Life isn't a fashion statement.

Alex's POV

"Why am I being dragged to this? It should be you and Beth since your the two getting married." I moaned to Quinn as she was dragging me dress shopping.
"Because she's not allowed to see me, anyway I need my best friend to help me choose because you have better taste than me." Quinn said.
"You just saying that because I'm with dumbass over here." I said and pointed behind me where Jack was.
"Fuck you." Jack said.
"Would but we have guest round so can't well do that." I said and Quinn said.
"Anyway, your leaving me for work, it's your fault I have to go through the pain of dress shopping when I'm actually fucking clueless in what I'm doing." I said and Quinn chuckled and Jack walked towards me and wrapped his arms round my waist.
"Shut up you love it really." Jack said.
"So I'm a drag queen and make myself look like a fucking hot woman, quite like being a man thanks." I said and Jack shook his head.
"Be good and I'll see you later." Jack said and kissed me which I returned.
"Save me please." I said quietly and Jack chuckled, kissing me again.
"You need some down time with Quinn, you have seen her since the arm thing." Jack said quietly.
"But I don't want you to leave." I pouted.
"You'll see me later. Love you." Jack said and kissed the end of my nose and walked off.
I already felt empty without Jack by my side.
"Let's have a coffee and go shopping yeah?" Quinn said and I looked at her and smiled while nodding.

Me and Quinn had fished looking for dresses with not much success so we was sat having something to eat and yet another coffee.
I was just picking at my food and I noticed Quinn looking at me worryingly.
"Lex, tell me what's up. You've been withdrawn all day, that's not like you." Quinn said.
I shook my head.
"It doesn't matter Quinn." I said quietly.
"Alex it does matter. Have you and Jack fallen out? Has Jack hit you?" Quinn said seriously.
"Jack hasn't hit me and we haven't fallen out." I said.
"Alex tell me now!" Quinn said in her mother hen voice.
"I've relapsed Quinn. Don't be mad at me." I said and looked down.
"Lex, you was doing so well, when did this happen?" Quinn said softly.
"I relapsed about a month ago, and Jack has know for about a week." I said and all I wanted right now was Jack.
"Oh Lex. You could of told me, was this when you collapsed?" Quinn said.
"The day I collapsed I was on my 3rd day of a fast. I self harms the night before." I said quietly having this sense that Quinn was going to shout at me but she didn't.
"Let's have this conversation somewhere more private yeah? You look like you could do with a Hank cuddle." Quinn said and a small smile found its way to my lips as I nodded.
"But first you need to have three big mouthfuls of food before we go." Quinn said seriously.
I rolled my eyes at her and had three mouthful of food and we went back to mine.

"Come on, open up to me." Quinn said as we sat in the sitting room and Hank joined us and was sat in the gap of my legs as I made a fuss of him.
"I sort of had a breakdown 3 days ago. I self harmed and I did t know what to do all I could do was cry and self harm." I said and looks down.
"Alex sweetie, you could of come and talk to me." Quinn said.
"I don't know why I didn't come and talk to you or Jack. I felt disconnected from everything and everyone part from Jack. It's like I'm losing control and I feel like I have nothing to hold onto to stop me falling." I said and looked down and started to mess with Hanks ears.
"Lex, you know me, Beth and Jack are always here for you. You can hold onto us and we'll stop you from falling. We've got your back." Quinn said and put her ha d on my knee.
"When did you last eat without including today?" Quinn asked.
"I had a whole tub of yoghurt to myself 2 days ago. I have been 4 days clean from self harm." I said and I could hear Quinn smile.
"Lex look at me." Quinn said softly and I looked her and a couple of tears fell.
"Shush, don't cry sweetie." Quinn said quietly and softly and moved a she was sat next to me and pulled me to her side and she wiped the tears away.
"It's okay, we've got you." Quinn whispered and kissed the top of my head.
"Have you spoken to Jack about this?" Quinn asked and I nodded.
"Yeah, we just have to get through the next 2 weeks and we're going somewhere nice and hot but Jack won't say where though. It's annoying." I said and Quinn chuckled.
"Well that will be nice to get out of here." Quinn said and started to mess with my hair which made me smile.

Jack came home and Quinn had words with him about what I said.
We was both sat in the hot tub with a few bottles of beers.
"How have you been today?" Jack asked.
"Okay, Quinn made me eat, I cried because my emotions are fucking everywhere." I said and Jack smiled and pulled me to his side.
"How was your day?" I asked and looked at Jack.
"It's been okay, missed seeing your face in my office and having our lunch dates." Jack said and traced patterns on my shoulders which made me smile.
"I miss our lunch dates as well." I said and stood up and got out the hot tub and Jack was hot on my tail.
"Where you going?" Jack asked and wrapped his arms round my waist and picked me up which made me seqal like a girl which made Jack laugh.
"Put me down." I said and Jack put me down and spun me round and he kissed me hard which I returned.
Jack pulled away and I looked at him and smiled a shy smile at him.
"Bath then bed?" Jack asked.
"Well I was hoping sex." I said and Jack pinned me against him and the wall which sort of frightened me.
"Who said sex wasn't going to happen." Jack said and he backed of a little which made me relax straight away.
I smiled at Jack which me returned and kissed the end of my nose and walked off.
I walked after him and just jumped on his back.

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