Infinity

Being in a polyamorous relationship is one of the most amazing and rewarding things in the world. However, people can be quite judgmental, and in my case, jealous because I'm in this type of relationship with two members of the same band. It was one of the last things I'd ever thought I would experience because when does this even happen? I've been called a whore, a groupie and the 'c' word which may be the most hurtful of all. I have never felt this level of love in my life and I could not be more blessed to have these men in my life.

"Jessie." I heard as I was asleep.

It was Zack.

"No." I said, burying my head further into his chest.

"It's ten."

It was an hour longer than I wanted to sleep, but I was exhausted from the night before.

“Let her sleep.” Alex said from across the bed.

“Yeah. Let me sleep.”

“I’ll get up then, and, leave you two to sleep.”

Zack has a routine and he isn’t one to have it messed up more than it already has. I moved off his chest and toward the fellow sleepyhead. I turned on my side and quickly had his arms around me. He kissed the back of my neck and we both fell back asleep.

“Guys, it’s noon. You need to wake up.”

I could lie here all day and I’m sure Alex could too; I have more in common with him than I do with Zack.

“Fuck you.” I said.

I heard Alex snicker.

“Maybe later.”

My eyes snapped open; that does sound nice. I unraveled from my other lover and sat up. It was only seconds before he did the same.

“Finally.” he said, rolling his eyes.

Someone was in a mood. He walked out of our bedroom and let us be.

“Anyway, I’d say, ‘good morning’, but that’s not appropriate. Good afternoon.” I said.

“Good afternoon.” he said, pulling me into a deep kiss.

I would’ve crawled into his lap, but I knew that we needed to get out of bed and that’s exactly what I did; Alex quickly followed suit. After a swift trip to the bathroom, I headed downstairs to find Zack getting a drink of water. When he saw me, he smiled and walked over to me, wrapping his arms around me.

“Hey.” he said.

“Hey.”

I pulled him into a kiss and I wrapped my arms around his neck.

“Did you get your beauty sleep?”

His arms wrapped on my waist and we began to sway.

“Plenty of it.”

“I love you.”

“Mm... I love you, too.”

“What about me?”

Alex. I laughed and separated from Zack.

“I love you.” I said doing the same thing.

“I love you, too.”

Alex separated from me and went over to kiss Zack. The connection between Alex and I along with Zack and I is equal to theirs; we all love one another equally. I smiled and went to go get something to drink.

“What do we have planned for today? A nice walk in the park, perhaps?” Alex asked.

I laughed.

“How about we go out for lunch?” I replied.

I wasn’t afraid of the stares or whispers; I know who I am and the people I’m in love with are the same ones who are in love with me.

“Sounds good to me. Did you shower already, Zack?”

“Yep.”

“Well, in that case, then. Alex and I’ll go shower.”

I took hold of his hand and we eagerly headed to the bathroom. Once we were out of our clothes, we stepped into the shower after he turned on the water and he pushed me against the wall and kissed me.

“Someone’s hungry.” I said.

“You have no idea.”

“You’re not the only one.”

I crashed my lips onto his and he lifted my ass and I wrapped my legs around his waist.

“Fuck me.”

He smirked and shoved himself inside of me.

“Oh my God.” I moaned.

“Jessie.”

I held onto him as tightly as I could as he thrust in and out of me.

“Alex.”

I buried my head into his neck as I neared my orgasm. Once I reached mine, he reached his just a second later. I kissed him once we both had caught our breath. Then, he pulled out and I placed my head against his chest.

“That was amazing.”

“You can say that again.”

After we showered and were getting dressed, Zack entered our bedroom.

“Did you two seriously just fuck in the shower?”

“Were we that loud?” I asked blushing.

“Extremely.”

“You totally coulda joined us.” Alex added.

I smirked at him and he did the same.

“Another time, perhaps.”

I nodded. Alex and I got ready in less than half an hour and met Zack downstairs.

“You. Look. Amazing.” the latter said.

“Of course she does. Always.” Alex said.

“Thank you, boys.”

I leaned into him and smiled. Zack rolled his eyes then kissed my cheek.

Fuck. I love these guys.

We headed to lunch at my favorite restaurant and received the usual looks and whispers. Sometimes, I actually hear what people say and it makes me shake my head; today’s one of those days.

What a slut.

Bet she's a gold-digger.

Why can’t she just pick one guy? Why does she need two?

She’s going to Hell.

Once we were seated, I let out a breath that I didn’t even realize I was holding.

“You okay?” Zack asked, touching my hand.

“Yeah.” I said, smiling.

“You sure?”

I nodded.

“Jessie...”

“Just annoyed about some whispers I heard today. I’m used to it, but you know... it gets old.”

He took my hand in his which was quite comforting. We were interrupted by our waiter asking for our drink order. I didn’t bother looking at the menu and neither did Zack; he just kept holding my hand. Apparently, what was said was actually affecting me; it hadn’t truly affected me since this relationship began eighteen months ago and I don’t know why that is.

“It’s more than that.” Alex spoke up.

“I don’t know.” I said sadly.

Once our food order went in, I placed my head on Zack’s shoulder.

“I don’t like this Jessie.”

Neither did I. I was silent which is very unusual for me.

“Was there one that hurt you more than another?” Zack asked.

“Someone said that I was going to Hell. I know I should let it go, but..."

"Not today?" Alex asked.

"Yeah."

"I still don't understand these people. Love is love. Doesn't matter if it's a conventional relationship or a polyamorous one like ours."

I smiled again and leaned over the table to kiss Alex.

“You are too wonderful.”

He blushed which was adorable.

“Aww... look who’s blushing.” Zack said playfully.

Alex didn’t take it lightly, so he kicked him in the shin.

“Ouch!”

“Alex...” I started.

“What?”

“Is that any way to treat your boyfriend?”

He sighed.

“No.”

“Say you’re sorry.”

“Really?”

I gave him a look.

“I’m sorry.”

“Apology accepted.”

"Thank you.” I said, satisfied.

After lunch, Zack and Alex proudly walked out of the restaurant holding hands. I smiled and leaned against Alex as we left; I couldn’t have felt happier at this very moment.

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