Matt Flyzik, I Love You
That's My Name, Don't Wear It Out
Zack's POV
I watched his perfect ass strut across the stage and grab the remaining wires.
The show was done. Alex, Jack, Rian had gone back to the tour bus, whilst I stayed here and helped the crew tidy up. Well, I wasn't really helping.
I was just staring at Matt's arse whilst strumming a few chords on Alex's acoustic.
"You gonna help or sit there and look pretty?" Matt joked, wrapping the wires round his hand.
I laughed and replied. "Don't you like me looking pretty?". I fluttered my eyelashes, causing Matt to fucking giggle and...did he just blush?
Shaking the thought from my mind, I strummed a few chords and utters some lyrics under my breath.
"Zack? What the fuck was that?" Matt suddenly said, walking towards me.
"What was what?" I teply, confused as fuck.
"That song. It's not one I've heard before" he replies, nibbling on his lip ring.
Fuck his adorableness.
"Yeah, I kinda wrote it" I mutter, hiding my face.
Little did everyone know, I write songs. No one knows cause' I don't tell. They never get put on the albums ot heard by anyone else. Mostly because they're all about Matt and personal shit.
One song even says 'matt, i love you' in it so I don't plan on showing anyone.
"You write? I thought you just helped" he smiled, sitting beside me on the case.
"Yeah, no one knows I write" I blush and shrug.
"Show me" he whispers, our eyes locking and his hand placed on my shoulder.
I tear away from his gaze and strum some chord before singing.
"You're just a daydream away
I wouldn't know what to say if I had you
And I'll keep you a daydream away
Just watch from a safe place
So I never have to lose"
Matt's jaw is hanging open when I stop singing.
"Zack...that was amazing" he whispers.
Our faces are literally inches away. I can even feel his breath. Our eyes locked again and the moment...perfect. I wish I could stay like this, in my daydream, with Matt forever and never having to leave. Unlike now.
Matt jumped up suddenly and grabbed a stray case, heading off the stage.
"You should show that to Alex. He'll defiantly like it. Heck, it could turn me gay!" He yells before walking off stage.
If only.
*
"ZACK?!" Jack screams in my ear.
I tear my stare away from Matt and look at the skunk-haired man next to me.
"Dude! Quit spacing out, you're scaring us!" Rian laughs.
I mumble and look at the tour bus floor.
Alex is in the shower, currently. Me, Jack, Rian, Matt, Clousy and Vinny are all in the lounge.
"Seriously, Zack, what's up with you?" Vinny asks, chuckling.
I shrug and desperatly look for a place in the room to stare at, away from everyone's glares.
"Zack, we're worried" Clousy sooths.
I continue to look away, begging for them to shut up.
"Maybe because he has stuff on his mind" speaks the voice of an angel, Matt.
Yeah, you, I think.
"Zack? Zaaaaack?" Jack whines in my ear.
I jump up from the couch and head to the door.
"Zack?"
"Zack, where you going?"
"What's up, Zack?"
"Where's he going?"
"Zack?"
"Zack?!"
"Zack, come here!"
"Zack, where are you going?!"
"It's midnight, you twat!"
"Zack, the arena's closed now!"
"Zack?!"
"Zack?!"
I finally stop running and collapse against the arena door.
The cold metal stings through my vest top and onto my bare back.
I bury my head in my hands and pull my knees to my chest.
Why? Why did I have to be gay? Why did I have to like someone impossible to date? You would never ever like me? Sure, I have big muscles but...ah fuck! I can't even be bothered to argue right now.
Eyes twitching, a single tear leaks and rolls down my cheek.
No! I can't cry! The last time I cried was when I broke up with my ex-girlfriend. And why? Because I felt guilty. Guilty because I liked guys. Guilty because I had been leading her on. Guilty because I lied about why we broke up. Guilty because I loved someone else.
Yes, I love Matt Flyzik.
I repeated it again and again in my head 'till the words passed my trembling lips.
"Fuck you, Matt Flyzik! I fucking love you, you cunt!" I yelled, my voice echoing. I sobbed harder.
"Zack?"
I snapped my head round and looked at the shadow. I wiped my eyes and saw who it was, before it spoke again.
"You love Matt?"
I watched his perfect ass strut across the stage and grab the remaining wires.
The show was done. Alex, Jack, Rian had gone back to the tour bus, whilst I stayed here and helped the crew tidy up. Well, I wasn't really helping.
I was just staring at Matt's arse whilst strumming a few chords on Alex's acoustic.
"You gonna help or sit there and look pretty?" Matt joked, wrapping the wires round his hand.
I laughed and replied. "Don't you like me looking pretty?". I fluttered my eyelashes, causing Matt to fucking giggle and...did he just blush?
Shaking the thought from my mind, I strummed a few chords and utters some lyrics under my breath.
"Zack? What the fuck was that?" Matt suddenly said, walking towards me.
"What was what?" I teply, confused as fuck.
"That song. It's not one I've heard before" he replies, nibbling on his lip ring.
Fuck his adorableness.
"Yeah, I kinda wrote it" I mutter, hiding my face.
Little did everyone know, I write songs. No one knows cause' I don't tell. They never get put on the albums ot heard by anyone else. Mostly because they're all about Matt and personal shit.
One song even says 'matt, i love you' in it so I don't plan on showing anyone.
"You write? I thought you just helped" he smiled, sitting beside me on the case.
"Yeah, no one knows I write" I blush and shrug.
"Show me" he whispers, our eyes locking and his hand placed on my shoulder.
I tear away from his gaze and strum some chord before singing.
"You're just a daydream away
I wouldn't know what to say if I had you
And I'll keep you a daydream away
Just watch from a safe place
So I never have to lose"
Matt's jaw is hanging open when I stop singing.
"Zack...that was amazing" he whispers.
Our faces are literally inches away. I can even feel his breath. Our eyes locked again and the moment...perfect. I wish I could stay like this, in my daydream, with Matt forever and never having to leave. Unlike now.
Matt jumped up suddenly and grabbed a stray case, heading off the stage.
"You should show that to Alex. He'll defiantly like it. Heck, it could turn me gay!" He yells before walking off stage.
If only.
*
"ZACK?!" Jack screams in my ear.
I tear my stare away from Matt and look at the skunk-haired man next to me.
"Dude! Quit spacing out, you're scaring us!" Rian laughs.
I mumble and look at the tour bus floor.
Alex is in the shower, currently. Me, Jack, Rian, Matt, Clousy and Vinny are all in the lounge.
"Seriously, Zack, what's up with you?" Vinny asks, chuckling.
I shrug and desperatly look for a place in the room to stare at, away from everyone's glares.
"Zack, we're worried" Clousy sooths.
I continue to look away, begging for them to shut up.
"Maybe because he has stuff on his mind" speaks the voice of an angel, Matt.
Yeah, you, I think.
"Zack? Zaaaaack?" Jack whines in my ear.
I jump up from the couch and head to the door.
"Zack?"
"Zack, where you going?"
"What's up, Zack?"
"Where's he going?"
"Zack?"
"Zack?!"
"Zack, come here!"
"Zack, where are you going?!"
"It's midnight, you twat!"
"Zack, the arena's closed now!"
"Zack?!"
"Zack?!"
I finally stop running and collapse against the arena door.
The cold metal stings through my vest top and onto my bare back.
I bury my head in my hands and pull my knees to my chest.
Why? Why did I have to be gay? Why did I have to like someone impossible to date? You would never ever like me? Sure, I have big muscles but...ah fuck! I can't even be bothered to argue right now.
Eyes twitching, a single tear leaks and rolls down my cheek.
No! I can't cry! The last time I cried was when I broke up with my ex-girlfriend. And why? Because I felt guilty. Guilty because I liked guys. Guilty because I had been leading her on. Guilty because I lied about why we broke up. Guilty because I loved someone else.
Yes, I love Matt Flyzik.
I repeated it again and again in my head 'till the words passed my trembling lips.
"Fuck you, Matt Flyzik! I fucking love you, you cunt!" I yelled, my voice echoing. I sobbed harder.
"Zack?"
I snapped my head round and looked at the shadow. I wiped my eyes and saw who it was, before it spoke again.
"You love Matt?"
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6/30/13