No Regrets

Valentine's POV

"Ian!" I shouted and ran towards my brother to pull him in a hug. Since Julia explained me everything that happened, I didn't stop crying. And the fact that Ian was here didn't make it better.

Because we're the reason why our cousin almost died.

Aunt Julia promised me, that it wasn't a suicide try. She said there's probably something wrong with her inner things, like the stomach, because she got punched in her stomach many times, Julia told. I just wanna kill all those people who did this to Molly! So that means I have to kill myself and Ian. I can't say it different, because we're actually really the reason why we're here. I wish we never started that band.

"What happened?" Ian asked. No one told him until now what happened. Julia just called him, like me, and said that Molly is in hospital. But not more. I tried to calm down and explain everything to Ian. But as much as I tried I couldn't stop crying. Before I could get on my knees and continue crying, I felt how two arms from behind went around my waist and kept me close to a body. I put my head in my hands and felt from the grip that it was Jack how kept me save. Jack dragged me to a chair and I sat on it. Then he turned to Ian and explained everything that happened to him. I had time to calm down a bit and think about everything. So, my cousin gets bullied in school because of the way she is and the music she listens to. They never told us that, because it's also because of Ian's and my band. Those people think that Molly thinks that she's something better. And now, she's in hospital because she suddenly began to cough blood in the night. Which could be because of all the punches she got in her stomach. Motherfucker. There aren't any words that described my feelings. I didn't know what to feel. I just wanna know how Molly is now and where she is. "Julia Coleman?" a doctor asked. Julia stood up from her chair like she got hit by a lightning and walked to the doctor. "So, she's okay. Those coughs with blood got used from injuries in her stomach area. Those may got used from punches or something like that. We could fix that and she's sleeping right now, but as soon as she's awake you can see her. She's in room 7.112, I'm gonna tell the nurses to tell you when she's awake" the doctor informed us. "Thank you doctor" Julia thanked and the doctor left. I got up from my chair and hugged Julia, who was crying again. "Everything's gonna be okay. She's gonna be okay" I whispered in her ear. After I pulled away, I got hugs from Ian and Jack. "So, do you need anything? Coffee or something to eat?" Jack asked us after he pulled away. "A coffee would be nice" I said and smiled thankfully at him. Julia and Ian took a coffee, too and Jack left to get us those. "He's really nice. Don't let him slip away" Julia whispered in my ear when Jack was out of our sight. I smiled at her and then looked at my hands. Molly is gonna be okay. Thank god. "Hey, don't feel guilty. It's not our fault that she got bullied" Ian tried to calm me down. "That's it, I think it is our fault. If we wouldn't have started this band, she might not be here" I honestly said. Ian put an arm around me and pulled me closer. "It's not our fault" he said again. "Mrs. Coleman? Your daughter is awake now. You can see her" a nurse said when she walked by. Julia had an expression of relief in her face. We all stood up from our chairs and went to room nr. 7.112. I quickly sent a message to Jack and told him where we were. When we reached the room, Julia faltered quickly before she knocked on the door. Then she opened the door and we went inside. Molly lay in the bed and looked really exhausted. Everywhere were machines around her, but she probably didn't need most of them. But this sight was almost killing me. When Molly recognized us, she smiled weakly. "Hey sweety" Julia said with tears in her eyes and walked closer to the bed. "Hey Mom" Molly said very quiet. Julia took a chair, sat next to the bed and took Molly's hand in hers. "Val, Ian, come closer, please" Molly almost whispered. I first faltered but then walked closer and stood on the other side of her bed. Ian stood next to me and then searched for some chairs to sit on. "Where's Dad?" Molly asked weakly. "He's still on this business travel and must be in the airplane right now. He took the next flight to come home and as soon as he's here, he's gonna visit you" Julia explained and Molly nodded. "Molly, I'm so sorry that all of this happened to you" I apologized and took her hand. She just smiled and turned her head to face me. "It's not your fault. Not yours and not Ian's or anyone of your band. It's the fault of the people in school, they bullied me and not you did that" Molly told and still smiled. The tears were streaming down my cheeks and Ian took Molly's hand, too. "You're gonna be okay. We're gonna do something against that bullying. I promise you" I said and tried to smile. Honestly I had no idea how I could help her. But I had to. I promised it her, and I'm not gonna break that promise.

Ian's POV

"Thanks Jack" I said before I closed the car door. He smiled and nodded. Then I closed the door and walked to my house. Jack brought first Val to her apartment and then me to my house. He was the entire time in the hospital with us. I guess because of Val. I think they had kind of a date before and then he brought her to the hospital. Anyway, I opened the door and walked in. Then I walked to the living room and sat on the couch. Now I had time to think about everything. Molly's in hospital, but she's gonna be okay soon. She got bullied because of the way she is and because of mine and Val's band. Great. Val actually wants to quit the band, I can tell it by the way she says things about Molly. But I don't actually want to quit. I mean, I don't want that our cousin gets bullied. But we have to fight with her against it. We can't let the bullies win, because that's what they want. We have to think of something we can do about it. And that's definitely not quit the band. This band saved Val's life and probably many more lifes in this world. I buried my head in my hands and lay down on the couch. I had really no idea what to do, but we MUST do something. But first I need some sleep. Hopefully we'll see everything clearer tomorrow.

Valentine's POV

"We seriously need to do something. We can't just leave it like this" I said to the guys. Since like 1 hour we were at Ian's house and thought about what we could do that Molly doesn't get bullied anymore. She's at home now and is better and in some weeks she must go to school again. Until then we need to change something. "I'm sorry, but I can't think of anything" Steve apologized. "We definitely WON'T split or go on a hiatus. That's not the right thing. We can't let the bullies win" Ian said. He's right. If we break up or go on hiatus we let the bullies win. That's not the thing that I want. "You're right. But what can we do?" I asked and buried my head in my hands. "We could write a song!" Bob suggested. "Yeah, what kind of song?" Jerry asked. "We write a song about those assholes/bullies!" Bob explained. "That's it!" I yelled and clapped my hands together. "Okay! So in a week everyone has a melody or some parts of the lyrics! Alright?" Ian suggested enthusiastic. All agreed. That's a good idea. But why did it take us so long to think of something? I mean we are musicians and the last thing that we thought of is writing a song. Facepalm! Anyway, I left to go to Starbucks for a coffee. And I could better concentrate in this cafe. I have no idea why, but I do. I said goodbye to everyone and then went outside and walked to my car. While driving I listened to Placebo. [I love Placebo asdfghjkl] They're one of the bands that inspired us the most and still do. They're awesome. When I reached the Starbucks, I parked my car and walked to the cafe. I ordered my coffee and when it came, I walked to the next free table. Holy cow, I really love this coffee. It's so good! I took paper and pencil from my bag and first began to write everything down that was in my head right now. Then I started to sort them to a song. Well, I tired. I had the words and everything but it kinda didn't form a song. I was so in thoughts that I didn't notice that Jack and Alex went through the doors and walked towards me. I just noticed them, when Jack was kinda shouting my name. "Hey Val! You okay?" he asked when he saw my in-thoughts-face. "Yeah, I'm alright. Hi by the way" I said and smiled. "Hi" they said in unison and waved. "Do you want something? I'm going to order Alex' and my drink" Jack asked me. I shook my head and smiled. Jack nodded, too and then walked away to order the drinks. Alex sat on the chair in front of me. "What are you doing?" he asked when he noticed the paper on my lap. "I'm just trying to write a song for my cousin. But somehow I can't put it together" I explained and put the pencil to my mouth and thought. "Oh yeah, Jack told me about your cousin. Sorry by the way. But let me see" he said and took the paper from my lap. "Hey!" I shouted which caused people to look at us. "Ssshh, give me your pencil" he said and clicked his fingers. I rolled my eyes and gave him the pencil. While he was writing some things down, I chewed on my nails, which is a bad habit of mine. "What are you doing?" I asked curious. "Ssshh just let me work" he said. "But-" "Ssshhhh!" he said again. I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms. "Okay, here you go. I know you said that you don't want anything but here's a cookie for you anyway" Jack said when he finally came back. He put all the things on the table and gave me the cookie. "Shmow Zow!" I cheered and took a bite. Jack and Alex looked confused at me. "What? I've been watching Adventure Time the last days..." I protected myself. [Adventure Time asdfghjkl *.* I'm addicted c:] Jack shrugged and began to drink his coffee. "Okay, here you go" Alex finally said and handed me the paper and the pencil back. He put everything I wrote down in an order and created so a song. And it sounded really good until now. "Wow, that's awesome Alex. Thanks" I thanked and smiled at him. "Nah, you're welcome" he said and waved it away. "You have the honor to get a bite from my cookie!" I said and raised the cookie in the air, like in Lion King. "You're so silly" Alex said and laughed. "It's something special! I never share my food" I explained and broke a piece from the cookie off and handed it to Alex. He took it and ate it. I looked at the paper again and smiled. That was it. That was our song for Molly.

[Hehe, what do you think of it? please leave a comment and let me know what you think and what I could maybe do better c: and I thought about really writing that song but I just can't find the time and inspiration for it...but if you have something that you want me to put here, just comment below or inbox me or post on my message board c: xx title goes to Paramore's new song 'Now'. listen to it >>>>>> http://youtu.be/wAUAayPYX_o]