Paint You Wings
Chapter Eighteen
I stepped onto the plane, Alex's hand intwinded with mine. We found our seats, sitting down in silence. I didn't want to go, I didn't want to leave everyone I just wanted to shut my eyes and be back home with everyone.
"How're you feeling?" Alex asked.
"Like I wanna go home." I replied.
"This is the best thing for you Georgia, you need to get better, everyone wants you to."
"But how am I meant to get better when I can't have any contact with my family or friends? Alex how am I meant to get better without you?"
"You will, you can do this. Just think about it once you're better you can see us all again."
"I know. I'm gonna miss you so much Lex."
"I'm gonna miss you more. But I know you can do this and it won't be long before I see you again."
I smiled at him before putting my earphones in, I was the worst person on planes they made me feel so sick and the only way I could deal with it was to listen to music and sleep throughout the journey even though it was only an hour and a half and I'd have much preferred to stay up and talk to Alex. I shut my eyes, leaning onto Alex's shoulder for what would be the last time in two months.
*
"Your room is 109 and dinner is at 7:45 which you must attend you will get full details about everything else after dinner."
The old women said handing me a room key. I turned to Alex bracing myself for the goodbye I had been dreading. Alex pulled him arms around me holding me me tight. A few tears trickled down my cheeks, even though I was trying to hold them in.
"Hey, hey don't cry, I'll see you soon." Alex said wiping my tears away with his thumb. I nodded my head a few times, blinking back the tears and taking a deep breath.
"I love you okay? Don't forget that." Alex said pressing his lips to mine for a second before removing them.
"I love you too." I replied.
Alex squeezed my hand for the last time before walking away, until I couldn't see him anymore. I took another deep breath trying not to cry again as I began to look for my room. I took the elevator up to the third floor then I walked down the corridor to find my room, 106, 107, 108 and 109 I stood outside my room for a second before pushing the key inside the door turning it to the right then going inside. I shut the door behind me, my suitcases were already inside just by the door.
The room itself was kind of like a small apartment, there was a bed in the middle with two bedside tables beside it and a wardrobe in the corner, there was an ensuite bathroom with a shower/bath in. It was a pretty nice room, there could be worse places to spend the next two months. I began to unpack my clothes into the wardrobe, then I sat down on my bed. Exchausted, it didn't take much to tire me out. This was because I was practically a bag of bones now, I had no energy to run on at all.
7:45 came round quicker than I had expected, I grabbed my room key shoving it into my back pocket, as I went outside I followed the large group of girls and boys who seemed to be walking the same way. The dinner hall was very large it reminded me of a school dinner hall, I took a seat down by myself not wanting to join a table of people I didn't know and waited for further instruction. A girl came and sat down beside me offering me a small smile which I returned. She was even smaller than me, but she was so pretty she had sparkling green eyes and medium length brown hair which seemed to be thinning due to lack of nutrition.
"Hi, I'm Alyssa are you new here?" She asked.
"Hey, I'm Georgia and yeah I came today."
"Do you like it here?" Alyssa asked.
"I'm not sure it seems okay?"
"Its alright, i've been here for five months they won't let me go home..." Alyssa said her voice trailing off.
"Why not?" I asked.
"Because I won't eat. I don't want to and they can't keep forcing food down my throat I'm pretty sure that's illegal. I have to stay in this room at night monitored at all times so I don't try and throw up the food they managed to feed me or that I don't do anything else... They stick this needle in me everything night which pumps food and calories inside me it's disgusting."
I was kind of shocked at how much she'd admitted to me concisering I had only just met her. "
That sounds awful." I admitted.
"They'll properly warn you not to talk to me anymore, that's what they've done to everyone else."
"Warn me?" I said as a plate of food was placed in front of me. It looked disgusting, like a sloppy school dinner, I don't think you could even call this food.
"Yeah, apparently if you're friends with me there's no chance you'll get better because I'm a lost cause."
I picked the fork up swishing it around the plate, before plunging it into the mince and taking a mouthful. It was disgusting, not because it was food but because of the food it was, I wouldn't even feed my dog this, they were only giving us this because it was pumped full of calories.
"Do you not want to get better?" I asked putting my fork down.
"There's nothing wrong with me. I'm happy with how am I so I don't see how it effects anyone else."
"That's what I used to think, but then I saw how bad it was affecting my family, my friends, my boyfriend. I know I have to get better for them."
"Well I guess you're lucky then. I don't have any friends or a boyfriend and as or my family, my parents are two lawyers so they're rich I guess they don't give a fuck about me the only reason I'm here is so I'm not causing them any hassle anymore." Alyssa said her fist clenched.
I didn't know what to say but thankfully I didn't have to because a women who looked important came over to us interuppting the conversation.
"Eat now Georgia. You won't be able to leave until at least half of this is gone. As for you Alyssa I'm not even going to bother since you obviously do not care in the slightest about getting better."
"I can't eat this, it's disgusting I wouldn't even feed my dog it." I replied bluntly.
The women let out a huge sigh. "It's not always like this, our food order hasn't arrived on time so we've had to make do with what is here. I'll go and have a sandwich made for you but you must eat it all." She instructed.
"Okay." I said biting my lip.
About five minutes later the women returned with a cheese sandwich in her hand, placing the plate in front of me. She gave me a small smile before walking away again. I stared at the sandwich swallowing hard and picking it up and taking the first bite which wasn't too hard, once you were past the first bite the rest was easy.
"She seems nice." I added taking another mouthful of the sandwich.
"Ha, she's only nice to the ones who she thinks can be saved whereas she's just a bitch to me."
"Alyssa, I want to be friends with you but I can't if you have no desire to get better because I need to get better." I stated.
Alyssa stood up silently and turned round to wake away. "Wait Alyssa!" I called.
Alyssa turned around, her eyes glistened with tears. I guess she had been told numerous times that somebody couldn't be friends with her.
"I know I need to get better okay? It's just hard, I feel like nobody actually cares about me and this is my only way of having some control over my life. I've lost all of my friends because of this, no one's allowed to be friends with me because of this, my parents don't care about me they're always fobbing me off to someone else so they don't have to deal with me. I can't do this anymore." Alyssa said a few tears rolling down her cheeks.
"I care, I want you to get better. Why don't we make a sort of pact? We'll both help each other get through this, we'll motivate each other and make sure that we both finish our meals, we can do this together."
"Okay, I don't want to stop you from getting better though because of all my messed up problems, I have a lot of issues."
"Alyssa, just come sit back down. You can have the other half of the sandwich, you need to eat it then maybe they'll stop secluding you from everyone else."
Alyssa stared worringly at the other half of the sandwich, pulling the plate towards her and taking the sandwich in both hands raising it towards her mouth and taking a bite.
"You know I haven't eaten cheese in over two years, I forgot how good it tastes." Alyssa admitted.
"This is a good start y'know we've both managed to eat something, I know we can beat this."
"I hope so." At least this was a start, a start to a better future.
"How're you feeling?" Alex asked.
"Like I wanna go home." I replied.
"This is the best thing for you Georgia, you need to get better, everyone wants you to."
"But how am I meant to get better when I can't have any contact with my family or friends? Alex how am I meant to get better without you?"
"You will, you can do this. Just think about it once you're better you can see us all again."
"I know. I'm gonna miss you so much Lex."
"I'm gonna miss you more. But I know you can do this and it won't be long before I see you again."
I smiled at him before putting my earphones in, I was the worst person on planes they made me feel so sick and the only way I could deal with it was to listen to music and sleep throughout the journey even though it was only an hour and a half and I'd have much preferred to stay up and talk to Alex. I shut my eyes, leaning onto Alex's shoulder for what would be the last time in two months.
*
"Your room is 109 and dinner is at 7:45 which you must attend you will get full details about everything else after dinner."
The old women said handing me a room key. I turned to Alex bracing myself for the goodbye I had been dreading. Alex pulled him arms around me holding me me tight. A few tears trickled down my cheeks, even though I was trying to hold them in.
"Hey, hey don't cry, I'll see you soon." Alex said wiping my tears away with his thumb. I nodded my head a few times, blinking back the tears and taking a deep breath.
"I love you okay? Don't forget that." Alex said pressing his lips to mine for a second before removing them.
"I love you too." I replied.
Alex squeezed my hand for the last time before walking away, until I couldn't see him anymore. I took another deep breath trying not to cry again as I began to look for my room. I took the elevator up to the third floor then I walked down the corridor to find my room, 106, 107, 108 and 109 I stood outside my room for a second before pushing the key inside the door turning it to the right then going inside. I shut the door behind me, my suitcases were already inside just by the door.
The room itself was kind of like a small apartment, there was a bed in the middle with two bedside tables beside it and a wardrobe in the corner, there was an ensuite bathroom with a shower/bath in. It was a pretty nice room, there could be worse places to spend the next two months. I began to unpack my clothes into the wardrobe, then I sat down on my bed. Exchausted, it didn't take much to tire me out. This was because I was practically a bag of bones now, I had no energy to run on at all.
7:45 came round quicker than I had expected, I grabbed my room key shoving it into my back pocket, as I went outside I followed the large group of girls and boys who seemed to be walking the same way. The dinner hall was very large it reminded me of a school dinner hall, I took a seat down by myself not wanting to join a table of people I didn't know and waited for further instruction. A girl came and sat down beside me offering me a small smile which I returned. She was even smaller than me, but she was so pretty she had sparkling green eyes and medium length brown hair which seemed to be thinning due to lack of nutrition.
"Hi, I'm Alyssa are you new here?" She asked.
"Hey, I'm Georgia and yeah I came today."
"Do you like it here?" Alyssa asked.
"I'm not sure it seems okay?"
"Its alright, i've been here for five months they won't let me go home..." Alyssa said her voice trailing off.
"Why not?" I asked.
"Because I won't eat. I don't want to and they can't keep forcing food down my throat I'm pretty sure that's illegal. I have to stay in this room at night monitored at all times so I don't try and throw up the food they managed to feed me or that I don't do anything else... They stick this needle in me everything night which pumps food and calories inside me it's disgusting."
I was kind of shocked at how much she'd admitted to me concisering I had only just met her. "
That sounds awful." I admitted.
"They'll properly warn you not to talk to me anymore, that's what they've done to everyone else."
"Warn me?" I said as a plate of food was placed in front of me. It looked disgusting, like a sloppy school dinner, I don't think you could even call this food.
"Yeah, apparently if you're friends with me there's no chance you'll get better because I'm a lost cause."
I picked the fork up swishing it around the plate, before plunging it into the mince and taking a mouthful. It was disgusting, not because it was food but because of the food it was, I wouldn't even feed my dog this, they were only giving us this because it was pumped full of calories.
"Do you not want to get better?" I asked putting my fork down.
"There's nothing wrong with me. I'm happy with how am I so I don't see how it effects anyone else."
"That's what I used to think, but then I saw how bad it was affecting my family, my friends, my boyfriend. I know I have to get better for them."
"Well I guess you're lucky then. I don't have any friends or a boyfriend and as or my family, my parents are two lawyers so they're rich I guess they don't give a fuck about me the only reason I'm here is so I'm not causing them any hassle anymore." Alyssa said her fist clenched.
I didn't know what to say but thankfully I didn't have to because a women who looked important came over to us interuppting the conversation.
"Eat now Georgia. You won't be able to leave until at least half of this is gone. As for you Alyssa I'm not even going to bother since you obviously do not care in the slightest about getting better."
"I can't eat this, it's disgusting I wouldn't even feed my dog it." I replied bluntly.
The women let out a huge sigh. "It's not always like this, our food order hasn't arrived on time so we've had to make do with what is here. I'll go and have a sandwich made for you but you must eat it all." She instructed.
"Okay." I said biting my lip.
About five minutes later the women returned with a cheese sandwich in her hand, placing the plate in front of me. She gave me a small smile before walking away again. I stared at the sandwich swallowing hard and picking it up and taking the first bite which wasn't too hard, once you were past the first bite the rest was easy.
"She seems nice." I added taking another mouthful of the sandwich.
"Ha, she's only nice to the ones who she thinks can be saved whereas she's just a bitch to me."
"Alyssa, I want to be friends with you but I can't if you have no desire to get better because I need to get better." I stated.
Alyssa stood up silently and turned round to wake away. "Wait Alyssa!" I called.
Alyssa turned around, her eyes glistened with tears. I guess she had been told numerous times that somebody couldn't be friends with her.
"I know I need to get better okay? It's just hard, I feel like nobody actually cares about me and this is my only way of having some control over my life. I've lost all of my friends because of this, no one's allowed to be friends with me because of this, my parents don't care about me they're always fobbing me off to someone else so they don't have to deal with me. I can't do this anymore." Alyssa said a few tears rolling down her cheeks.
"I care, I want you to get better. Why don't we make a sort of pact? We'll both help each other get through this, we'll motivate each other and make sure that we both finish our meals, we can do this together."
"Okay, I don't want to stop you from getting better though because of all my messed up problems, I have a lot of issues."
"Alyssa, just come sit back down. You can have the other half of the sandwich, you need to eat it then maybe they'll stop secluding you from everyone else."
Alyssa stared worringly at the other half of the sandwich, pulling the plate towards her and taking the sandwich in both hands raising it towards her mouth and taking a bite.
"You know I haven't eaten cheese in over two years, I forgot how good it tastes." Alyssa admitted.
"This is a good start y'know we've both managed to eat something, I know we can beat this."
"I hope so." At least this was a start, a start to a better future.
Hmm, so I just stumbled across this and I'm sad to see it was never finished. I've read what you have so far and I just wanted to leave a comment letting you know I think you're a great writer. :)
If you ever choose to finish this, I will be here to read, because I think it's a great story. I really think it deserves an ending. :') Georgia and Alex have been through a lot; I think they deserve a happy ending, but that's just me. :P
Maybe this comment will inspire you to finish the story. :)
2/22/16