Life isn't a fashion statement.

Jacks POV

I came to my senses really quickly and went outside to find that Alex wasn't anywhere to be seen.
"Alex!" I said loudly hoping he was near by to hear me but he wasn't.
"Shit." I jut simply said and turned round and quickly went inside.
"Eric have to seen Alex before you gave him the weed." I said quickly.
"No I haven't how did you know it was me?" Eric said.
"Because the last time I checked you still smoke weed every now and then." I said and ran my hand through my hair starting to really worry about Alex.
"What's the worry?" Eric asked seriously.
"Alex has problems and I'm worried that he's going to do something stupid." I said and Eric looked at me.
"Come on let's go and look for him." Eric said and grabbed his phone along with his coat and we went looking for Alex.

After an hour looking we was still no nearer finding Alex.
"He's fucking gone into hiding Jack and I hate to say it but he is even better than you." Eric said and I looked at him and began to think.
"I used to hide on the hill didn't I." I said suddenly remembering the hill.
"Yeah, but you never really went there that much. Only to think and give everyone a scare." I said and Eric chuckled.
"You certainly did that alright." Eric said.
We started to walk towards the hill in hope that Alex was actually there because if he wasn't I would have no idea where to look.
I smiled and thought about Alex.
"What if he's done something stupid. It would be all my fault." I said and looked down.
"Hey, one thing I have learnt about being with Kat is that its isn't your fault. I mean Kat's episodes can be really bad and having Grace it can be really scary. But Kat has always said to me its like a switch just goes and she has to do something to stop the voices or the urges. I know what its like Jack." Eric said and I smiled sadly at him.
"Alex is going to be okay Jack. I know he will because he has you looking after him." Eric said.
"What if I'm not enough?" I asked.
"I've seen the way he looks at you, he adores you. I know you do too but sometimes his head might just take over and stuff like this happens." Eric said and I looked up and I saw a body on the floor.
"Alex!" I said loudly and ran over and fell to my knees when I saw it was Alex.

" Alex, wake up for me please." I said feeling tears roll down my cheeks.
I checked for a pulse but could only feel a really faint one.
"Call the ambulance Eric." I sniffed and looked at Eric who just nodded and was on his phone.
I looked Alex over and noticed the sleeve was dark red and I looked and saw that Alex had cut himself badly.
"Lex, I'm so sorry." I whispered and kissed his forehead and messed with his hair.
Everything was a blur after I found Alex it wasn't until we got to the hospital that everything began to sink in.

"He could die." I whispered to Eric as I looked through the glass and watched the doctors work on Alex.
"He could, but I'm guessing he's been through a lot and if he can survive that then he can survive this." Eric said as he stood next to me.
"I don't want him to die." I said quietly and Eric pulled me to his side.
"He won't. You just have to protect him as we both know that the press will be all over this and being honest with you I'm going to say that Alex is not going to cope with that very well." Eric said and I sighed and nodded.
"I agree with you. That's why I think its better that when Alex is able to leave we're going back to the UK." I said and Eric looked at me.
"But you never miss Christmas with us." Eric said.
"I know but I don't want Alex to be stressing out like he has been. He doesn't know what its like to be part of a home where family is everything." I said.
"You can't hide him from us. I know that 'ami likes him but he's shut himself away from us." Eric said.
I sighed.
"I'll try but no promises." I said and Eric smiled.
The doctor came out and Eric left me alone for a while.

"Is he okay?" I asked and the doctor nodded.
"Your partner is going to be okay. He just needs to spend a few days here so we can keep an eye in him but then he can go home." The doctor said and I smiled and looked through the window.
"Can I go and see him?" I asked and the doctor smiled and nodded.
"You can, but he's asleep at the moment so I don't know if he'll respond to you but he can hear you." The doctor said and walked off and I walked in the room and went over and sat on the chair and kissed Alex's forehead and caught hold of his hand and just watched him sleep.
"I'm sorry Lex. I didn't mean for this too happen." I said quietly and spent the night watching him sleep.

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