The next few days i spent with Garrett, we had grown closer than we were before and we acted like a couple but he knew i still liked Alex no matter how i tried to fake it. There was yet another party. Maybe i could talk to Alex tonight, because if we had to say something byaccident we could blame it on alcohol right? I felt bad for not talking to him or answering his texts but i wasn’t sure what to say to him considering i told him i was in love with him last time. I needed to fix things soon as i was missing Rian and the guys.

The party started around 7ish and when i arrived you could hear the loud music making my heart sort of beat to the music, people were doing keg stands in one corner, others sitting chilling out talking, some dancing well more like grinding on the make-shift dance floor. On a table there were shot glasses and a bottle of unknown liquid made by who knows. I had one and could feel it slowly burn its way down, i had another one until i was joined by someone else.

“Mind if i join you?”

“Sure, grab a glass”

“Thanks! You look nice tonight Lace” I could tell just by the way he said my name who it was.

“Thanks you...... Erm look nice too.” It was going well so far, so i decided not to be bitchy towards him, he did apologise after all “Sorry for not answering your text I was..... Erm busy.”

“Yeah with him” He spoke with an ounce of jealousy at which i couldn’t help but smile at it

“Why you jealous Gaskarth?” I playfully punched his shoulder and smiled to show I was only kidding.

“Maybe” he smirked.

“So what was it you wanted to talk about?”

“Could we maybe go somewhere quieter?” He yelled over the music.

“Sure” I smiled as he grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the venue where we sat on the front of the stage with our feet hanging over the edge.

“Lace?”

“Yeah”

“Did you mean it when you said you were in love with me?” He looked to the floor and
twiddled his fingers. How the hell was i supposed to answer that? If i said yeah and he didn’t feel the same way i was screwed and the same as if i had to say no and he did like me then i’ve blown it haven’t i? I decided to go with honesty as honesty is the best policy. Or so i’ve been told

“Well the thing is Lex, i have sort of liked you since you became friends with Rian. I just thought that you would never like someone like me because i’m not like the pretty girls you get asked out by all the time. I don’t have really big boobs, i don’t like wearing short skirts and heels mostly because i would fall and if my skirt was short no one would have a pretty sight.” He laughed at my comment, causing me to laugh. “Sorry, i’m rambling. So the answerto your question is yes i meant it Lex. I have tried to not like you or avoid you but whenever i do you show up all the time, like a bad smell from Jack’s farts that pops up all the time.” We both laughed for a few minutes before he turned to me.

“ Wait, You tried to avoid me?” He looked at me seriously.

“Yeah i just didn’t want to confess my love for you when you didn’t like me back making it awkward for everyone on the bus but i guess i didn’t try hard enough as we are in this position now. I’m sorry.”

“You will just have to make it up to me” He smiled his contagious smile and looked me in the eyes. Me getting lost in his brown eyes.

“Really? How would you suggest i do that?” Something about alcohol makes you more confident. I didn’t have much but oh well maybe it’s the thought of having had alcohol that’s working.

He moved his head closer and leaned his forehead on mine. All of my confidence was no gone, I was back to being nervous Lacey. He still smelled good man it was better than good. If this boy was cake he would have been eaten by now he smelled that good. I bit my lip and he laced his fingers with mine.

“Kiss me” He whispered

“What?”

“You heard me Dawson now make it up to me and kiss me”

I smiled as I had always wanted this to happen so i did what he said and moved my head closer to his until our lips touched and started moving together. This kiss felt different to the last one and i forgot all about the past few days Garrett. All i cared about at that moment was that i was kissing Alex. His hands moved from mine to my back pulling me closer to him and my fingers ran through his hair.

We spent a few minutes kissing before he pulled me onto his lap so i was straddling him. This is when i pushed him away. I know for someone who has waited so long for this is stupid to push him away but i didn’t want to end up being someone he used to sleep with and that’s is. He looked confused but then smiled.

“Who knew mini Dawson was such a good kisser?” He mocked

“Shut- up Lex, you forget you’ve kissed me before?” I moved from his lap to my previous spot next to him.

“Yeah but you ran away before i could say that last time.”

“Touché my friend. But Lex?”

“Yeah?”

“What did that mean? I know i’m ruining the mood here but oh well” I laughed but it was a nervous laugh. He could tell that so moved in closer again and whispered

“It means I love you too”
I smiled the largest smile i think i have ever smiled and kissed him again. ALEX JUST SAID HE LOVED ME TOO. What if this was a dream and i would wake up and none of this would have happened.

We heard a loud bang coming from the corner where the door was making us both pull apart and look. My smile quickly faded when I saw Garrett there. His eyes teary and he looked hurt. God of course he would be hurt he just saw me kiss Alex. He just turned and walked back through the door leaving me and Alex alone again. Alex could see I was hurt and half smiled at me.

“Go talk to him Lace, He looked really upset.”

“Ok, i’ll come find you later though ok?”

“Yeah, tell me how it goes.” He kissed my head before i jumped down from the stage and ran as fast as i could to the door.

“You fucked up again Lacey well done!” I mumbled to myself before going to find Garrett, hopefully he would talk to me, if i were him i would never talk to me again.