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Alex’s POV

I got out the car and looked at this house which would now be my new home.
”See told you two it wouldn’t be bad.” My said as she stood in the middle of me and my 15 year old brother, Eddie.
Me and Eddie looked at each other in disagreement.
”It looks like someone has died in it.” Eddie said which made me chuckle slightly.
”Well I can assure you that nobody has died in the house, we just need to make it our own. Just put our little touch to it.” Mum said as dad joined us.
”That’s if it doesn’t fall down first.” I said as I started to smoke a cigarette which mum and dad hated.
”Alexander put the death stick out.” Dad said seriously.
”My choice to put the stick of death in my mouth and smoke it so there for I will smoke it and give myself cancer.” I said as I blew some smoke in dads face which he hated.
Dad just glared at me and I just smiled sarcastically at him and went back to looking at this house.
”Well go on in then, go and choose which rooms you want. But no fighting.” Mum said and I sighed and flicked my cigarette away and walked inside with Eddie beside me.

We walked inside and to be fair it was a lot bigger than what our house was in England.
”Well maybe the house could grow on me.” Eddie said and I chuckled slightly.
”The shit hole isn’t my home, that’s back in England.” I said and Eddie smiled slightly at me.
”I miss England too.” Eddie said quietly as he was one for not liking change thanks to him being autistic.
”People are going to love you, it’s me on the other hand who people don’t like.” I said and Eddie chuckled.
”Everybody loves Alexander Gaskarth, I mean you’re a fucking party animal and you enjoy breaking the rules.” Eddie said and I smiled and looked at him.
”Rules are meant to be broken. Should know this by now.” I said and walked off up the stairs and looked round the room and decided to have the other bedroom with had a en-suite in.
”I wanted this room.” Eddie said as he walked into my now new room.
”You snooze, you loose and Anyway I’m the oldest out of us so therefore I get the better room. Anyway I had the fucking box room when we was in England while you had the whole basement to yourself so this is your pay back now get out of my room.” I said and Eddie pouted and walked out my room and went to his new room.
I stood in the empty room and looked around and I sighed loudly knowing that this move was probably my fault but I didn’t really care, if I got with the right people at this new school I was going to start then I would get what I want to get.
Someome knocked on the door and I looked and saw it was Mum.
”So once we get a few things in we’re going to look at the school which is a couple of streets away from here. Would like it if you came too.” Mum said and I sighed loudly.
”I’ve finished school though, why do I need to go back to school?” I said and mum sighed .
”Kids here don’t finish school until their 18. Since your still 17 I have to enroll you into school.” Mum said.
”Well that’s a load of horse shit.” I said as I turned round and sat in the window and looked at this new neighborhood.
”Sorry Alex, that’s the price we have to pay for moving here.” Mum said and walked out the room.
”Wasn’t my fucking choice to move.” I muttered sarcastically to myself as I opened the window I dangled my feet out the window while smoking a cigarette and watching everyone doing the hard work.

Once all the boxes was out with very little help from me we went and looked round this school.
”Why do I have to come? I’m not even going to this school so why am I being dragged here?” Eddie said as we sat waiting to be shown round.
”Sadly Ed, you are going to this school so we need to look around and see if it’s okay and if you two like it it or not.” Mum said and she looked at me.
”What? I haven’t even done anything yet.” I said as I looked at Eddie who looked really unsure of this place and I put my arm over his shoulder and pulled him to my side.
”That’s what I’m worried about.” Mum said as she turned her back to us.
”If any of those little cunts hurt you or are horrible to you then you get me okay. I’ll put the little bastards back in their place.” I said quietly to Eddie who looked at me and smiled.
”Thanks Alex.” Eddie said quietly as the head teacher showed up.
”Mrs Gaskarth?” The head teacher said and mum stood up and nodded.
”Yes that’s me and these are my two boys Alexander and Edward.” Mum said and both me and Eddie cringed as we both hated being called by our whole names.
”Yeah but you can call me Alex though and my little brother Eddie.” I said and the head teacher looked at me with a raised eyebrow.
”I’ll make a note of it.” The head said as he turned round.
”Yeah you better.” I muttered quietly and Eddie chuckled as we walked off following the head around the school.
”So what do you other children who have Autism, Eddie has autism and he really struggles with being in a school environment.” Mum said and Eddie sighed loudly.
”Then bloody home school me then. That’s what I want but you won’t bloody listen to me.” Eddie said and mum glared at him and then at me as my attitude was slowly rubbing off on him.
”Your father and I won’t have time or the money to home school you.” Mum said and Eddie sighed loudly and rolled his eyes.
”What about really difficult children. Alex here has got himself kicked out of 5 schools when we was in England and he always manages to find the wrong crowd.” Mum said.
”Trouble attracts me, I will always follow the trouble.” I said and mum rolled her eyes.
”I’m sure we can cope with Alexander here.” The head said and looked at me and I just glared at him.
”Please, I would like to see you try.” I said and walked off.

I was sat on the bonnet of the car waiting for mum and smoking a cigarette when I saw a group of 4 guys hiding in the corner looking like they was up to no good so me being me I walked over to them.
”Hey, random question here but have any of you guys got any weed?” I asked and one of the boys turned round and looked at me and I saw another boy rolling a joint.
”Fuck off kid.” This tall boy with a blue patch in his hair said.
”Please, I’m not going to run to the head and snitch on you so you can at least relax a little. I just want some fucking weed to tie me over until I find my feet.” I said and I looked behind me and there was still no sign of Mum.
”Don’t trust you, you’re not from around here or even from this country.” The boy said and I rolled my eyes at him.
”I never asked you to trust me, I just want some fucking weed before I go bat shit here and well done on the fact that I’m not from around here.” I said seriously and looked at the boy.
”Honestly, if you don’t want to give me the joint then let me roll myself one and then I don’t have to share it with the rest of you.” I said and the boy looked at the boy who was rolling the joint and nudged his head in my direction.
”How can I trust you that’s you won’t say nothing.” The boy with the blue patch said.
”Honey, you can probably name most of the ilegal drugs and I’ve probably done it. Also why would I snitch on someone smoking a joint during school, I mean school is literal hell and who wouldn’t want to get high.” I said and the boy frowned at me.
”For fuck sake just give me the fucking joint will you.” I snapped and the boy took the joint out the other boys hand and he handed it to me.
”You fucking tell anyone and I will ruin you.” The boy said seriously.
”Can say the same right back at you. Cheers for the joint highly anticipated.” I said and walked off and I could feel eyes on my ass but I ignored it.
”What the fuck was you doing?” Mum asked seriously.
”Making friends since I’m coming to this school.” I said and mum glared at me.
”Honestly, cross my heart and on grandmothers grave.” I said and mum sighed loudly.
”Get in the car Alex.” Mum said.
”I’m going to walk home, you know get used to the neighborhood and so I don’t get lost.” I said and mum nodded.
”Okay, here have the front door key and let yourself in as we need to get some food for the house.” Mum said as she gave the house keys and she got in the car and Eddie walked over to me.
”Don’t do anything stupid Lex.” Eddie said quietly and he looked at my hand where I was hiding the joint.
”Don’t tell mum or dad please. It won’t hurt me, I’ll be okay.” I said quietly and Eddie nodded and hugged me which I returned and he let me go and got in the car and I watched them leave and I turned round and the boys was watching me.
Once I knew mums car was out of view I lite the joint up and it felt like fucking heaven.
I walked back over to the boys.
”This is good shit, where do you get it from and do they sell anything stronger than this.” I said and the boy with the blue strip in his hair frowned at me.
”Why?” He asked.
”Look at it as a protental buyer who needs something harder than some fucking weed.” I said and the boys looked at the others.
”You won’t snitch on us?” The buff looking on out of the group asked as he stood up and he looked pretty solid so I was t going to be messing with him.
“For the last time I’m not going to snitch, I just need some fucking drugs.” I snapped and the boy nodded.
“Here’s a number, call him and he’ll sort you out.” The buff boy said as he wrote a number and handed it to me.
“Pleasure doing business with you guys.” I said and I walked off and smoked the joint and made sure I wasn’t too fucked before I got home.

I got home and nobody was home which was a bonus so I went to my room and saw the boxes and groaned to myself as I walked over and started to unpack and sort my mattress which was kept bed out and started to make my room mine.
By the time I’ve finished mum and Eddie had come home and Eddie was sat with me as we just chilled playing on the Xbox since we had nothing better to do.
“Did you smoke that joint?” Eddie asked quietly.
“It doesn’t concern you Ed.” I said and Eddie paused the game and looked at me.
“It does Lex because we moved here so you can have a fresh start and for you get away from the drugs and all the other shit you got yourself into. I don’t want to lose you to the drugs again Lex, I like this Alex better than drugged up Alex who overdoses all the time.” Ed said and I looked down and thought off all the trouble I coursed my family.
“You’re not going to lose me okay. I’m going to be here for you okay.” I said and pulled him into a hug since I was the only one who he would hug.
“Please don’t fall back into that crowd again.” Eddie whispered and I just held him tighter and kissed the top of his head.
Mum came in and looked at us and smiled.
“Dinner is ready.” Mum said quietly and I nodded and let Eddie go and he walked out the room and mum stayed in the room and shut the door behind her.
“I don’t want a lecture.” I said as I stood up.
“Please treat this as a new start Alex. I don’t want you to go back to how you was before.” Mum said softly.
“What the part where I was diagnosed with depression and a eating disorder along with being a drug addict. Yeah that’s not going to go away with changing where we live. I’m always going to be depressed and worry about my weight and I’ll find a way to get drugs.” I said and mum sighed.
“I can’t keep fighting you about this Alex.” Mum said and I looked at her.
“I’ve never asked you to fight me about it.” I said and I walked out the room and went downstairs and saw pizza which made me sigh as I don’t really like pizza that much but I was going to eat it as I was hungry.

After I had eaten I went back up to my room but I was forced to leave my door open Incase I made myself sick or did something else.
I was looking through Facebook and back at all the old memories and one of me and my ex showed up.
I saw a shadow in the door way and I looked up and saw dad.
“Don’t look at that picture of him.” Dad said sadly as he was the person who introduced me to drugs.
“It doesn’t do anything for me.” I said quietly and dad walked into my room and sat in the chair I had in my room.
“But it does for me. It reminds me of what he took away from me.” Dad said and I sighed loudly and shut the laptop down.
“He hasn’t taken me away.” I said quietly.
“Yes he has Alex, you was so happy before he came along and he just took all your happiness away.” Dad said and I looked down.
“I wasn’t happy dad, I was just good at hiding it.” I said and stood up and walked out my room and went outside and had a cigarette.
Once I had a cigarette I went inside and lead down on my mattress and went to sleep.

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I love this I can’t wait to see more and more!!

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7/24/18