Mistakes
"He was my first love, but not my first time."
I boarded the plane. I had all three seats to myself. I had no clothes or anything. I boarded and it went by fast. I was thinking about the people at the wedding wondering why I did that. Alex was my first love, I'm sure if he would have told me all those years ago I would have never left him. I love Jack...Right? I pulled my knees up and wrapped my arms around them. I buried my hand in the top of my knees and cried. I tried to stop but they wouldn't. I don't know what to do anymore. I thought I knew what I wanted for so long but I have conflicting emotions. I was to rapped up in my mind to notice a woman sit next to me.
"Excuse me?" I lifted my head. "Sorry I'll try to be quieter." "No thats not why I came over. I came over because you need someone to talk to and I'm here for you. A new point of view and I wont judge cause I don't know you." "I'm not so sur-" "Come on. You need it." She had a point. Maybe she could help. "I ran out on my wedding..." "Alright...Why?" "Cause my best friend proposed to me in the middle of my wedding..." "That's strange." "Yeah. I dated Alex for years but he broke up with me cause he was afraid to fall in love with me but as he just told me he already had by that point." "I see. How did you feel about this?" "I mean Jack had always been there and he was there when Alex broke up with me and he has helped me threw out all my problems. I love Jack but I always have loved Alex. He was my first love." "Was he your first time?" "No. Jack was and it was amazing..."
I walked into my bedroom and went into my bathroom. I slipped off my clothes and turned on the shower. I stepped in and washed my body. I shaved my legs. I picked up the blade I left in the shower cause no one would look there for one. I held it between my index and thumb. I gripped it tighter and slid it across my wrist. I tilted my head back and let the water wash the blood off my arm. I did two on my left wrist. I did them for my parents. They didn't deserve to die, I did. I stepped out of the shower. I dried off my hair with the towel. I pulled on my new underwear and a cami. I wrapped a little ace bandage around my wrist. I put the necklace my dad got me on and walked out of my bathroom. I sat on the side of my bed and laid back with my feet dangling off. I heard something at my window. I sat up and it happened again. I walked over and opened my window.
I opened it and looked out. "Jack? What are you doing here?" I asked him. "I wanted to see my girlfriend...is that a bad thing?" I rolled my eyes and closed the window. I walked out of my room and down the stairs. I opened the door and closed it behind me. I walked around to the side of the house. I saw Jack. He was still throwing stuff at my window. I walked around the corner and wrapped my arms around his waist. "Shit...Paige. I almost killed you. You scared the shit out me." "Sorry babe." I said and kissed his shoulder blade. He turned me around and pulled me in front of him.
"Why are you naked? And why am I not involved?" He asked. "Well I just got out of the shower and you could be if you wanted." I grabbed his hand and pulled him to the front of the house. I opened the door and pulled him upstairs. I pushed him in and closed my door. I turned around only to be pushed against the door. Jack kissed me with a hungry passion. He trailed kisses down my neck. He found a spot that made my knees weak. He sucked on it. My breath was hitching. I pulled his mouth up to meet mine and I flipped him around and trailed kisses down his neck. I found a spot and nibbled at it. He moaned out and I smiled against his skin.
I took my hands and grabbed the front of his skinny jeans and undid the button and zipper. Slowly pushing his pants down. I knew I was teasing him. He pulled off his shirt and looked at me. Both his hands cupped my face and pulled me in for a kiss. I pulled away and took off my cami. He stood there for a second just staring. I pushed closer to him and grazed him with my hand. This action earned a moan that he released into my mouth. His hands went to my hips and played with the elastic of my underwear. "Jack...Just take them off." I told him. He ran one hand under my underwear and gripped my ass. I pushed away from him and ran to my bed.
I sat down and pulled Jack down with me. I rolled him over and crawled on top of him and straddled his legs. I leaned down and kissed his lips.I slipped my hand in the band of his boxers. He pushed me away a little. "Are you sure you wanna do this?" It was sweet he asked but I was sure. "Jack, yes I'm sure." I said and leaned back down and kissed him. He kissed back and flipped me over. He pulled down my panties. He threw them on the floor. I started to pull down his boxers. He pulled them the rest of the way off. "Hang on one sec." I said and walked into the bathroom. I pulled out a condom from the drawer. I walked back over to the bed and handed it to Jack. He pulled me on the bed and leaned over me. He kissed me.
He got the condom on and looked at me with another look that asked 'Are you sure?' I nodded. "This gonna hurt you know that right?" I sat up a little. "How do you know I'm a virgin?" I asked. "Cause if you weren't you would have told me and if you weren't Alex would have told me so..." "Alright." I said and pulled him in for another kiss. Jack lined himself up and pushed in. I gripped at his hair. He was right it did hurt but at the same time as he kept going it got better. I moaned. "Jaaack." He kissed me to make me be quiet. I kissed down his neck and he moaned. I could feel I was getting close. "Jack-" He kissed me. He spoke against my lips. "I know." I kissed back but my body went limp as I climaxed. Jack finished right after me.
He got up and threw the condom away. I Stood up and pulled on my underwear. Along with my cami. He looked at me. "Where you going?" He asked. I walked over and kissed him. "I know you Barakat...your hungry and I need chinese." I said and pulled out of his arms. I got to my door before he whipped me around. "Paige...your amazing." He whispered to me. "No your amazing Jack..." I said and quickly pecked his lips leaving him standing there naked in my bed room all alone. I ran across the hall and knocked on Zack's door. "Zack?" "Yeah?" He opened the door. "Do you want some chinese food?" "Sure."
He left his room and walked down stairs with me. I pulled out the menu and handed it to Zack. "I left my phone upstairs you order." He rolled his eyes but ordered. "Oh Get Jack Mongolian beef...he's upstairs." He nodded and ordered. One of the best nights of my life.
The woman on the intercom brought me back. "Your landing in England now. Please buckle up." I did as I was told and buckled up. I must have scared the lady off cause I couldn't find her. It was nice to talk to some one. When we land the first thing I need is clothes and a place to stay.
"Excuse me?" I lifted my head. "Sorry I'll try to be quieter." "No thats not why I came over. I came over because you need someone to talk to and I'm here for you. A new point of view and I wont judge cause I don't know you." "I'm not so sur-" "Come on. You need it." She had a point. Maybe she could help. "I ran out on my wedding..." "Alright...Why?" "Cause my best friend proposed to me in the middle of my wedding..." "That's strange." "Yeah. I dated Alex for years but he broke up with me cause he was afraid to fall in love with me but as he just told me he already had by that point." "I see. How did you feel about this?" "I mean Jack had always been there and he was there when Alex broke up with me and he has helped me threw out all my problems. I love Jack but I always have loved Alex. He was my first love." "Was he your first time?" "No. Jack was and it was amazing..."
I walked into my bedroom and went into my bathroom. I slipped off my clothes and turned on the shower. I stepped in and washed my body. I shaved my legs. I picked up the blade I left in the shower cause no one would look there for one. I held it between my index and thumb. I gripped it tighter and slid it across my wrist. I tilted my head back and let the water wash the blood off my arm. I did two on my left wrist. I did them for my parents. They didn't deserve to die, I did. I stepped out of the shower. I dried off my hair with the towel. I pulled on my new underwear and a cami. I wrapped a little ace bandage around my wrist. I put the necklace my dad got me on and walked out of my bathroom. I sat on the side of my bed and laid back with my feet dangling off. I heard something at my window. I sat up and it happened again. I walked over and opened my window.
I opened it and looked out. "Jack? What are you doing here?" I asked him. "I wanted to see my girlfriend...is that a bad thing?" I rolled my eyes and closed the window. I walked out of my room and down the stairs. I opened the door and closed it behind me. I walked around to the side of the house. I saw Jack. He was still throwing stuff at my window. I walked around the corner and wrapped my arms around his waist. "Shit...Paige. I almost killed you. You scared the shit out me." "Sorry babe." I said and kissed his shoulder blade. He turned me around and pulled me in front of him.
"Why are you naked? And why am I not involved?" He asked. "Well I just got out of the shower and you could be if you wanted." I grabbed his hand and pulled him to the front of the house. I opened the door and pulled him upstairs. I pushed him in and closed my door. I turned around only to be pushed against the door. Jack kissed me with a hungry passion. He trailed kisses down my neck. He found a spot that made my knees weak. He sucked on it. My breath was hitching. I pulled his mouth up to meet mine and I flipped him around and trailed kisses down his neck. I found a spot and nibbled at it. He moaned out and I smiled against his skin.
I took my hands and grabbed the front of his skinny jeans and undid the button and zipper. Slowly pushing his pants down. I knew I was teasing him. He pulled off his shirt and looked at me. Both his hands cupped my face and pulled me in for a kiss. I pulled away and took off my cami. He stood there for a second just staring. I pushed closer to him and grazed him with my hand. This action earned a moan that he released into my mouth. His hands went to my hips and played with the elastic of my underwear. "Jack...Just take them off." I told him. He ran one hand under my underwear and gripped my ass. I pushed away from him and ran to my bed.
I sat down and pulled Jack down with me. I rolled him over and crawled on top of him and straddled his legs. I leaned down and kissed his lips.I slipped my hand in the band of his boxers. He pushed me away a little. "Are you sure you wanna do this?" It was sweet he asked but I was sure. "Jack, yes I'm sure." I said and leaned back down and kissed him. He kissed back and flipped me over. He pulled down my panties. He threw them on the floor. I started to pull down his boxers. He pulled them the rest of the way off. "Hang on one sec." I said and walked into the bathroom. I pulled out a condom from the drawer. I walked back over to the bed and handed it to Jack. He pulled me on the bed and leaned over me. He kissed me.
He got the condom on and looked at me with another look that asked 'Are you sure?' I nodded. "This gonna hurt you know that right?" I sat up a little. "How do you know I'm a virgin?" I asked. "Cause if you weren't you would have told me and if you weren't Alex would have told me so..." "Alright." I said and pulled him in for another kiss. Jack lined himself up and pushed in. I gripped at his hair. He was right it did hurt but at the same time as he kept going it got better. I moaned. "Jaaack." He kissed me to make me be quiet. I kissed down his neck and he moaned. I could feel I was getting close. "Jack-" He kissed me. He spoke against my lips. "I know." I kissed back but my body went limp as I climaxed. Jack finished right after me.
He got up and threw the condom away. I Stood up and pulled on my underwear. Along with my cami. He looked at me. "Where you going?" He asked. I walked over and kissed him. "I know you Barakat...your hungry and I need chinese." I said and pulled out of his arms. I got to my door before he whipped me around. "Paige...your amazing." He whispered to me. "No your amazing Jack..." I said and quickly pecked his lips leaving him standing there naked in my bed room all alone. I ran across the hall and knocked on Zack's door. "Zack?" "Yeah?" He opened the door. "Do you want some chinese food?" "Sure."
He left his room and walked down stairs with me. I pulled out the menu and handed it to Zack. "I left my phone upstairs you order." He rolled his eyes but ordered. "Oh Get Jack Mongolian beef...he's upstairs." He nodded and ordered. One of the best nights of my life.
The woman on the intercom brought me back. "Your landing in England now. Please buckle up." I did as I was told and buckled up. I must have scared the lady off cause I couldn't find her. It was nice to talk to some one. When we land the first thing I need is clothes and a place to stay.
Notes
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11/4/13