Jack’s POV

“Babe.” Alex said as he watched me get dressed since I said I would look after Jayden so Alex could go to work in peace.
“Yeah.” I said and looked at Alex who was still under the cover probably naked still.
“The Baby is downstairs with dad and we have the room to ourselves, why not make the most of it.” Alex said and rolled my eyes.
“You have to be downstairs in 5 minutes otherwise you are walking to work.” I said and Alex frowned.
“Never stopped you before, what’s changed now?” Alex asked.
“Lex, Nothing has changed, it’s just that you have a baby under the age of one, right now he’s more important than sex.” I said and Alex huffed and threw the covers back reliving a naked Alex and I just looked him up and down and looked at Alex’s face and saw this sad look on his face like he did when he thought of his mum.
“Baby what’s the matter?” I asked as Alex got dressed.
“Nothing.” Alex said as he pulled a hoodie on.
“It’s isn’t nothing Lex, Tell me what the matter is.” I said and walked over to Alex.
“Just fuck off and give me some space yeah. If I haven’t got the fucking baby to sort out then I’ve got you riding my ass, just fuck off and give me some space. I’ll see you later.” Alex said and walked past me.
“Babe don’t walk away from me when you’re in this mood.” I said and ran after him.
“I’m not in a mood Jack, just look after Jay for me and I’ll be back after 2.” Alex said as he kissed the top of Jayden head.
“Don’t I get a kiss?” I asked and Alex looked at me and he quickly kissed me and walked out the house and I looked at Jayden who was sat on the floor and he looked at me as I picked him up.
“Your Daddy is in a grump with me.” I said and Jayden smiled as I walked into the sitting room and put him down and Jayden crawled off towards his toys.

Alex had come home and he was playing with Jayden.
“Lex can we talk?” I asked and Alex’s dad walked in behind him.
“Alex talk to Jack, I have the baby under control.” Alex’s Dad said and Alex sighed and he got up and walked past me and we headed outside.
“Alex, what is the matter? You have been in foul mood all day.” I said and Alex started smoking.
“And I said it doesn’t matter.” Alex said.
“Yes It does Alex! Christ you have been in a foul mood all fucking day because I wouldn’t have sex with you this morning? Thought what we had was more than just sex Alex.” I said.
“It is more than sex, what we have is more than sex Jack but I... I don’t know.” Alex said quietly and he sat on the floor and I sat down next to him.
“Come on, We’ve been together for nearly 2 years and best friends for 3 years. I was here for you when the accident happened. You can talk to me Lex.” I said and Alex looked at me.
“Am I losing you Jack?” Alex whispered and I noticed tears in his eyes.
“What!? No baby, no you are not losing you.” I said and pulled Alex onto my lap and held him close to me and Alex broke down but this was a different break down from the ones he had because of Jayden, this was the type of breakdown that if I didn’t do anything then Alex would do something stupid and I couldn’t let Alex do that.
“I’ve lost Mum, I’m losing you. I can’t lose anymore people I love.” Alex sobbed into my chest.
“Baby, you are not losing me. Yes you have a child and we haven’t be able to do the stuff we used to do. But I’m not going anywhere Lex, I love you to bits and I would never leave you.” I said softly.
“Yes I am, I lose everything I touch.” Alex sobbed and he got up and started to pace as he got himself another cigarette.
I stood up and watched Alex as he paced.
“Alex you need to listen to me, I am here and I would never leave you.” I said as I stood in front of Alex and he walked into me and I made him look at me.
“People say that but they leave, they always leave Jack.” Alex said as he pushed me away and started to pace again and Alex’s dad opened the door.
“Just fuck off and leave me alone!” Alex shouted.
“Peter, take Jay back inside, can you look after him tonight as Alex is in no fit state to look after Jay tonight.” I said seriously and Alex’s dad just nodded and took Jay back inside.
“Babe, listen to me. I’m not like anyone else am I?” I said and Alex stopped and looked at me as he shook his head.
“I’m going to be here, right beside you, every step of the way Baby. Just like we said at the beginning it’s just me and you, and now Jay since we can’t really leave Jay out.” I said and Alex smiled slightly as he walked over to me and walked into my chest where I wrapped my arms around him.
“I love you, with all my heart.” I said into his hair and Alex sniffed.
“I love you too.” Alex whispered into my chest and I bent down and picked him up and I walked inside and went upstairs to our room.

I sat Alex on our bed and went over and shut the door.
“Where’s Jay?” Alex asked quietly as I walked back over to him.
“He’s spending the night with grandpa, Think after tonight you could do with a break and we can have some couple time.” I said softly as Alex looked at me.
“I know.” I whispered as I sat down and Alex looked away.
“Please don’t tell dad, he’ll have Jay taking away from me and tell me I’m unfit to be his dad.” Alex said as he started to cry again.
“Hey, I’m not going to tell him because this is a one off, but if you hurt yourself again I have no choice but to tell him. Well if he tried he would have to get through me first as nobody is going to hurt you or Jay.” I said and made Alex look at me again.
“Promise?” Alex asked quietly and I wiped the tear which was falling down Alex’s cheek and I kissed his forehead.
“Promise.” I said quietly and Alex looked at me.
“Is there anything you would like me to do?” I asked and Alex smiled.
“Love me.” Alex whispered and I kissed him softly and in a loving way which Alex returned as I cupped his face in my hand as I gently pushed Alex on the bed a bit better than how Alex was on the bed and I moved myself so I was hovering above Alex and I pulled back for air.
“You want me to stop or keep going?” I asked softly.
“Keep going.” Alex said and I smiled as I bent down and I brushed my lips against Alex’s lips and I pulled back again and rested my forehead against Alex’s.
“I love you and I hate it when you go bat shit on me.” I said softly and Alex looked down and I rested my hand on his cheek again which made him look at me.
“I’m sorry.” I whispered and I kissed Alex softly.
“All is forgiven.” I murmured and I worked on slowly taking Alex’s top off.

We took it in turns to get each other out of our clothes and when we was both fully naked we took the sight of each other in where Alex smiled shyly at me.
“So you can get naked for all the girls and make a baby with no problem, but with me you get all shy.” I said and Alex playfully hit my chest.
“They was all one night stands, I get to have you all to myself.” Alex said quietly and I smiled at him.
“You want to stay like this or carry on?” I asked and Alex shrugged his shoulders.
“I want sex but at the same time I can happily go to sleep cuddled up to you naked.” Alex said and I smiled and I kissed Alex and I slipped my tongue into his mouth and our tongues started to fight for dominance but Alex allowed me to win.
I pulled back and I looked at Alex as I started to work down his body and when I got to his collarbone I bit and sucked hoping to leave a mark on Alex and Alex chuckled as he knew his dad would say something about this.
I moved down to Alex’s nipples and started to lick one and the same on the other nipple and I sucked on one which made Alex moan softly and I looked up at him and smirked as I carried on making my way down his body this time I ran my tongue down his body and when I got to his hips and I marked him again and I gripped hold of his hips hard enough to leave bruises in the morning and dragged him down towards me which made Alex laugh and he got hold of some of kept hair and pulled it towards him and I had no choice but to follow because it bloody hurt when he pulled my hair.
“Don’t pull my hair, it hurts and I don’t like it.” I said and Alex smiled softly at me.
“I’m sorry.” Alex mumbled as he kissed me and he hooked a leg round my waist.
“I’ve got you, don’t worry.” I whispered against his lips as my fingertips gently ran down his body and I moved down his body.

“How do you feel?” I asked as I cuddled up to Alex.
“Better.” Alex mumbled as he rolled over to face me and I smiled and looked down to his collarbone and saw the group of bruises forming there.
We heard Jayden cry from the other end of the house and Alex looked at me.
“No, you need a break and some decent sleep Lex.” I said and Alex yawned.
“I’m not tired.” Alex whispered as he closed his eyes.
“Yeah you are, but don’t fight it. Let yourself rest.” I whispered into his hair and I kissed the top of his head.
“Roll over, let me cuddle you.” Alex mumbled and I rolled over and felt Alex Cuddle into my back.
“It’s been a while since I’ve had cuddles like this from you.” I said and Alex kissed my shoulder biting it gently.
“You deserve it.” Alex said quietly.
“So dealing with you losing your shit and giving you sex will let me get cuddles damn should of known sooner.” I chuckled and I felt Alex smile against my back.
“Pretty much.” Alex yawned and I smiled as I looked for Alex’s hand and when I found it I caught hold of it.
I heard the door open and I looked up and saw Alex’s dad standing there with the baby looking like he didn’t know what to do.
“He won’t settle, all he is doing is crying.” Alex’s Dad said.
“Give him his dummy or a bottle. Or let him sleep in bed with you.” I yawned and Alex’s dad sighed.
“Is Lex okay?” Alex’s Dad asked.
“Yeah, he just needed some love and a break from the baby.” I said Alex’s dad smiled and I think he was going to give it another go with Jay as he walked out the room and shut the door behind him.

Alex sighed loudly behind me and I settled down and went to sleep.

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