Life isn't a fashion statement.

Alex’s POV

When I woke up Jack was still asleep cuddled into my side which made me smile and I started to mess with his hair which made me smile and I kissed the top of his head which made Jack sigh loudly and he slowly began to wake up.
I looked at the end of the bed and saw Hank lead on the bed using Jack’s leg as a head rest.
”My leg is wet and it feels disgusting.” Jack said sleepily and pulled the covers up towards his chin.
”I think Hank has dribbled on your leg.” I said which made Jack groan.
”Lovely, but at least he on my side of the bed snoring.” Jack said and I couldn’t help but chuckle.
”But you get me instead.” I said and Jack pulled my face down and kissed me which I returned.
”I would rather have you than cuddling up to Hank.” Jack said and I smiled and kissed him again.
”Come and have a shower with me.” Jack said quietly and looked at me.
”Not going to be able to have sex if your in a different room to me.” I said and Jack smirked at me and he sat up which woke Hank up.
”We should stop him getting on our bed, because we need a new duvet as well as putting the covers onto wash and put clean ones on.” Jack said as we looked at Hank who couldn’t give a shit what we was saying because at the end of the day Hank knew we wouldn’t keep the rules for long.
”Not his fault he drools a lot, any way stop your moaning and get in the shower and I’ll join you after I’ve taken Hank out for a pee and a shit if he wants one.” I said and pulled some pants on and one of Jack’s hoodies and walked out the room with Hank following me.

”We need to talk about if your going back to work or not.” Jack said as he made me a tea and himself a coffee as I was sat round the island eating some fruit for breakfast and I looked at him.
”I’m not going back. Yeah when I said it the last time that cunt raped me and I was in a really bad place but I’ve just gotten myself better Jack, I don’t want to go back and have all the memories of what he did to me come flooding back and make me go back down to bottom. The last year and a half have been me hitting my rock bottom and building myself back up again, I’m not risking it Jack.” I said and Jack handed me my tea which made me smile at him as I munch on a bit of melon.
”You sure? I’m not pushing you to go back to work because you really don’t need to work, not with what I earn and have saved. I just want to make sure that you are serious about not going back there.” Jack said and I caught hold of his hand.
”Babe, I’m sure I don’t want to go back. I’ll find something different to do, might not be just yet because I still need to think about myself at the moment. But in time I will find a job, one which accepts me for being me. Now you need to stop worrying about me.” I said and Jack looked down.
”Baby talk to me, it works both ways. This is how this relationship works, I tell you things and you tell me things. Especially after what I have put you through because it must of been tough for you.” I said and Jack sighed and let go of my hand and I watched him walk to the sitting room and him sitting on the sofa.

I quickly stuffed some melon in my mouth and grabbed mine and Jack’s drinks and went over to the sitting room and put our drinks down on the coffee table and got myself comfy on the sofa which made Jack look at me and he reached for his drink and he also got himself comfy but we remained in silence.
”Talk to me Jack, you’re starting to worry me now.” I said and Jack looked at me but still refused to speak which made me sigh and look down as well.
”Have you cheated on me while I was away?” I asked and looked at Jack who looked at me shocked.
“I won’t go off on one if you have, I can understand. I was away for a year and I know you was lonely without me being here as well.” I said preparing myself for the answer.
”I would never dream on cheating on you. I’m 100% committed to you and I will always be committed to you.” Jack said and I looked at him.
”Then tell me what the matter is, I need to make sure that nothing is going to happen to you Jack. You are all what I have and I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if something happened to you. It’s bad enough that I left you for so long in the inpatients, I was hoping to be out of there for 6 months not for a year.” I said quickly and Jack put his hand on my leg.
”Do you remember what happened on your second month at the inpatients?” Jack asked and I shook my head as I was proper losing my mind during that month so I don’t really remember what happened that month but I had a feeling that Jack was going to tell me.
”I got a call from Dr Jones saying that you had ran away from the inpatients and nobody knew where you had gone. I went fucking crazy on him because you was really suicidal and you was back on the tube again because you had refused to eat. Luckily I knew where you would go and I found you passed out you had foam or whatever it was called coming out of your mouth Lex.” Jack said and sniffed and I saw some tears roll down his cheeks which I wiped away and Jack looked at me.
”Your heart actually stopped beating Lex, they was literally about to call it time when you actually started to breath again. You had taken a really bad overdose of some drug and you had self harmed as well.” Jack said and I looked at him confused because I seriously don’t remember doing any of this.
Jack caught hold of my arm and turned it round and there was a new scar going down my arm and it must of been deep since the scar was big.
”I..I..I don’t remember any of this. I thought the scar was from the last time I self harmed.” I said and looked at the scar suddenly feeling disappointed in myself.
”It was the worst month of my life Lex, I nearly lost you. Every time I looked at you in that hospital my heart broke, the person I had fallen in love with and love more than anything in the world was literally dying in front of me and I didn’t know what to do Lex.” Jack said and he made me look at him.
”Why don’t I remember waking up in the hospital?” I asked confused and I felt Jack wipe a tear away which had rolled down my cheek.
”They had you drugged up pretty much the whole time you was there because you was being a right cunt towards everyone, even me.” Jack said and I looked down and I stood up and went outside and sat on the garden sofa we had and I felt myself begin to cry until I fell asleep.

When I woke up I could smell something being cooked in the kitchen and I was on the sofa with the duvet over me and Jack’s pillow under my head.
”Hey babe.” Jack said quietly as he walked over and lifted my head up and he sat down and put my head down on his lap and he started to mess with my hair.
”I’m sorry.” I said and Jack looked at me.
”Don’t say sorry, I should of known that something was off when I saw you a week earlier.” Jack said quietly and I sighed.
“Why are you still with me? Normally people would of gone nope and would of just left me losing my marbles and left me to kill myself.” I said quietly and Jack put his hand on my cheek and stroked my cheek softly.
”I’m with you because I love you dick head. Well I’m not like normal people because I’m stuck with you and I always want to be stuck with you.” Jack said and lent down and kissed me which I returned.
”What are you cooking? It smells lush.” I said and felt myself getting hungry.
”Food. We are having date night, I have been slaving over the cooker all afternoon while you passed out on the sofa. Then we are going to cuddle on the sofa and watch Disney films.” Jack said and I looked at him and smiled.
”Disney? You are definitely my fiancé. But we don’t have any of the films.” I said confused.
”I have my ways now up, I need to see what the food is doing. In the mean time you are going to get up and have a shower and put some clean clothes on.” Jack said as I sat up and got up and looked at Jack.
”I love you.” Jack said and I smiled back and bent down and kissed Jack.
”I love you too.” I said quietly and went and had a shower.

”That was absolutely amazing, you need to cook more often.” I said as me and Jack got comfy for our marathon of Disney films.
”Only on special occasions I will cook, or if we have date night at home.” Jack said and I smiled.
We sat in a comfortable silence and watched a few films.
When I next looked Jack was falling asleep.
”Baby lie down.” I said quietly which made Jack wake up and look at me.
”What?” Jack asked sleepily.
”Lie down, I’ll make myself comfortable around you.” I whispered as I stood up and Jack nodded and he lead down and got comfy and I did the same.
”Babe.” Jack said quietly and I looked at him.
”Yeah.” I said and I felt Jack’s arm round my waist.
”Love you.” Jack mumbled.
”Love you too.” I said and kissed the side of Jack’s mouth and watch Disney films until I fell asleep.

Notes

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