Life isn't a fashion statement.

Alex's POV

By the time me and Jack got to this party it was in full swing.
"Feel kinda awkward that everyone is almost drunk and we are still sober." I said and Jack chuckled and caught hold of my hand and we went to the bar.
"Which is why we are going to play catch up with everyone." Jack said and hand me a shot.
"Drink up babe." He smiled and we both did shots until we was just as drunk as everyone else.

Me and Jack was outside smoking and messing around when we heard someone come outside.
"Jack Barakat, thought you had forgotten about coming. Since you have been so busy lately." A voice said which made me and Jack stop and look at this person.
"George, how could I forget about coming and being busy? I could never be busy on missing you in a suit." Jack said and walked over George into a hug which George returned.
"You look good in a suit such dress in one more often." Jack said which made me jealous for some reason because I normally don't get jealous.
There was some sort of spark between the pair of them which made me turn round and left them too it.

I was sat at the bar when someone came over.
"What's a good looking guy like you sitting at a bar on your own." A woman said and I look at her.
"I'm gay and I'm with someone." I said.
"Come on, there is no way you are gay." The woman said.
"He is gay and he is my partner now can you leave him alone as he is not interested in you or any other woman." I heard Jack say from behind me.
"Aw come on man. Seriously every guy is always gay or with someone." The woman pouted.
"Fuck off yeah, he's mine so find some other person to have sex with because I have the person in front of me I want to have sex with." Jack said and the woman just got her drink and walked off.
"Where did you go?" Jack asked and walked round and stood between my legs.
"I didn't want to be the third wheel in yours and George's moment, so I came here do more drinking having women trying to hit on me." I said.
"Babe, your nobodies third wheel, if anyone is going to be the third wheel then it the people who aren't in this relationship." Jack said.
"I felt a spark between you two, is there anything your not tell me Jack." I said and I looked down.
I felt Jack make me look at him.
"There is nothing going on. Walk with me?" Jack said and I nodded and Jack caught hold off my hand and we walked outside away from everyone and we sat on the grass.

"Me and George had a history together." Jack said and I looked down.
"But since I've been with you and George being wth his wife I have never spoke to him. I am so happy being with you Alex I don't ever want anything to get in between us." Jack said and I felt him pull me into his side and kissed the top of my head.
"I haven't been with someone like you. Your sassy, your not afraid to speak your mind and but me back in my place. Too the world your strong, but I get to see the really you and I'm happy I get to see your vulnerable side and I don't want to give that up Lex. I'm happy with you Lex. I don't want you to leave me." Jack said and I looked at him.
"I'm going nowhere okay. But I don't like other people being round you that you have a history with. It makes me worried that you are going to go back to the person and just leave me." I said.
"That your going to leave me like everyone else." I whispered and sniffed.
"Is the alcohol getting to you? Because we both know your a emotional drunk." Jack said and I smiled and sniffed a little.
"Yeah the alcohol is getting to me a little." I said quietly.
"Thought it was, do you want to drink some more or do you want to go back to the hotel?" Jack asked.
"Go back to the hotel." I said quietly and looked down feeling a bit heartbroken that Jack didn't say the words I wanted him to say.
"Come on then." Jack said and got up and helped me up.
Jack went to hug me but I shook my head and walked off.

We got back to the hotel and I was sat outside smoking when Jack walked outside.
"Babe what's going on?" Jack asked and sat next to me.
"Nothing. I'm fine." I said and went to stand up but Jack stopped me.
"You not fine Alex. Tell me what is wrong." Jack said.
"You said nothing when I said I was worried about you leaving me like everyone else. You never not say that you wouldn't leave me. Why didn't you say anything." I said and looked at him.
"Alex you know I wouldn't leave you." Jack said.
"People say that all the time and they do leave Jack! They leave me and them I end up back on the streets again." I said feeling like I'm heading towards a breakdown which I don't want right now but it's happening and I couldn't help it.
"Alex it isn't going to happen. I'm not going to leave you, I never want to leave you. Even if anything was to happen between us I would make sure you never go back to the streets." Jack said.
"Bet you would be so happy I was gone. Then you wouldn't have to worry about me, you wouldn't have to worry about me wanting to kill myself because I wouldn't be your responsibility anymore." I said.
Jack looked at me.

"Alex, do you feel suicidal?" Jack asked carefully.
"No." I said and looked down and wrapped my arms round myself.
"Babe tell me. I'm not going to be mad at you." Jack said softly.
I shook my head and felt a tear roll down my cheek.
"Maybe coming down her was a bad idea, I should of seen you weren't up to this." Jack said and he bent down and picked me up.
Jack walked over to the bathroom and he sat me on the side and I blankly watched him run the bath and him walking back over to me and he stood between my legs.
Jack rested his hand on my cheek and I moved my face into his hand.
"I'm sorry." I whispered and felt myself begin to cry.
Jack pulled me into his chest and held me as I cried into his chest.
Jack pulled back and wiped the tears away.
"Let's get you undressed and in the bath." Jack said quietly.
"You joining me?" I whispered.
"Bit of a stupid question isn't it." Jack chuckled and kissed me which I returned.
"Forgot to say how fuckable you look tonight." Jack said and kissed me as he undone the buttons on my shirt which made me smile.
"So do you." I said quietly and Jack smiled and we both got undressed and sat in the bath until the water got cold.

I guess I was falling asleep in the bath as I heard Jack picking me up out of the bath and walking towards the bed.
"Lex you need to dry yourself off otherwise the bed will get wet." Jack said.
"I'll sleep on the floor." I muttered.
"Bollack naked? I don't think so, I'm the only person who can see you naked." Jack said and I just grumbled quietly.
Jack chuckled and just put me into bed and pulling the covers over me.
"I love you Alex, don't think I don't because I do." Jack said and kissed the side of my head and he climbed over me and got into bed.
I rolled over to cuddled into his chest like I do every night.
"I love you too." I muttered and just fell asleep.

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