Now, I should reveal the plan.

The guys are coming round soon, and when they get here, they'll find me on the bathroom floor. I told them to come round at 2:15. It's currently 1:45. I have half an hour. I'm nervous, but that's fine, it'll be over soon.

Alex will be the only one who wont be surprised, he knows how much I want to do this, so he'll understand, I hope he explains this to everyone.

I never told you about Alex and I. You see, I was round his one night, talking about my problems, one thing led to another and we had sex. We both felt great afterwards, and we became eachothers release. We agreed not to tell anyone until one of us died. And we agreed to keep it at friends with benefits.

I must go, I have 25 minutes to write my last letter and leave.