It'd been six months that I had been out of rehab not that I'd actually told my parents or even Alex that I was out the only person that knew was Adam and Alyssa. It was kinda stupid me not telling them since I was still living in Baltimore but about a twenty minute drive away from my parents house, I'd gotten an apartment out here with Alyssa and the whole reason I hadn't told anyone that I was out was because I didn't feel ready to see them again, I was getting my life back on track and I was helping Alyssa at the same time sort her's out too.

Everyone still thought I was in rehab, they'd call me nearly every other day and that was the story I stayed with when I released myself after I had made enough progress to leave. It was stupid really especially since I was still with Alex yet for now six months of our relationship I'd been lying to him and he'd been waiting for me to come back so that's why I made the decision today to go and see my parents, my brother and sister and to see Alex because I guess it was time I really told them the truth after all they did deserve that. I knew what the outcome would be, I knew already that Alex would break up with me because I'd break up with him if he did that to me but if I really loved Alex as much as I thought I did then I knew that I needed to know the truth, he deserved it.

I decided to make myself as nice looking as I could not that I had much to work with, I wore a blue skater skirt with a white top tucked in, my blue denim jacket and my black doc's. I stared at back at my reflection in the mirror, I didn't completly hate how I looked today even though I knew that I'd never be fully happy with my apperance, it was nice to not want to throw up whenever I saw myself in the mirror. I clipped my fringe back with some bobby pins and left the rest straight and long my hair now reaching just above my waist. I grabbed my makeup bag putting on my black eyeliner flicking it at the ends then applying generous amounts of mascara to the top lashes before putting on some clear lipgloss and I was ready to go.

I went downstairs saying goodbye to Alyssa on the way then going into Adam's car since he was waiting outside for me, he was part of the reason I was telling everyone now because he said that my parents always asked him if I was really okay since he was my bestfriend and I'd tell him everything and I guess Adam lying to them made him feel guilty since he usually was a pretty honest guy. We drove the twenty minute drive in mostly silence Adam only speaking a few times to me to ask me if I liked the song that was playing on the radio.

We pulled up outside my parents house, I took a large gulp suddenly panicking, what if they all hated me because I'd lied to them? What if they couldn't understand where I was coming from and why I needed the time away from everyone by myself? What if Alex hated me? I honestly didn't know how I was going to deal with this, maybe I should just go home and not do this at least not today- maybe another time.

"Ready to go?" Adam said switching off the engine and pushing his car door open.

I shook my head a few times, taking a deep breath to calm myself.

"I can't do this Adam, they're going to hate me they're all going to hate me." I said almost bursting into tears.

"They're not going to hate you Georgia, they might be mad at first I don't know they might even be relieved but I'll be at your side the entire time and if they start having a proper go I'll stick up for you and tell them to fuck off and we can leave. You need to make them listen to you fully before they speak or comment on it."

"I'm so scared, I'm gonna lose everything."

"If you're talking about Alex then if he breaks up with you it's his loss but if he really loves you he'll understand why you did what you did alright? But you need to get this over with because the longer you leave it the harder it will get and the more upset they'll be about it."

"Fine. Okay let's go." I said trembling as I pushed my car door open and hopped out.

Adam put his arm around my shoulders as I rang the doorbell and waited for someone to answer it, less than a minute later my mum answered the door, an apron wrapped around her waist, her face broke out into a huge smile when she saw me and she pulled me into hug holding me tightly and pulling me inside.

"Bassam come here, Georgia's back!" My mum shouted.

My dad quickly came into the hallway pulling me into another tight hug. I pulled back from him to see Jack come into the room pulling me into another hug. Bloody hell how many hugs was I going to get today.

"We've missed you so much!" My mum exclaimed wiping the falling tears from her face.

Wow maybe I had left this too long, how was I meant to tell them now that I had stayed away from them on purpose without sounding so selfish.

"Ten months without my little sis' it's been amazing!" Jack joked.

I punched him softly in the arm. "Ha, you're well funny Jack." I said sarcastically.

"Wait, I gotta text Alex and tell him to come over here he's gonna be stoked!" Jack said pulling his phone and typing out a text to Alex.

"Do you want a drink or anything sweetie?" My mum asked.

"Water's fine please." I replied maybe the water would settle my nerves.

My mum ran me a glass of water and handed it to me and I followed her into the living room, Adam sat down next to me and Jack as I sipped on my water waiting for Alex to arrive. Luckily we didn't have to wait long before we heard the doorbell ring about twenty times.

"Georgia, you go get it it's your boyfriend" Jack said.

I placed my water down on the side, getting up and opening the door. Alex came inside the biggest smile on his face, it was adorable. Alex pulled me into a hug straight away before smashing his lips too mine.

"You don't understand how much I've fucking missed that." Alex said breathlessly as he pulled away after a few moments.

"Me too." I replied honestly.

"The last ten months have been hell, I've missed you so much Georgia, not being able to see you for so long was killing me but now that you're back I'm never gonna let you out of my sight."

"Well aren't you a cutie." I said pressing my lips to Alex's once more before grabbing his hand and taking him into the living room.

I told Alex to sit down as I stood by the wall. It was time to tell everyone the truth, the moment I had been dreading. Everyone was looking at me with such happy faces, waiting to listen to anything I was about to say. Adam gave me a smile of encouragment, at least I knew he wouldn't hate me after this.

"I kind of have a confession to make." I started off.

I looked at everyone's once happy faces fall into confused frowns.

"I-I don't really know how to say this without you all hating me and you have to understand this is really hard for me to tell you so I need you to hear me out and listen to everything I have to say and then you can say whatever you want at the end. I didn't just get out of rehab, I got out about six months ago. I was there for four months and then they thought that I was ready to leave but they gave me lots of advice and stuff so I could cope out in the big wide world by myself and I really took what they said on board. They told me that I should properly get used to living by myself for a few weeks so I could get into a routine so I could keep myself in recovery and that's what I did, I didn't want to tell you guys that I was out because I felt like I needed to make a fresh start by myself and start dealing with my problems on my own without bringing all of you down- like I always do. One of the girls that was in rehab with me and I became quite close friends with lives with me now in an apartment, it's about a twenty minute drive from here. Together we're both helping each other get through this day by day making sure we both stay in recovery. As the weeks went on I found it harder and harder to come back to reality, I couldn't bring myself to tell you all that I was out because I was worried that if I did I'd slip back out of recovery again and ruin everything, I thought that if I stayed well away you'd be able to get on with your lives and be fine without me for the time being, it's not like I'm that important anyway. I-I guess I didn't really think about anyone else but myself and I'm so sorry for that but even when I was in rehab all they kept constantly saying is "you need to get better for yourself not for others because you are just as important" and I knew that if I came back as soon as I got out I wouldn't get better. I'm so so sorry for lying to you, you don't even understand how bad I feel and I know now you properly all hate me and want nothing to do with me, I get that but I just wanted you all to know the truth." I said biting my lip in an attempt not to burst into tears.

I looked over at my parents who were sitting there in disbelief, Jack wasn't even really looking at me he just looked in deep thought and Alex well I couldn't even tell what he was thinking, he was unreadable sometimes.

"Please say something." I said my voice cracking as a few tears rolled down my cheeks.

"I understand why you did it and I support your decision darling because if coming back here would have made things bad again then I'd never have been able to forgive myself, all that matters now is that you're better and you're getting better everyday." My mum said speaking first.

I breathed a sigh of relief, knowing that my mum wasn't angry at me took a huge weight off of my shoulders.

"I agree with your mum." My dad simply said.

"As much as it sucks that I haven't seen you in so long cause you're my sis, if staying away meant you getting better then I'm fine with that, it hurts that you had to lie to us but I understand that you weren't doing it to be nasty, it was just something you had to do." Jack said.

I wiped my tears away with the back of my hand, Alex still hadn't said anything.

"I uhm I don't know what to say. Half of me understands but the other half doesn't because I've been waiting for you for ten months as your boyfriend and I didn't even have a fucking clue where you actually were and trust is important in a relationship but you lied to me for six of them months and I don't know if I can trust you anymore." Alex said getting up and walking out of the room.

I stared at him as he walked away, guilt flushing through me. I knew he was going to be angry but after how my parents and Jack reacted I didn't think he was going to be that bad. I wasn't going to give up on him so easily without a fight...

Notes

sorry i havent updated in a while, i've had no motivation bc i haven't really been getting much feedback on my past few chapters so i find it hard to get motivated into writing more..