Zack's POV

"And it's just so stressful, Zack" he wept into my shirt.

Alone and together, me and Matt were sat cuddled together on the couch. Everyone one else went to bed or whatever and Matt poured his little heart out to me.

"I don't know anymore, Zachary" he sobbed.
Matt had a habit of calling me my full name when drunk. But he was too cute for me to care.

"Matthew, speak to me. What is wrong?" I asked, rubbing his shoulder. He sniffed and sat up, turning round, legs crossed, and staring into my eyes.
"The tour...the band...my life...it's just so so stressful" he spoke before realising a fresh load of tears. I pulled him to my chest again, and hugged him harder.
"Matt, you know that any of us would be more than happy to help" I assured him.

He cried some mote before another idea hit me. "Take the day off. Me and you, we'll go out somewhere and just get you more relaxed". His shoulders sunk down as he absorbed by offer.
"Where will we go?" He snuffled.

"Anywhere. McDonalds, or a park. A coffee shop or even the beach? We are heading to California, so we can go to the beach. Anything to cheer you up, Matt" I said, giving him another reassuring squeeze before he replied.

"You're a great friend, Matt"

Friend.
Friend. The word stung like a thousand bees, like a hundred needles, like a million sharp pins. A friend. A friend was all I was ever going to be. Friends because that what we are. I have no chance with Matt, or anyone for that matter. I love him so much it physically hurts. I just wish he'd feel the same but he won't. He just said I'm a great friend. He friend-zoned me in the nicest and cutest way. Friend. I hate the word.

"It's okay, Matt. Now sleep" I say, shuffling from under him and laying him down on the couch. I quickly grab a blanket from the cupboard and lay it over his gentle, fragile body.
Just watching his chest slowly rise and fall makes my heart flutter.

Matt Flyzik, the things you do to me. I love you so much. Your cute shiny lip ring, the adorable smirk you pull when Jack messes around, the way you bite your lip when you're nervous, the chest-hugging shirts you wear and those amazing skinny jeans that clutch your body in every way; the way you make my stomach dance and my heart soar. Simple words to say, I love you.

But you'll never love me.

*

Pulling my muscly body from my annoying small bunk, I make my way to the lounge. I am greeted Alex and Jack throwing cushions at each other, screaming and yelling playfully, whilst Rian checks his twitter. Matt, Vinny, Clousy and the others, I guess, are at the arena setting up.

"Morning" Rian nods as I enter. I nod back and make my way to the kitchen, ignoring the two kids now play fighting on the couch.
"Jesus, can you two just bum each other already?" I sat, grabbing a mug and starting the coffee machine.

Alex and Jack stop suddenly and glare at me.
You see, I forgot to mention that they're in a secret relationship. Alex finally asked Jack out quite a few months ago. Cute, I know but the thing is; Jack has been bisexual since the band started. So he's been with guys before and done things. Alex, on the other hand, is still unsure if he's gay or bisexual. This hadn't bothered Jack at all but Alex has never 'been' with a guy before, in that way. So they've decided to wait until Alex is ready. Ergo, any kind of sex jokes about them will end in death stares or an argument.

"Shut up, Zack" Jack says, pulling Alex into a hug.
"Whatever" I sigh and pour the coffee into my cup.
"All because you can't bum Matt doesn't mean you can tease us"

My entire body freezes. I stop pouring the liquid and become paralyzed.
What did Jack just say?
Does he know?
How does he know?
Who told him?
How did they find out?
The only person or things that know is me and my...song book. I stare at Jack, now smirking.
"What on earth are you on about?" I chuckle and take a sip of my coffee.

I decide to play it cool and lie.

"Don't you remember? Let me refresh your memory" Jack says. He has released Alex, who is now and Rian, staring at me like what the fuck?!.

"How I love you,
How I want you to be mine,
How your lip ring shines,
Your stupid smirk, the way you work,
Matt Flyzik, i love you" Jack quoted.

Jack stole my song book and read my lyrics about Matt.

As the realisation hits me, that when I lunge forward and punch Jack in the face.