Life isn't a fashion statement.

Alex's POV

"Alex, I know you are dying right now but can you at least make some effort of looking alive and not looking like the walking dead." Jack said as he talked to the photographer.
"I'm seriously hungover okay, I have a 2 nights worth of hangover on the go here." I said and Jack looked at me seriously.
"Alex come here please." Jack said and I groaned and walked over to Jack who finished talking to the photographer.

"Look, I know your dying because I feel the same right now but I need you to survive this day and then I'm able to look at what you have done and send it to my contacts. But for that to happen you seriously need a trip to the make up girls because you look like shit." Jack said and spun me round facing the make up girls.
"Okay but first. I'm going to my house tonight, am I going on my own or are you joining me?" I asked and looked at Jack.
"I'll join you. Now go, oh before I forget. When you are done meet me at my office." Jack said and turned round and walked off.
I smiled to myself and walked to the make up girls.

Once I was finished work it was gone 5 in the evening. In was hoping that Jack was still in his office and not at his hotel.
I got to Jacks office and looked in and saw this guy sat on Jacks lap kissing Jack and Jack was kissing back and it felt like someone had just stabbed me in the chest.
I turned round and walked home and hoped that I didn't cry until I got home.

I got home and Quinn ran over and stopped when she saw me.
"Lex, what's up?" Quinn asked.
"Turns out the person I actually like for once is actually fucking another guy." I said loudly and ball my hands into a fist.
"Jack? No he thinks the world of you and you two aren't even together yet." Quinn said.
"Then explain to me how I saw another guy on his lap kissing him, and Jack was kissing him back! I was fucking blind and stupid to think anyone would actually fucking wanted to be with me." I said and walked past Quinn and stormed into my room slamming the door behind me and sliding down the door and just started to cry.

I had moved from the floor to my bed with my back facing the door.
"Alex?" I heard Quinn say on the otherwise of the door.
I didn't say anything but Quinn let herself in and she walked over and climbed onto my bed and cuddled into my back and her head resting on my shoulder.
"If I was a guy and I was gay, I would be with you." Quinn said quietly and I smiled a little and sniffed.
"I was stupid to think he actually cared." I said quietly and felt a tear roll down my cheek and Quinn wiped it away and kissed my cheek.
"You weren't stupid Lex, you was just in love." Quinn said.
"I was to blind and stupid to think that someone as handsome and rich as Jack would want to be with me." I said sniffing loudly.
"Look, have a talk with Jack and get his side of things." Quinn said quietly.
"Like that will make everything okay." I scoffed and picked at the wall.
"It might not, but at least you'll know the truth." Quinn said and she sat up.
"Can I talk to him please." Jack said.
"If you want me just shout." Quinn said and kissed the side of my head.
"Your a right bastard." Quinn said and slapped Jack hard round the face and walked out the room.
I sat up and looked away from Jack as he walked into my room nursing his cheek and he stopped when he got to my bed.
"Can I sit on your bed?" Jack asked.
"If you must." I sniffed and I felt my bed dip.

"Alex I can explain." Jack said and I looked at him.
"I will not be your bit of the side. I've had enough of being someone's seconds. I just want to be someone's first." I said and looked away from him.
"Okay, I can really understand that." Jack said.
"You really don't understand." I said through gritted teeth.
" Alright, when I came here I was lonely I just want to have some company so I paid for someone to have sex with." Jack said.
I shut my eyes and took a deep breath and tried not to think about that.
"The person who you saw was the person I was having sex with. I was telling him that I didn't need his services anymore because I have found someone who I want to be with and who generally makes me really happy." Jack said and I looked at him.
"That doesn't help with what I'm feeling right now. You need to leave." I said and Jack didn't move.
"Then tell me how you feel." Jack said.
"I feel fucking betrayed, I was actually really falling for you Jack. For once I felt like my life might actually change for the better and not for the worst. But I was wrong, just like how I'm." I said and got up and Jack caught hold of my hand.
"Get the fuck off me." I growled and Jack let my hand go and I went upstairs and pulled my shoes on and walked out slamming the door behind me.

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