Life isn't a fashion statement.

Jacks POV

I sighed loudly as Alex walked out and I lent against his wall and I heard someone come downstairs.
"Where's Alex?" Beth asked.
"Walked out." I said sadly and put my hand to my cheek as it really hurt from where Quinn slapped me.
"Did you explain to him?" Beth asked.
"Yes I fucking explained to him but he shut me out and walked out. I fucked us up way before we even fucking started." I ranted and looked down.
"Give Alex some time and let him get his head round this and he'll get there. I know if me and Quinn fight she always brings me flowers which cheer me up. I know that even guys are the same as us girls." Beth said and walked over and sat on Alex's bed.
"Just give Alex some space and time and he'll get over this. He just needs to get his head round it all first." Beth said and Alex's phone went off.
Beth answered it.
"Quinn he left his phone here." Beth said and Quinn came running down the stairs and walked into Alex's room.

"What did you do to Alex!" Quinn said loudly.
"I did nothing, all I said to him was I paid for someone to have sex with. That's all I said to him and then he ran off." I said.
"Wasn't Alex..." Beth started and Quinn nodded.
"Yes he was. Christ how could I be so stupid." Quinn said and ran her hands through her hair.
"Alex has been gone for nearly 3 hours." Beth said.
"Wait this a bad thing?" I asked completely confused.
"Has Alex told you about his self harm and eating disorder?" Quinn asked.
"Yeah but only briefly." I said.
"Did he tell you the time he was put into hospital because he tried to kill himself?" She asked and she had tears in her eyes.
"No he didn't." I said quietly.
"If Alex is gone for more than 2 hours and either us don't know where he is then we have to call the police because he is a risk to himself." Beth said.
"But he'll go to the park won't he?" I asked.
"He'll go where he will feel close to his sister. That'll be either at the park or the centre of London by the Thames." Quinn said.
"Where's his sister?" I asked as I never hear Alex talk about his family.
"That's not for us to tell. We need to go looking for Alex. Take Alex's phone and phone us if you find him or if he's not there." Quinn said and we all got up and put our shoes on and went looking for Alex.

I pretty much looked all round the park and I didn't find Alex.
I was going to give up when I saw someone sat in the floor so I went over and had look.
"Alex?" I said and looked and I knew it was Alex.
I knelt in front of him and made him look at me.
"Jesus Alex your freezing." I said and took my coat off and put it round his shoulders.
Alex pulled the coat round him more.
I called Quinn and told her I found Alex and that I was going to try and bring him home and if I didn't come back in an hour then I would be at my hotel room.
"Come on, its cold out here." I said and Alex shook his head and a couple of tears fell.
I sat in front of him and wiped some tears which was rolling down his cheeks.
"Everyone is worried about you." I said quietly and Alex looked at me.
"They shouldn't be, its not as if I mean anything to anyone." Alex said quietly.
"You mean a lot to me, Quinn and Beth." I said and and Alex shook his head.
"I mean nothing to you Jack. I'm just your model who can fuck you every now and then." Alex said and some more tears fell.
"That's not true Alex." I said and I pulled Alex into my chest where Alex proper lost it and just cried.

After a while Alex stopped crying and he pulled away from me and looked down while sniffing loudly.
"Let's go back to the hotel where you can have a nice bath and you can have some sleep." I said and moved some hair out his eyes.
"What about Quinn and Beth?" Alex asked his voice breaking every now and then from where he's been crying.
"I told them that I found you and that if we aren't back within a hour then we'll be at the hotel." I said and Alex nodded.
"Did they tell you I was suicidal?" He asked and picked at the grass.
"Yeah they did. But that doesn't make me feel anything less of you." I said and Alex smiled a little.
"Most people would of ran a mile by now." Alex said.
"Well I'm not like most people." I said and Alex chuckled.
"Can we go?" I asked and Alex thought about it and nodded.
"Do you need a hand?" I asked and Alex shook his head and got up but he nearly fell over but I managed to catch him.
"Thanks." Alex whispered.
I linked my arm with Alex's and helped him walk to the hotel.

We got to my room and I sat Alex on the bed and looked him over a bit better now there was light.
"Your face." Alex whispered and put his hand on my cheek which still had a red hand print on it.
"Have to admit Quinn has a good slap on her." I said and Alex smiled a little.
"I'm sorry." I said quietly and looked down.
I felt a pair of arms wrap round my neck and I looked and saw Alex was giving me a hug so I returned his hug.
"You have nothing to be sorry for." Alex said quietly and moved his head and kissed my cheek.
"Let's run you a bath to warm you up a little and I'll get room service to bring you a coffee or whatever you want to warm you up." I said and Alex smiled.
"I would like a bottle of wine." Alex said and sat back on the bed.
"I meant a hot drink not alcoholic drink." I said seriously.
"Okay, I'll have a coffee and a bottle of wine." Alex said.
I knew I wasn't going to win this battle so I gave in.

Alex had his bath so he was now sat on the balcony in my way to big jumper and my pants while drinking his wine but he was now on his second bottle while I was still on my first.
"So you have any siblings?" Alex asked as he sat back in the chair watching me closely.
"I have 2 older brothers." I said and Alex chuckled a little.
"What about you?" I asked.
"I had a older sister." Alex said and looked down.
"What happened to her?" I asked carefully.
"She killed herself when I was 16. It still hurts." Alex said quietly.
"I understand." I said and put my hand on his knee which made Alex look at my hand and then he rested his head on my shoulder.
"She would of been 25." Alex whispered.
"You don't have to talk about it, talk about her when you are ready to talk." I said and I felt Alex smile.
"Dunno about you but I feel like going to be and watching a film." I said and Alex moved and nodded.
"I like that idea although I might just pass out to be honest." Alex said and went to get up but fell back in his seat which made him laugh.
"Here let me carry you." I said and picked Alex up and he was light.
"I have legs you know." Alex said as he wrapped his arms round my neck.
"Your legs are very uncoordinated with the rest of your body." I said and Alex laughed.
"That's because I can't feel my legs." Alex said and I looked at him.
I just shook my head at him and put Alex in the bed.
I climbed over Alex and got in my side of bed and started to watch a film.

Alex was passed out asleep and I was just watching him sleep.
Alex rolled over and cuddled into my chest and sighed loudly.
I smiled and moved some hair away from his eyes which made him slap himself in the face since he was trying to hit my hand but it made me chuckle quietly to myself.
I got myself comfy and fell asleep as well.

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