. "Tay?! Are you fucking kidding me?!" I yelled. Tay grabbed her clothes and started to put them on. Oli just stood there. I walked towards him and punched him really hard in the chest. "God Damn it! Why didn't you just say you didn't want me anymore?! Why drag me the Fuck on?!" I yelled throwing a pillow at the naked man.

Tay walked out of the lounge. "Damn it Oli! You had all the guys lie to me!? Is that why they've been so weird?! I thought of all people you would never hurt me... Guess I was wrong-" "Paige, let me explain-" "Explain what, Oli!? You said you loved me! I thought I might have loved you but... AAGGHH!" I yelled gripping at my hair and grabbing random clothing out of my suit case.

I walked tot he front of the bus. "Paige, Don't leave-" "Put some fucking clothes on... Go chase Tay... I'm out of here... I'm gonna continue working the booth. I don't wanna see you tomorrow, Got me? And I'm not gonna tell the guys... I wouldn't want them to kill my once best friend." I said and slammed the bus door. I punched and kicked the side of the bus. I started to cry.

I hate tears, They make me feel weak. I hate being broken. "Paige... I'm sorry we didn't tell you... we just thought it wasn't any of our business-" "No Lee! It was... I m-may not have known you as long as Oli b-but at the same time, you g-guys were my family... I-I trusted you." I stuttered. He tried to give me a hug, I backed away. I ran off towards the trailer.

I sat on a curb right next to it and cried, that's all I wanted to do right now. Now I remember why I don't let people in, it hurts so much. I was starting to wheeze. I bunched the material of my shirt, laying over my chest. I had my eyes shut so tight. I've been closed off for so long that this almost felt like the first time all over again. "Paige?" I heard Flyzik say.

I opened my eyes. "What's wrong?" He asked walking closer. He sat next to me on the curb. I leaned into him and he wrapped his arms around my body. "He c-cheated on me..." I said. "Oh Paige, I'm so sorry." "All the guys knew and d-didn't tell me." "No one deserves that." "Please don't tell anyone?" I asked looking up at him. "Ok."

"Will you take me back to your bus? I just wanna curl up with Zack, like Senior year all over again." "Sure, come on." He helped stand me up my legs felt like jello. I leaned into him as we walked. We got to the ATL bus and opened the door. "Matt your bac-" Rian stopped himself. "What happened to your hand?" He asked me. I picked up my right hand, and sure enough my knuckles were bruised and bloody.

"I punched our bus... a couple times..." I said. Matt set me down on the couch. "Let me get you something so I can clean that." "Ok..." I said biting on my bottom lip. "What happened?" Rian asked. "What are you talking about Rian... Paige?! What happened... are you ok?!" Jack said running up to me pulling my hand in his carefully. "I'm ok... I punched my bus, a few times..." "Why?" He asked as Matt returned with some gauze, and ace bandage and hydrogen peroxide.

"Nothing... I just..." I didn't know what to say. That when Alex and Zack came out of the back lounge. "Oh shit what happened?!" Zack asked sitting next to me on the couch. I leaned into him and started to cry again, he ran his hand through my hair. "I-I'm ok... I just need some t-time..." I said. "Yeah but what happened?" Alex asked. "Nothing OK?" I said.

"Is it alright if I stay here tonight?" I asked. "Of coarse." Alex said. I got up and took the clothes I brought over into the bathroom. I stripped down and slipped on some new under ear and some shorts. "You've got to be kidding me?" I said realizing I forgot a shirt. I covered my chest and opened the door and stepped out.

"Hey, can I borrow a shirt...I forgot one..." I said. Alex and Jack just stared at me. "For fucks sake." Zack said motioning towards the boys while standing up and grabbing a shirt from his bag. He handed it to me and I slipped it over my head. "Thanks." I said and sat on the other couch. I pulled my knees up to my chest and laid my head atop my knees, shutting my eyes as tight as I could.

Why did I let him in? Why did I think it would be any different? What's wrong with me, to make him think it was... I don't know. I wanted to go back to all my old habits, I found refuge in them before why couldn't I now? I lifted my head a little and ran my right hands fingers across the scars that littered my left wrist, not to say they weren't other places too, but my left wrist being the worst.

"Paige-" Jack started. I threw my arm behind me and hid my face again. "I wont, I promise." I said quickly, Jack took initiative and I felt to couch dip as he sat next to me. "That wasn't what I was gonna say-" "I know but that's what you were wondering." I said lifting my head showing I had a few tears running down my face. "Paige, whatever happened to you I want you to know you can tell us." Jack said pulling me into a hug. "Especially me." He whispered into my ear.

I missed hid smell so much. I had my eyes closed getting lost in his kind words, Jack was always so nice to me even when he met me that first day. That was that was the same day I met Alex and the first time we ever kissed.

*FLASH BACK*

I took a few steps into the school already hating having to move to America. I loved Australia, and I hate the cold. I walked into the office. "Excuse me?" I said to the tall older woman behind the counter. "Yes, how may I help you?" She said giving me a smile. "I'm new and I need a schedule." "Alright, let me print that out and I'll get someone to show you around."

I turned and sat on a chair while she walked out and came back with a sheet of paper and a tall kid with a blonde streak in his hair. "Alright Ms.Colegrove, This is Jack." She pointed towards the boy, he just waved and smiled. She handed me the paper and I looked at it and walked out of the room. "So what your name?" He asked. I looked up at him. "Paige."

"Wow, your accent is incredible." "Thanks, it will probably fade. That's what happened to my mom's when she moved to Aus." "Here give me that." Jack said taking the paper from my hands. "Ok." "What a coincidence. We have the same first period, which is actually funny. I was skipping that class when Mrs.Dee found me." "Ok..." "Come on we're going outside, you're gonna skip with me." Jack pulled me outside the building to a courtyard.

"I don't think I shou-" "Nonsense! We'll have fun. I always skip this class." I smiled, he seamed a lot like me. I always got caught skipping. "I guess." We walked over to a wall and sat down with our backs against it. "So do you like it here in Baltimore?" Jack asked. "Well, no... It's fucking cold, I miss the beach, and and all the danger around every turn. Constantly having to watch your step cause you may get bit by some deadly poisonous snake or something."

"That's cool. Have you ever been bitten?" He asked. "Yeah, I got bit by and Desert Death Adder, which they thought was weird because they normally don't bite unless provoked. Most of the cases when people are bit they don't survive cause they have huge fangs, and a shit load of venom." "Where did you get bit?" I pulled up my sleeve on my left wrist and right on the side of my wrist is where I was bit. "Wow. Those are huge marks."

"Yeah, I was little too. I was like 8." We heard someone running around the corner. "Jack! Thank god! Look a girl! You mind if I borrow you for a sec?!" And before I could say or do anything, the boy sat next to me, pulled me into his lap and started to make-out with me. I tangled my fingers in his hair and his hands were rested on my hips, pulling me in closer. I got into it after a sec, till I heard a girl. "ALEX!" She yelled. I looked over at her.

"Oh hey, Emily." He said. I turned wide eyed and looked at the kid I was just tongue tied with. "And who is this Alex?" She asked placing both her hands on her hips, clicking her god awful high heels. "I...uhh-" I decided to save the kid. "I'm Paige, nice to meet you." I said. She gave me a glare and stormed off. "Great another chick stuck on Gaskarth." She yelled.

I slid off Alex's lap and turned to Jack. "I've also been bitten by a kangaroo, my aunt and uncle owns a zoo." "Wait, you just move on from that heated make out?" The kid asked. I turned to him. "Yeah, I had a conversation going on with Jack and you came over and ripped my tongue out of my mouth." He just stared. "Hello?" I said. "Sorry, I got lost in your accent. I'm Alex-" "He's my best friend." Jack added in.

I shivered a little, pulling my knees towards my chest. "You cold?" Jack asked with a laugh. "Fuck yeah! It's never the cold in Aus." "Here." Alex pulled a sweat shirt out of his bag. "You can borrow this." I slid it on over my head. It smelled fantastic. The bell rang and Jack and I stood up. "Where to next?" I asked Jack. He took out my schedule.

"You have Anatomy next-" "With Mrs.Majors?" Alex asked. "Yep." "Cool, we have the same class. I'll take you." Alex pulled the piece of paper out of Jack hand and dragged me behind him. I pulled away and ran over and gave Jack a hug, I turned back and ran back up towards Alex. "She's gonna tell everyone about our kiss." Alex said leaning over towards me.

"That's ok, I can handle fake ass bitch very well." He laughed, he had an amazing smile. "I've never met anyone like you." "Yeah, I'm a one of a kind. My mother tells me to stop cursing but I like my potty mouth. It makes me seem... skanky but in no way am I a skank." He laughed a little. "Well you did just make out with a complete stranger." "You made me." I said poking his side. "And I would do it again. Your an amazing kisser."

I blushed a little. "Thanks, your not bad yourself." He smiled at me and I returned it. "So, what are you doing after school?" He asked. "I don't know, I'll probably just play a little guitar, and at an insane time this morning crawl out my window and walk around...Or you know take a shower." "Alright. You play the guitar. That's cool you should come meet some other friends of mine and Jack's, we're starting a band." "That's so cool."

"I take it you haven't known anyone to start a band." He said. "Nope." "Ever dated anyone in a band?" "Nope." I said again. "Good to know." We walked into Anatomy and sat down, I sat next to Alex.

*END OF FLASH BACK*

I wiped the tears off my face and pushed myself from Jack. "I walked in on Oli and Tay..." "That son of a bitch! I'm gonna kill him-" "Please sit down Jack?" I said quietly. He did as I asked and sat back down. "It just reminded me of how I shouldn't trust people and of all myself." Alex stood up and walked to the bus door. "Alex don't. I said I wasn't gonna tell you guys-" "Why he hurt you and that's not fair."

"I know but he helped me after I left... and he is still one of my best friends... for a long time he was the only one who cared about me. He was the reason I got clean the second time, and the reason I didn't die 2 almost 3 years ago." He shut the door and turned to look at me. By this time everyone is looking at me. "You tried to kill yourself while you were over there?" Alex asked sounding hurt.

"Yeah, It all got to me and I couldn't handle it. My eating disorder, The drugs, my cutting problem. I couldn't trust anyone let alone myself, nor did I want a second chance. He wrote Sleep Walking for me. I asked for a reason to start again and he said him, that he would be my reason to start again. So I got clean, quit cold turkey. It was hard at first but I got over that."

I looked at them. I wiped my eyes again. "I relapsed once but he pulled me back, I was tired of self mutilation so I got these tattoos to cover up, but I can still see." "Part of your tattoos are All Time Low themed." Alex said. "Yeah, you guys were such a big part of my life. I couldn't just forget, Just like I can't forget him. It'll hurt for a while but I'll just board myself off again and get over it." I laughed a little.

"Why are you laughing?" Zack asked. "Cause not only did he cheat but all of them kept it a secret. It's been going on about 2 weeks." I had a smiled across my face and wiped my eyes. "That's horrible. Why would someone cheat on you?" Rian asked. My eyes went towards Alex who was sitting on the couch, he shrunk further down in the seat. "I don't know, I thought they loved me." "Wait They?" Zack asked.

"Yeah this is not the first time someones cheated on her." Jack added in. "It's ok though. It's made the hard bitch you see today, I got over it. My heart grew a little colder but still beats." I stood up. "Zack can I sleep in your bunk with you?" "Sure, I'm going to bed too." He said standing up. "Night guys, thanks for listening to me blabber." I said walking back to Zack's bunk.

I crawled in and looked at my hands. I can't believe he never told them. I can't believe Jack never told them. I can't believe they never knew. Zack crawled in and pulled me to his chest. "I missed this so much Zack." He smiled. "Me too. Watching the Princess Bride and eating chinese." I smiled and started to drift off. "Love you, Zack." "Love you, too."

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